What of your emotional past have you been hoarding?
The other day, I had an Emma Thompson moment in the dressing room of a Saks Fifth Avenue outlet store. If you’ve seen LOVE ACTUALLY, then you have an idea of what I’m referring to. It’s that moment in the film where she ducks into the bedroom to have a quick, private cry before returning to her family as if nothing is wrong – an emotional dance you assume she has done one too many times. Well, I didn’t duck in purposefully to have a cry. But after a long, tiresome day and attempting to fit my post-holiday weight gain butt into some clothes designed for much taller and thinner people than me, I broke down. Not because I was feeling ugly or fat, but because I was depleted. I was beaten and tired from my year and hadn’t taken a moment to exhale it all out. So instead, the moment chose itself, under that horrible, department store lighting.
It was then I recalled that it was the full moon in Cancer that day, so for a Cancer moon like me, it was going to be a day of harsh, emotional challenge. And I had to release it out. However, later that day, after some further retrospection, I realized that the full moon was actually about releasing more than some tears. See, this was not the first time I had been the star of a dressing room cry. But I had to work a little bit harder to make it my last.
It’s important to throw things out and start anew
The Cancer full moon is all about releasing your past. You see, in general, Cancers are all about collecting the past, and they do a good job of utilizing what they gather as they move forward in life. But it can also be easy for a Cancer to hold onto the past in a way that is unhealthy. I’d imagine that the first hoarder was probably a Cancer. Some cave man or woman just rolling a ridiculous amount of stones into the home cave, storing them for some event that would never happen. So this past full moon was well timed with the New Year. You may have found yourself wanting to be rid of unnecessary clutter. And it’s important to throw things out and start anew. But the greatest place to take stock is inside of your self. What of your emotional past have you been hoarding?
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