Living in the shadows can be cold and depressing,
so let’s all get out into the light together and shine, bitches
I recently went to a metaphysical bookshop and saw that there was a woman doing readings there. I felt an urge to do it and it had been a long time since I let someone sit across from me and give me some truth/advice. So I got one. At first, the reading wasn’t giving me all of my life. It felt a little general, and she sort of had me doing most of the work. But once we got into some specific questions, she really did hit on a few things that felt right on for me. More importantly, she just told me some things that regardless, I think I needed to hear. For one thing, she said that I had a problem with shining. “You keep yourself in the shadows so you don’t have to put yourself out there.” It’s true. I know that one of my greatest challenges comes with allowing the spotlight to shine on me. She also said that I had to stop hiding my truth, and that I would be best when I could just allow myself to say what I feel and not be passive aggressive about it. Something I know entirely too much about. “Be you”, she shouted. “People are gonna love you or they’re gonna hate you. So who gives a shit?”
People are either going to love you or hate you. You can’t control that. So why go about modulating yourself to the point of submission in hopes that you won’t cause a scene. You will just end up stuck in the shadow of your thoughts, nodding yes or shaking your head no when really you just want to scream. It’s important that each of us be all of ourselves all of the time. Yes, we don’t want to hurt feelings. We don’t want to say something we’ll regret. But there is a thing called tact. It can be helpful when called upon. There is also a thing called indigestion. And when we continuously stifle our truths or our deepest emotions, we can cause ourselves a great indigestion of the soul. And both our spirits and our stomachs will suffer.
We can’t get by with just doing some yoga or watching some Oprah, thinking we are getting deep with ourselves
It’s time to forge a new, deeper relationship with your truer, unique self, and the Aquarius New Moon is here to help you see it through. Yes, you’ve been told before to just let go and be yourself. But do you really know who “yourself” is, or are you just playing along? Maybe you have a job working a 10-6 but really consider yourself an artist. But are you really an “artist”? What does that mean? I classify myself as a writer, but if I were not sitting here before this blog post, would I still be considered one? And how does that relate to the man I am with my family or my man or my best friends? Does it relate? Yes, this is some deeper psycho-spiritual shit, but if we are going to live a life of greater, deeper meaning, then we can’t get by with just doing some yoga or watching some Oprah, thinking we are getting deep with ourselves.
We have to ask ourselves the bigger questions so we can know ourselves in a bigger way. And in turn, we can then BE ourselves in a bigger way. We can better understand the unique definition of our spirit and live accordingly. We can do it loudly and proudly and in a way that feels truly authentic. For if we can’t be our most authentic self, then we are just too busy giving a shit about what others think of us. And let me tell you, living in the shadows can be cold and depressing, so let’s all get out into the light together and shine, bitches.
Here’s some more direct talk for each of the signs: