That Aries Full Moon When You Had an Emotional Rebellion


I have always loved astrology.

Ever since my mom introduced me to the horoscopes at the back of the Los Angeles Daily News. But in 1999, on a whim, I took a job at a metaphysical bookshop. On my first day there, the store manager Angelique, a sweet witchy diva, told me that I wouldn’t be behind the counter forever. “You’ll be working here as an astrologer someday.” Yeah, okay lady, I thought to myself. Cut to months later, it’s my 23rd birthday and I’m reluctantly getting a past life reading with a beautiful Brit named Michelle. She was the type of reader who would book up months in advance but she’d had a rare, last minute cancellation and the time had gone to me. Barely minutes into the reading, she had hooked me with extremely personal insights that no one could have just guessed on. Toward the end of the reading, she asked me about my relationship with astrology. I thought back on Angelique’s words. “I like to read my horoscope.” She laughed and said that I should study it. “You’ve been an astrologer many times over. It will come back to you in no time.” I shrugged at the information but figured why not. I quickly dug into my study of the planets and their ancient divination system. Six months later, I was out from behind the counter and working as a full time astrologer. It has been with me since.

Owning my place as an astrologer took a lot of time and courage. It was challenging enough coming out to people as gay, but coming out as an astrologer presented a whole new level of awkward. Sometimes it was easy. People would find it unique or interesting. Of course, they usually wanted to know what I could tell them about them. But there were also times of being joked about or dismissed. So much so, that I abandoned the work for a short time. With time and friendly encouragement, I have come to realize that it has always been a part of me, and that won’t ever change. I certainly don’t claim to know how astrology entirely works, but I do know that it works for me and offers me extremely meaningful connections with the people I have the pleasure of working with on their charts. I also know that if I chose not to own this piece of myself, I would be denying a huge part of me that wants to blossom, whether just based from this lifetime or countless other life times before.

I am an astrologer, and I love it.


The Full Moon in Aries wants us to fully embrace the pieces of ourselves that we may not entirely understand but that make us wholly unique

Aries is all about new beginnings. It’s the first sign of the zodiac. Therefore, it can be a little naïve and blind to reality. But that also means that it isn’t tainted by others’ perceptions of reality. Aries feels free to boldly create the reality it envisions. It can charge forth sometimes without care for others around, but it also hopes to inspire others to follow in its path. Aries has a strong leadership quality, as people are attracted to its tenacity and confidence, but it wants to lead people to their own personal rebellion. With Uranus, the planet of inspiration and uniqueness, joining the moon at this full moon time, it amplifies that Aries boldness. It isn’t the time for your outer personality and inner emotional self to war against each other. The two must embrace and integrate. Your sun (soul) and moon (heart) must dance together during this time, meaning you can’t be one person out in the world and another when alone at home. This separation of you will no longer fly.

This is emotional rebellion time. It’s time to feel your passions, goals, and desires as if for the first time. Fall in love all over again. Push yourself to take risks with how you feel. Commit to each moment in your life with your whole heart. Stop filtering yourself for fear of judgment. Fuck the haters. The haters are just a reflection of your own insecurities. And hell, sometimes the greatest hater to your life is you. So you gotta stop that shit. Use this full moon time to get real deep with yourself and communicate about what is really meaningful to you. Ask yourself, “What do I want to define me and my life moving forward?” Wonder what life could be like if no one was watching. No one was judging or scolding or side-eyeing. Just you, no holds barred. No self-imposed limitations on who you could be, who you could love, what you could accomplish. Now how can you bring that forth into your real world life?

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That Libra New Moon When You Really Pulled Yourself Together


The future self you’ve always dreamed of becoming can finally be the you of now

I recently went back into therapy and am so glad that I did. First off, going to therapy does not make one crazy. I would hope at this point, the stigma around therapy is old news. And in all honesty, I wear the fact that I go with pride. I believe that anyone who is willing to sit in a room with a stranger and be vulnerable for an hour will only make themselves a better person in their actual real world relationships. It also offers the opportunity to dissect yourself in a way that purges your mentality of old modes of operation. For me, there are just some outdated ways of seeing myself that I am ready to be rid of for good. There is only so many years that I can allow the traumas of a childhood gone by to help dictate my responses to the world I inhabit now. It’s time to relate to myself in a new way.

The Libra New Moon is here to help shepherd in a new, advanced level of relating to yourself, with the specific goal of restoring balance to your emotional equilibrium. What areas of your life are consuming you, perhaps causing you to ignore or avoid other, just as important areas of your life? Do you also have old ways of seeing yourself that need to be banished once and for all? Can you really use this moment in time to take stock of where you’re emotionally stagnant? If you have been craving movement in one area of your life but just haven’t seen it, you may want to pause and consider how you truly relate to yourself when it comes to that part of you.


Let’s say that you are feeling stuck in your relationship life. Consider the story you’ve grown accustomed to in your head when it comes to your love life. “It’ll never happen.” “Maybe it’s just not for me.” Or you could be saying to everyone, “I’m happy on my own and it’ll happen when it happens”, but then rush home to cry while you secretly eat a tub of ice cream and watch Sex and The City reruns. You may be connecting some sort of shame or internalized guilt to your love life, thus building a wall up around that part of you. No one can penetrate the “I’m going to be alone forever” wall. They say love comes along when you’re not looking, and that is true. It’s because you are so content in all areas of your life and have such a pure, loving relationship with yourself, that you aren’t focusing any negativity into that part of you. You are loving yourself so much that someone is able to notice and say, “Damn, I want to love that person too.”

So what part of you isn’t being fostered as much as it should be, causing an imbalance in your life? Your friendships or family? Your work life? Your larger, life purpose goals? Your spirituality? Identify which piece(s) of you need attention and care and make a list of possible old mentality habits you have around those areas. You may also just need to make some forward thinking goals in those areas. For love, consider one goal to be, “I am going to date myself for a month”. Allow yourself to fall head over heels in love with you. Aries, Gemini, Leo, and Libra – I’m looking at you primarily for that one.


Now is an amazing time to dust whatever sadness you have been carrying around off of your shoulders. You no longer have to carry that burden around with you. The idea that you have to be everything to everyone is a lie. You owe one person your full attention, and that is you. So really use this time. Get still with yourself and ask the hard questions. Where are you falling behind for yourself? Then think long and hard about why you can’t seem to give a certain area of your life enough love. It may stem back to some childhood trauma of yours that you thought was long gone by. Well, old habits don’t die easy, but with time and attention, they will die. And then you can truly start to relate to yourself from a new place of self-acceptance and understanding. The future self you’ve always dreamed of becoming can finally be the you of now. You deserve that. I deserve that. We all deserve that.

Happy Libra New Moon!

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Posted by on September 30, 2016 in Uncategorized


That Pisces Full Moon When You Found a Feather


The Pisces Full Moon is one that asks you to give over to the flow of your path

Years ago, my man and I were in Granada, Spain, and we decided to go out in search of this hotel that was supposed to have the most remarkable view. We didn’t remember the name of it. All we knew was that it was across the way from the ancient and well-known fortress, The Alhambra. Our American brains figured it would be a breeze. The Alhambra is situated on the highest hilltop overlooking the city. We contemplated a cab but figured the walk would be more scenic. And it seemed relatively easy to find. We could see it up above so the idea was to just keep walking up. So we ventured out, taking winding streets that eventually got narrower and less populated. After about forty minutes of twisting and turning, we had lost sight of the Alhambra and started to feel lost ourselves. So we argued. “We should’ve just taken the cab.” “What were we thinking?” “Are we going to get mugged?” “Should we turn around?” It was not looking good. But still, something inside me said that it would all be fine. Not to worry. And it was then that I saw it. A feather.

I once read that finding a feather meant that you were on your path. It was a shaman’s omen, a touchable north star. So in that moment of real concern, a spiritual reminder of presence was necessary. “Look, a feather”, I said, pointing to a feather lying at the tip of a road. My man was like, “So.” I told him of the significance and being the hippies we are, he softened. “Okay, so we should head in the direction of it?” he wondered. I nodded and we continued on our way. From that point on, instead of embracing fear, we embraced wonder. Strange streets became interesting paths of street art and the occasional burst of music from a nearby window. And there were more feathers, which we would excitedly point out to each other. After about another twenty minutes or so, we turned a corner and saw it. The Hotel Alhambra Palace. We cheered and hugged. Soon, we were lounging on their terrace with a gorgeous rose and a breathtaking view of the entire city. We had given over to our path, not given up, and found ourselves in paradise.

Whatever roads you end up on are leading you toward your goals

The Pisces Full Moon is one that asks you to give over to the flow of your path. The fact that it coincides with a Lunar Eclipse only intensifies its energy, calling you to be a braver version of yourself. And it all occurs while you navigate through this current Mercury Retrograde in Virgo, which may have you all tongue-tied in the brain. But you must find grounding in the core of yourself and know that if you can be still within, whatever roads you end up on are leading you toward your goals. It’s when you get so caught up in questioning and overthinking that you fall off the path. That’s when we all turn around and miss what is calling us forward. And I would’ve been so bummed if I had missed that beautiful journey with my man, and that view. And that rose! So we must all be better about wading through our brain poop so that we can really get in touch with the spirit’s true agenda at hand.

A full moon is a time of fulfillment, so right now is an opportunity to ignite the fuse of closure around something in your life. Primarily, given the Pisces/Virgo connection, it’s when you must align what you want inside with what’s going on outside. How are you really taking care of yourself and finally going for what you know you want out of your life? Can you completely let go of the mental and emotional blockages that are keeping you from staying the path? Is it truly time to trust in your heart what you know is meant for you and allow it into your life? When you can get out of your own way by getting out of your head and fully into the world around you, you can take the time to notice the feathers at your feet. And those feathers are spirit telling you that all is okay. You can find your way.


Let this post be a feather for you.

Here are some deeper insights for each sign. And read your rising sign as well, as that can offer up more and sometimes even greater insight into your current state. And if you don’t know yours, I can try to help you find it out. Just hit me up!

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Posted by on September 16, 2016 in Uncategorized


That Sagittarius Full Moon II, 2016


Our greatest goal is to get in touch with the core of ourselves

Over the weekend, I was at a party and the conversation turned to the full moon, which then led it to turn to me. “So what does it mean, Angel?” Please note that I had probably had a few drinks at this point, but I’m always game to get into some astrology talk. “Well, it’s the second one in Sagittarius, which makes it even more meaningful. It’s all about truth. Deal with your truth or get the fuck off the pot.” Everyone laughed but then someone chimed in, “Isn’t that what they’re always about? Get in touch with your truth?” Someone else exclaimed in agreement. “Yeah, it’s always the same thing.” At the time, I belted out some response about how it’s always about truth because that’s what most people need to hear. Most are not in touch with their truth, which makes life harder for the rest of us. I don’t know if I made much sense at the time, and I agree that it can feel like every spiritual message is about getting in touch with your true self. But that’s for a reason. It’s because it’s true. Our greatest goal is to get in touch with the core of ourselves, and every day offers an opportunity to connect to that personal, inherent truth so that we can actualize our most valuable self.

Sagittarius is the truth seeker, so to have two full moons in that sign means that the universal energy is urging us to release our greatest truths out into the world. That can come in the form of an important relationship conversation, a creative project, or a deep internal realization that we must come to terms with inside our heart, mind, or spirit. Whatever it is isn’t easy. A lot in our lives may feel at odds with each other right now. Our home life may be sparring in some way with our work life. Or our internal self may want to do one thing that our external life isn’t assisting us in achieving. It may just be that the version of us that our past created is trying to give way to a version of us that we want to be now, but for some reason, we are unable to let go of whatever thought pattern, habit, relationship, job, or what have you that is holding us back. The genesis of our struggle isn’t always easy to connect to, but once we dig into the closet that houses all of our crap, we can uncover it and make way to free ourselves to be entirely who we want to be.


The Sagittarius moon wants us to know that the more in touch we are with our truth, the clearer our path will be before us

So yes, I know a lot of this can sound broad and leave you wondering what the hell do I do about all this. But if you really take the time to understand yourself and your inner workings, you can make these general ideas concrete. And you will realize that it’s just not worth wasting time in this life. We really do allow ourselves to be clouded by the shit of our past, whether we know it or not. That is the human way. Our conditioning can keep us paralyzed from moving forward. The Sagittarius moon wants us to know that the more in touch we are with our truth, the clearer our path will be before us.

Here are some closer looks at the signs and how this full moon is affecting them:

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That Scorpio Full Moon, 2016



The key to this current Scorpio Full Moon is to acknowledge the signs and recognize where you need growth and change in your life

I write this from a plane 33,000 feet in the air, en route to Los Angeles from New York. The first time I made this trip was over fifteen years ago, in 1999 (Prince reference – we just lost him today, may he rest). I had gone with some friends and had one of the most magical trips of my life. We dressed up and went to classy bars. We stayed in a jazz-themed hostel across the street from Central Park. We ate pizza every day and didn’t give a fuck. Magic. It was during that transformative trip I realized that I had no choice but to move to New York City. Two years later I did. That too was magical. The plan was to move there, make theater, get a play onto Broadway, and become a true artist. Needless to say, things didn’t play out that way.

Two years later, I was living in a run-down walk up on 7th St and Avenue C, and there was no glamour to be found. I still had my dreams, though I felt like they were rejecting me. I did write and direct a play, but it was downtown, far from Broadway. In hindsight, still a triumph, yet at the time, it felt like a disaster. After about two years in NYC, I went home to L.A. to visit family and friends, in hopes they wouldn’t see my sadness. However, it showed. I had been working part-time at a movie studio in New York and was in love with it, but I didn’t see myself working a full-time office job. That wouldn’t be the way to true artistry. But in L.A., I saw many of my friends working in the business and enjoying it. And the more I thought about it, the more I thought that working in film would be a larger way to reach people. Maybe I should just work my way into that business and see if that was my path to storytelling.


I went back to New York confused. I loved the city so much. I loved all it represented. But perhaps I had put in my time there, gained the necessary knowledge, and now it was time to allow the stream of life to take me in a different direction. But that would mean everything I believed about myself wasn’t true. It would mean that I would have to let go of the life I thought I was going to live. I would need to shift my perception of me in some way. I would have to transform in a major way. Could I do that?

I rode over the Williamsburg Bridge from JFK, contemplating my future, telling myself that if the Universe had a plan for me, if I was meant to leave NYC, it would illuminate the path. It was late and went to bed, determined to pay attention to the signs. The next morning, I awoke to my roommate knocking on my make-shift door. “You up?” I responded and she said we needed to talk. “I know you just got home but I don’t think this should wait. And I didn’t want to bug you on your trip.” A pause. “I’ve sold the apartment. We have to be out in a month.” My life lit up. I stood up on the bed and started bouncing all over it. “Are you okay?” she asked, a curious look on her face.

I saw the sign. “I’m great. I’m moving back to L.A.!”


A month later, I was on this flight again, flying west. Once in L.A., it all unfolded. I healed some old wounds with my parents. I got a reputable film business job on very little experience in less than six months. I guess you could say it was right place, right time. Now, the transition wasn’t all easy. The mental shift took much time. I mourned the loss of my New York dream, beating myself up for giving up. I eventually did learn to recognize that I had realized my dream, but just in the way that I needed to. And I had also let go and trusted the Universe when it spoke to me. And now some dozen years later, I feel in the flow of my path more than I have in some time. I have learned to embrace change, and the growth of new dreams.

The key to this current Scorpio Full Moon is to acknowledge the signs and recognize where you need growth and change in your life. Somewhere in your life, you need to let go of a version of yourself that you’ve been holding onto so that you can embrace the transformation that wants to take hold of you at this time. I know that for me, I told myself that I had to either be a “true artist” or be behind the scenes, in the shadows. And for some time, I’ve been operating solely from the latter. However, I know now that I am an artist who also stands back and helps others. I can be all things. The only one telling me that I can’t is me, and it’s time to blow that bullshit out the window. I’m leaving it here, 33,000 feet in the air, where it cannot reach me.


So what version of you do you need to release so that you can ground into the true you? Today is that day. Commit to your personal growth so that you can evolve and get closer to the authenticity that is in your heart, in your soul, and needs to be expressed. Maybe it’s career-related. Perhaps you need to step up and let a relationship evolve, or dissolve. You could be contemplating a move but just feel afraid to take on all that it will entail. Or there could just be a really challenging conversation you’re avoiding that could ultimately be the key to a great personal evolution.

There are messages being delivered to you by conversations and experiences in your life. Maybe even in dreams. So dig into them. Don’t be taken advantage of by your insecurities. They will hold you back because change is their greatest fear. And you don’t have time for that. Also, insecurities sometimes take on the form of people in your life. So if someone is reflecting that onto you, consider how you’re meant to deal with it, whether it’s removing him or her from your life, or standing up for yourself.

I have faith in you. In the words of that legend, Prince, “And if the elevator tries to bring you down, Go crazy, punch a higher floor.” You got this.

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Posted by on April 21, 2016 in Uncategorized


That Aries New Moon, 2016


This morning was the New Moon in Aries, so today is an emotional New Year’s Day for us all. It’s an opportunity to reset your internal self and connect more deeply to the person you want to be projecting out into the world. That basically means that now is the time to take all that you have learned about yourself this past year, the good and the bad, and reconfigure it so that you can release what isn’t working and start amplifying what is working. That means confronting some pieces of yourself that you just keep holding onto (feelings, jobs, relationships, habits, etc.) and you know are not serving your best self, and just letting those motherfuckers go. It’s time. You need to make it so. This isn’t one of those times where you sit back and let Jesus take the wheel. You are in the driver’s seat of this life, my friend. So drive.

A big piece of this process is being up front with yourself about where you’re at right now. Ask yourself, “Are you happy?” If you’re not entirely so, then dig into what area of your life is making you unhappy. I know it isn’t easy for all of us to do this kind of internal work on ourselves. Or we feel we’ve done it to death. Either way, start anew and digest this question so you can be present to the answers you are harvesting right now, in this moment. Then start to see what areas of your life are suffering. Where do you need to focus more? What outdated shit is blocking the flow? Can you be adult enough to own these truths and make the necessary changes? The good thing is, in this moment, the planets are supporting this process for all of us so we should all take advantage.


You can’t expect new results from old, tired actions. You just can’t. You can’t expect that new job or man or woman or home or feeling of happiness to come in if you’re approaching it all with the same ideas and attitudes. And yes, it’s easy to say, “Just change the way you think about something and the life change you desire will smoothly follow.” But the more you get into that flow, the flow of believing in yourself and that you’re deserving of your goals, the more you will see them come into your life. And also just admit it, the old shit you’ve been doing and thinking ain’t working anyway so why not try out something new. A fresh approach is always a smart move for any blocked project. So why shouldn’t that work on some element of your life? This is the kind of thinking you should be engaging in for this New Moon.

There was a time when I suffered from insane anxiety. I’m talking crippling, debilitating anxiety. I used to believe that any day would be my last. One day was an earthquake. The next, a heart attack. There was even a day where I found myself curled up against a wall on a very busy sidewalk, afraid that I was dying. I must’ve just looked like some lost, homeless youth, since it was San Francisco in the 90’s and people were curled up on the sidewalk on a daily basis. But that didn’t stop me from having these thoughts and anxious feelings. I was just convinced that my world was going to end.


During this time, I was writing a play and working out all my angst through it. I was also working at this metaphysical bookshop near my house. One night, I stayed late to help with some inventory. On the way home, it started to drizzle. I only lived a few blocks away, so it didn’t bother me. It was two am and the streets were empty. I felt as if the city was mine. At an intersection, my walk light lit up and I stepped into the street to cross. I didn’t realize that the car coming toward me wasn’t aware of my existence, and I was struck and thrown fifteen feet into the intersection. It was a hit and run. A witness said that after landing, I stood up and walked out of the intersection, into some nearby bushes. My memory begins from there, with people standing around me, flashing lights, and an EMT asking me questions. I’ll spare you the details, but I didn’t look pretty. The EMT however was, so I of course asked him to hold my hand through the entire ambulance ride. He obliged. Again, it was San Francisco.

Weeks later, I was still laid up in my bed. My sister and friends were taking care of me. I was on the road to recovery. And I had a lot of time to think. But my mind shifted away from all the negativity that had been filling it before. Something terrible had happened to me, but my world didn’t end. I got back to work on my play and read through what I had written. I shit you not, in some of the last few pages, a character I modeled mostly after me went on a tirade to his friend about life. “I just feel like my life doesn’t matter. Like something terrible is going to happen to me. I bet I get hit by a car tomorrow.” I was stunned. I had written that shit. I couldn’t believe it. Some part of me couldn’t help but to think that I had called this experience in and was also just very blessed and lucky. That experience of reading my words while lying in bed with a wounded leg shifted me. Over time, the anxiety didn’t go away entirely, but it changed and it became manageable. Thankfully, I realized that my mind had a lot to do with the world I created for myself. And I needed to be responsible for it.

Our personalities are the reflections of our mentalities

I’m not saying that we are magicians. I am not saying that we are entirely responsible for our pain and suffering. There are forces at play that call us to our destiny and sometimes it’s a rough one. However, I do believe we must choose how we approach it all and manage it. I believe that how we treat ourselves on the inside does affect our outside, whether it’s the situations we call in, the people we pull close to ourselves, or simply the person we reflect out into the world. Our personalities are the reflections of our mentalities. And we can shape and shift these elements, as we get closer to our true selves.

That is the New Moon in Aries. May it be good to you. And you, be good to you too.

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Posted by on April 7, 2016 in Uncategorized


That Full Moon in Libra Life, 2016


The Libra Full Moon, a time when we are called to release anything from our lives that is pushing us off balance

So, I’ve been gone a while from the blog. Checked out, if you will. Not because I fell out of love with you, dear readers. And not because I lost touch with astrology. Well, entirely at least. I still had some personal clients here and there. But mostly I was immersed in other areas of my life to a degree that I just wasn’t able to balance it all. Or at least that is what I told myself. I just didn’t have the time to write the blog. Now is that entirely true? No. I could’ve made the time. But anyhow, this isn’t my time to explain or apologize. Now is the time to dive back in. And funnily enough, we find ourselves at the Libra Full Moon, a time when we are called to release anything from our lives that is pushing us off balance. That way we have no reason to say we can’t find the time to balance it all. From this point forward, we have the opportunity to see that thinking like this is just a mentality of procrastination bred from our fears to commit.

Moving forward, we all must make balance a priority in our lives. You already know the thing, the habit, the relationship that is holding you back from attaining it. But before you go fully exorcising those demons, get clear on what balance means for you. It’s a broad term and means something different for each of us. Thankfully, Mercury, the planet that rules the mind and all things communication, is a part of this Full Moon. It’s there in the action to say, “Hey, you know what shit you need to fix. Don’t try to meditate to the answer. Don’t hope someone else is gonna come along and tell you what you need to fix. You KNOW the answer so get to fixing it!” Well, that’s how my mind talks to me at least. Anyway, all this is to say you have the answer available to you, right now. It’s the thing you’ve felt nagging you. Whether it’s something you’ve been doing too much of, or something you haven’t been doing enough. It’s that person you’ve been giving all of yourself to in lieu of giving anything to yourself. Or substitute that for a job. Or your family. What else is getting more time than YOU in your life? The balance must shift.


Make the changes you need to restore order to the kingdom of your life

This isn’t just a simple shift either. Let me guess that you may be feeling a little do or die these days. You may be feeling like what you do now will have ramifications that echo out into your future in a big way. Well, it’s because they do. So don’t sleep on this cosmic chance to shift and change the balance and flow of your life. Get woke! Utilize this Libra Full Moon energy to jump off the lazy train and make the changes you need to restore order to the kingdom of your life! NOW IS THE TIME!

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Posted by on March 22, 2016 in Uncategorized