That Scorpio Full Moon When It Was Change or Bust

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The Scorpio Full Moon wants you to shift away from your outdated ways of thinking and feeling and trade in your old stories for some new ones

Recently, I had an interesting reading with a client who didn’t really feel like she was all that connected to spirituality. Sure, she thought crystals were cool and she was open to her friend’s gift of a reading with me, but she didn’t really have a firm foundation for her own connection to spirit. In reading her chart, it basically said that she needed to establish one in order to live as her best self. “Spirituality doesn’t have to be religion or some big deal. It can simply be about cultivating a relationship with presence”, I told her. “Sometimes you just have to learn how to be okay with stillness and silence so that you can be present to the signs and symbols that are trying to appear in your life.” That idea resonated with her, and she seemed to open up to thinking and feeling about a relationship with spirit in a whole new way.

At the end of the reading, I glanced at my deck of small animal cards. The Moose was visible, as it was the last one I had pulled myself. I had the thought to have her pull one, as I sometimes do with clients but then brushed it off. Our reading had already gone long and it was getting late. We chatted as I moved a chair back into place and saw that a larger version of the Moose card was on the floor. Unbeknownst to me, it had fallen out of the back of my notebook where I had placed it after a reading long ago. She asked me about it, and I told her the crazy story associated with it, and my wedding – I’ll tell you another time. But it all made me think that perhaps she should pull a card. Maybe it was a sign. So I grabbed the small deck and shuffled them up a bunch. I told her to use her left hand and pick one. She did. And, there was the Moose. Immediately, we both flipped out, laughing. She couldn’t believe it. Skeptical, she shouted, “Let me see that deck!” I fanned them out, showing her that each one was different. She had just chosen that one. Its message:

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It was beyond prophetic in regards to everything we’d just spoken about in our reading. Neither of us could believe the serendipity. I exclaimed to her, “The signs! Pay attention to the signs! “ It amplified everything we had been talking about, and it was a good reminder for her to shift her perspective on living a more present, spirit-based life. It was also a reminder for me to have someone pull a card the second I think of it, without a second guess. I have usually been a person who second-guesses everything I do or think. In the past, I’ve allowed fear and insecurity to get in the way of belief and trust. But that shit’s got to change. If I can help shift an agnostic woman into believing there is something connecting us all and offering us guidance, then I can certainly shift myself into being someone that no longer allows self-doubt to distract me from my truth. And that is my new story.

I am no longer someone who allows self-doubt to distract me from my truth.

The Scorpio Full Moon wants you to shift away from your outdated ways of thinking and feeling and trade in your old stories for some new ones. Where or how in your life have you been keeping yourself in a mental or emotional rut? Who or what have you been a “victim” to in your heart and mind, even though the reality of the situation has long been gone? It’s time to honor our subconscious, spirit-based desire to transform in a big way and release whatever old patterns we have been perpetuating. We all allow ourselves to get caught up in our beliefs to the point that we can’t see past them. We become unable to free ourselves from how we’ve grown accustomed to seeing ourselves in certain areas of our lives. We may be saying, “I’m unlucky in love.” “I will never forgive him/her.” “If only I’d done something different, my life would be so much better.” There are a ton of these stories that we’ve told ourselves forever that have now created the present state of our heart and mind. But what if we released them for good and wrote new, more self-loving ones?

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Now is the time to believe in YOU in a whole new way. I know that you’ve heard this kind of message before, but more than ever, you must let go of the old shit. It’s time to forgive, make amends, and move on. It’s time to release the feelings and thoughts of the past that have hoarded away inside of you for far too long, causing you to hurt and heartache.

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Approach the situations of your life in a new way, with new eyes and new ideas. Pay attention to how you talk to yourself and to others. If you’re always feeding negative speak to your mind and to others, then you’re simply cultivating a life of negativity. That’s all you’ll be able to see. So give yourself a brand makeover, as the kids would say. Ground into the reality of who you actually are – not whom you’ve been seeing yourself as for years now. Or more so, as the person you told yourself to be based on what parents, the cool kids, old friends, TV told you to be.

Be willing to change. That’s all it really takes. You need the recognition that there are parts of you that need to change so that you can grow. Whatever you’ve been most stubborn about releasing is exactly what needs to go. It doesn’t need to be hard. It doesn’t need to derail friendships or careers or ruin lives. You simply just need to start, inside, with a little personal shift within. The rest, like that Moose card lying on the floor, will then appear to you and guide you toward your next step.

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That Libra Full Moon When You Were All You

The Libra Full Moon is here, inviting us to release whatever is halting our life’s complete balance. The key is in how we approach all of the aspects of our lives. Are we entering into every situation with our authenticity intact? Can we bring our whole self into every relationship without censorship, without fear of judgment or ridicule? What piece(s) of ourselves are we withholding from the people in our lives in order to preserve what we think is our truest self?

In order to fully welcome balance in, we must embrace the chaos alive at this time. We must dive into it, ready to transform, apt to release whatever piece of ourselves isn’t helping us to activate our highest power. What can we contribute at this time that is in alignment with our most authentic being? How is our unique self able to play a role in making our life, our world better? When are we fully willing to change what isn’t working?

The sky is full of retrograde at this time, so take the next few weeks to reflect on how to best serve your mind, your heart, your sense of personal responsibility, and your relationship with joy. That last one is key. Without a sense of hope, there is no current to swim into. Remember that you can love yourself through all of the heartache and sadness and confusion. 

You have to believe in you, wholeheartedly. 

You have to believe that you, at your core, are great enough to achieve your goals. To help yourself and others heal. To make a difference, as best you can. And by following your heart, with sincere passion, that you will be called into situations and relationships that nurture you and make you feel whole. That give you balance.

Happy Libra Full Moon!

That Aries New Moon That Lit the Flame

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That Aries new moon is in such effect, I just had to light the candles and get into some ritual with it. Aries is fire. The entire sky is either in a fire planet or being ruled by one right now. So we all must allow our lives to be a little bit on fire right now too.

Ignite the fire of passion within you for a greater inspiration in your life. The world may be crazy right now but you have the opportunity to find a quiet calm within the blowing winds around you. Whether your greatest challenges have been in love, career, communication, or personal well-being, you can light a new path for yourself. You just have to put your personal power into it – there is no time for sitting back and waiting for someone to come along and guide you.

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Your personal power is only challenged if you try to bring all of your past baggage along with you into this next chapter. Kick it all to the curb and move into tomorrow without being held back by past beliefs and ways of being. That shit is tired. And that’s why you’ve been tired. So stop carrying around the excess weight and dive into your dreams. Remember, you can only live your dreams when you stop relating to them as fantasy.

Love yourself enough now to know that you deserve to live your best, truest existence.

What are you waiting for?

Happy Pisces New Moon!

Happy Pisces New Moon to all! A great opportunity to write yourself a new story about how you relate to your intuition and imagination. 

Have you allowed yourself to be fully in tune with what you know to be your authentic being, or has some old way of thinking and being held you back? Are you able to dream and imagine the best life for yourself or have you lost faith in the future? Meditate today on how to begin anew, on how to see, think, and feel about yourself in a new way so that you can then manifest what you know in your heart to be your divine truth. I believe in you. 

And that’s not just an amazing Kylie Minogue song. That’s my heart’s message to you.

That Leo Full Moon When You Felt Good

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My mom is thrusting patterned shirt after patterned shirt at me, saying, “What about this one? I just want you to look nice.” At the moment, I may be wearing sweatpants and a t-shirt that says, “This shirt is my Halloween costume.” And it’s August. But I’m also twelve so I think that’s allowed. 

I swat away almost every shirt she tosses toward me, knowing that they won’t fit or will make me look like a large sectional from the seventies. I’m at least fifty pounds overweight at this point. I’ve also tried on at least twenty shirts of varying styles in this store over the past hour and nothing is fitting my body, so I’m tired. And I’m ashamed. I may not know how to intellectualize that or deal with it, but I am completely ashamed.

I’m ashamed that I’m not the kid whose mom is telling him he can’t get everything he wants because he just has so many options. I’m over feeling like a loser and a failure. My mom knows this. And because we’re both young, respectively, she says to me, “Well you just have to lose weight. Nothing is ever going to fit you looking like this.” She pauses. “And no one’s ever going to love you if you look like this.”
Boom.

Flash to me now as an adult who forgives my mother for saying this because she is nothing but pure love for me, and she knows now that she didn’t always say the right thing. But at the time, her statement buckled me and helped to carve out a mentality of never being good enough, of being less than. I forever became that fat kid, a disappointment because I didn’t fit in easily enough. And over time, that idea expanded beyond my looks. (I have since lost the weight and am confident in my appearance.) Subconsciously, I translated that mentality to other areas of my life. In work, I settled for seeing myself as less than, even in positions that I was specifically hired to do. I allowed myself to sabotage a job so that I could ultimately make true the feeling that I was not good enough for it. In relationships, I settled for guys that I knew were no good for me but figured they were the best I could get. Tale as old as time, I know. Most recently, I’ve realized how this works in my creativity, holding back my most authentic voice because “no one’s ever gonna love it.” All old, outdated ways of thinking and being that have taken me years to notice and shift. But with acknowledgment, I am doing my best to move forward and be better.

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Now is the time to take responsibility for your own authentic self and give it the freedom to enjoy life.

This Leo Full Moon is here to help all of us acknowledge how we may be holding onto some old, unnecessary baggage, and thus, holding back some of our inner roar. Because it coincides with a lunar eclipse, it’s very connected to past patterns. So we can look to the last eclipses from mid September of last year and August of 2015 to help get a sense of where in our lives we’re supposed to be looking here. What was going on in those two times for you and is there any correlation to something going on for you now? Is there an area in your life where you’re feeling suppressed and just “not good”? That could be a clue in. Whatever the result of your findings, what can you do or what do you need more of in your life to reclaim that joy?

Now is the time to take responsibility for your own authentic self and give it the freedom to enjoy life. Can you own what that means for you without caving into some sort of fear around what others will think of you? Shit, what you will think of you? Because you can have an idea for who you think you should be, or what you should be doing with your life, your job, your home, your relationship, etc., but then you have to ask if it’s really what’s in alignment with your soul’s passion right now. You have to ask who you’re making decisions about your life for: those in your life who you’re afraid will judge you, an old you that you don’t want to disappoint, or the you that is you, right now, reading this. Know that what will make you happy now is way more important that that thing you told yourself would make you happy years ago. And they may be the same thing so that’s dope. But if you’re still approaching it in the same way you did before, then you’re probably just banging your head against a door with no room on the other side of it.

So here’s a full moon ritual for you. Draw a picture of yourself, the ideal you that you’ve always envisioned yourself to be. If you’re like me and can’t really draw, then just write out the important details to help illustrate that person. Put all your intention of who you think you’re destined to be into it.

Then, in a safe way, burn it.

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Do this because you need to release the idea of who you think you are meant to be so that you can actualize the authentic you who is all ready to bust through now. All of that old stuff that you’re ready to let go of still has a hand in drawing that picture of the ideal. So let it all go, in one fell swoop, so that you can be excited and surprised by the real you, the present you, that is ready to emerge and claim your space in the world in a way that you haven’t allowed yourself to ever before.

That Cancer Full Moon When You Were in All Your Glory

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It’s time to feel. All of it.

The Cancer full moon is always my favorite. Full disclosure, my own moon is in Cancer so it always feels like I’m dialing in on some profound emotional experience or revelation on these days. Thank God I scheduled therapy for today. But I also love it because Cancer rules the moon, so it also marks her yearly moment to allow us all a collective emotional exhale. We may all be feeling a little emotionally constipated right now, stopped up from all the feelings we’ve had to confront and absorb over these last six months. Hell, these last two months have been enough of a roller coaster to last me a lifetime. But consider that whatever emotional process we initiated in July is now coming to a head and it wants to explode or release. Now it’s not entirely in the, “I need to scream at someone and have a breakdown” kind of way though it could be. I would just say that if we’ve been looking within and trying to cultivate some stronger relationship with ourselves around an area of our lives, now is the perfect time to move it all out of the head and into our hearts. It’s time to feel. All of it.

We should use this moment as an opportunity to love ourselves wholly. We must drop the bullshit mental games we play with ourselves and fall madly in love with the life we want to build. It’s not okay anymore to make excuses nor succumb to our own internal negative speak. Now this is all easier said than done. I know that I can meditate all day long and then come out of it to an immediate self-criticism. And that quick switch from “love and light” to “girl, your eyes look tired” is rough because then it makes the meditation feel like a failure. But it’s not. It’s just human. However, the goal is to minimize the feeling we take from the critical voice. Because THAT IS ALL IT IS. It’s not a real voice. It’s a voice conjured by past insecurities that we tell ourselves is the voice of reality. But the voice of reality is actually all around you. The voice of reality is simply the present moment.

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The time has come for you to believe in the future self that you deep down know exists in the space laid out for you

The goal is to navigate the pitfalls of the inner voices so that we come out of our days feeling gratitude and self-love. We cannot attach to the inner saboteur anymore. (By the way, if you don’t have this voice then you’ve succeeded at life and can just stop reading now.) When we do attach to that voice, we put a roadblock up in front of our abundance. We cannot see the opportunities coming our way. We cannot trust the voice of inspiration because we think it is the same voice of self-doubt. But these two do not come from the same place. Inspiration is fleeting while self-doubt will stick around. Inspiration comes in like a whisper from a dream while self-doubt nags like a roommate we can’t get rid of. Well, right now, inspiration, luck, abundance, and insight are available to us. We just have to feel with our whole mind, body, and soul that we deserve it to access it.

You deserve goodness. Can you truly believe that for yourself? I need you to feel that with your whole heart. Look in the mirror and tell that scared, loving being that is you, “I deserve goodness.” Do that for me. Do that for yourself. The time has come for a profound shift in your being, both emotional and spiritual. The time has come for you to believe in the future self that you deep down know exists in the space laid out for you. The time has come to get it together. Have faith that the goals and aspirations that you FEEL are true and can manifest if you can LOVE yourself like you never have before. Drop the shitty habits. Drop the shitty friends. Drop the shitty things you tell yourself over and over without even realizing you’re doing it. You have love in the world. And that full moon in Cancer is here, to illuminate it for you in all its glory. Be you in all your glory.

That Mercury Retrograde When You Decided Not to Be a Hot Mess

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A Mercury retrograde time can bring chaos into one’s life, but it’s ultimately here to show you a different path to action

Today marks the start of another Mercury Retrograde period (until January 8th). Go ahead. Cheer now! What this means is that for the few next weeks, your greatest hot mess of a friend (and I’ve totally been him before) will be blaming it for every tardy meeting, every missed text, and every unreturned phone call. Sure, that technologically challenged shit will go down, especially for my Scorpio friends, but we can’t let what Mercury in retrograde traditionally represents rule all of our communication misgivings. In fact, we must take this time to hold up, slow our rolls, and take stock of the bigger picture we currently have for our lives. We must get real about whether everything we are doing is helping to manifest our greatest future goals.

Mercury is going retrograde in the sign of Capricorn, which is very concerned with the big picture for our lives and all the hard work that goes into achieving it. We all know that nothing is handed to us. Even for the overnight success, years were spent toiling away in the workshop, at a desk, in the studio, or at school. So when Mercury, the planet engaged in all things communication, halts itself for the retrograde, room should be made for a re-evaluation of one’s goals and what is being done to manifest them.

We should first narrow in on the specific area in life that keeps you up at night: career, a relationship, a health goal, or one’s view on spirituality. Then, if you’re hitting a wall of any kind, stop trying to PUSH forward and reconsider the path. Are you actually doing everything you could be doing to move ahead/break through or just going through some motions? Do you need to let go of something (a person, place, thing, or mentality) in a more profound way so that you can truly activate your next personal phase? The great thing is, you can stop looking around and blaming “xyz” for your problems. With some inward evaluation, you will see what is potentially keeping your goals at bay.

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Without a doubt, these next six weeks can be extremely transformative for all of us. With Pluto, the planet in charge of deep soul shifts, touching on this current Mercury phase, know that you’ll have a more focused understanding of your current intentions and goals by the end of January. But you have to be in the process of figuring your shit out. You can’t just get caught up in the day to day. This doesn’t mean that you shouldn’t get a break in. In fact, you need one. I need one. I’ll be on a beach soon with a book in one hand and a cocktail in another. Yes, the start of this six-week process must include some legit down time. In numerology terms, we are at the end of a ‘9’ year, thus the ending of a major cycle. It’s a back to 1 moment. And with any conclusion to a great life period, we should get in a good ass nap. That’s part of the process too. But then, once revived, you must make time for a rethinking and reworking of those pieces in life that just aren’t taking shape.

It’s important to know that your problems aren’t all in your head and you aren’t the entire reason that you can’t see or think straight. The world is really fucked up right now. Cities are being ravaged without thought for humanity. Women’s rights are coming under fire in various U.S. states. LGBT individuals are continuing to feel like secondary humans to the rest of society. Governments are recalibrating to assert more power in the war for who has the biggest cock. And there is so much else with race and the environment and civil unrest and on and on. It’s disheartening and disillusioning and some of us are struggling to make sense of it – to find our footing.

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Take these next few weeks to better understand where in this world you want to make a difference

One only needs to look to these current times to see the lesson in this Mercury retrograde phase. Pause and reflect on the ways that you can be more of a citizen for the world you believe in. You must figure out how to take your personal unease and alchemize it into something of use. Perhaps you are already in that process. But don’t feel a complete loss if you’re feeling powerless. You’ve only just begun to understand your power and your community is just figuring out how to come together. So time will allow you to gather your resources and rally your ideas into fruition. Take these next few weeks to better understand where in the world you want to make a difference and how. A large part of that answer  will be found by getting a greater understanding of yourself.

A Mercury retrograde time can bring chaos into one’s life, but it’s ultimately here to show you a different path to action. Are you going to get swirled up into life’s drama or will you choose this time to react differently? Can you keep on playing the victim to external circumstances or take pause to consider healthy ways to be a worthy agent of change? Will you allow yourself a clear mind or one filled with to-do lists and regrets and worries? If that email won’t send or your phone won’t make outgoing calls, will you build yourself up into a frustrated mess or just put the damn thing down and try to enjoy a phone-free afternoon of relaxation and contemplation? Right now, I say go for the latter on all counts. Your life will ultimately be more in tune, you’ll feel more purposeful, and you won’t be someone else’s hot mess of a friend when the next retrograde rolls around in the Spring.