The Aries New Moon of 2018

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Give over to your uniqueness

I recently received an astrology chart reading from one of my faves, Anne Ortelee. She spoke to me about needing to be more comfortable and confident in expressing more than just one side of myself and my work. Being someone who works in film but also as an astrologer has always felt tricky. Like in some way I had to disassociate the two. And for the most part, I’ve gotten good at compartmentalizing them. But in thinking more on what Anne said, it does me such a disservice to own only parts of me at certain times. Sure, it can be a challenge to tell some agent that I can read his or her chart and have done so for many. But some get their lives from that reveal and immediately want to tell me their birthday. It’s the others whose eyes glaze over that make me feel like I should’ve just kept my mouth shut so as to avoid their judgement. But let’s face it, their judgement is just my own internal judgement reflected back at me. And if I’ve learned anything in the last year, authenticity is what’s most needed and seen right now. So how do I just own all of me, all of the time, without any sort of internal question marks or side eye?

The Aries New Moon is now upon us, and I always see it as an astrological new year of sorts, but for our internal selves. As most of you know, a new moon in general is all about a merging with our inner and outer states, so it becomes a chance for us to reboot the connection between the two. This new moon is the first one after we’ve transitioned into Spring, when everything begins to awaken from its winter hibernation to start anew. Aries is a time of beginnings, when we can find ourselves initiating new cycles, projects, and relationships with ourselves and others. It can inspire us to be creative and passionate in our approach, though sometimes that can overflow and cause us to be compelled by any compounded aggression that we’ve stashed within. So, we’ve got to be ultra-aware right now. Aries will jumpstart us in ways that can be purposeful, but that is only if we choose to engage with it as such. Otherwise, it will just ignite an out of control fire.

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An Aries new moon is like a new round in a video game. You’ve lost a life but there’s another in the queue.

The sun and moon in Aries also sit in conjunction with Uranus, the planet of chaos and rebellion. With these three in the sign of war (Aries), it makes sense that on a global scale, we are diving into that kind of energy. But on a personal level, how you take action in your life right now can lead you toward some serious growth and change. Will you take on the challenge or just tell yourself that “it is what it is”? In a way, our astrological charts show us how the obstacle course of our lives have been set up, but we then have to choose how to play in it. We can surmount the walls around us, or we can see them as barriers that we just have to accept. An Aries new moon is like a new round in a video game. You’ve lost a life but there’s another in the queue. You get to start over, this time taking with you all of the knowledge that you attained in your last go around.

Uranus is also the planet that shows us where our authenticity sits. For us to have it as part of this new moon equation means that, in some way, our life is trying to show us a clearer picture of our authentic self so that we’ll more fully embrace it. For some, it’s facing that part of us that we’ve been at war with and have been trying to hide or suppress, while for others, it’s just an amplification of the self we’ve grown accustomed to.

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The Mercury retrograde through Aries, which is also coming to an end, has also helped to shed some light. You may have recognized yourself responding to situations in a way that disturbed you. “Is that really me?” Or you may have come to see how you walk with ease into every situation, ready to inspire. Whatever it is that’s come up, know that it’s all been to support your opportunity to begin again now, either with a new knowledge that can ignite a positive shift or with an acknowledgment of your latest growth spurt so that you can own your next level brilliance.

Let’s choose to change and become the new, better version of ourselves. Sometimes that means letting go of some old business, relationships, or thought patterns that have become so embedded, we just think they’re here to stay. But it can all blow away with the soft subtle wind of change. We are being shown where fear can nestle into our thoughts, causing us to hold tight to old ideas. But this new moon time can allow us to see them simply for what they are, words in our head. And if they aren’t being applied toward something purposeful, then they’re just loitering and need to go.

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Connect with those who remind you of your true nature.

So give over to your uniqueness. Become brave and take on optimistic beliefs. Choose to apply them toward your passions. There is no need to cling to the mantras in your head that have ultimately been sustaining your lack of forward movement or self-belief.

Connect with those who remind you of your true nature. Those that push you to expand the definition of you. Who recognize who you’ve been and love who you’re becoming. And more so, who know the person you’re capable of becoming in a way that you can’t even dream. Don’t let your personal growth be hindered by those who aren’t willing to see you for who you are now. And who you are ready to be.

Go slay the game. Collect all the coins. And remember that every day, that first breath you take is your Aries new moon. Every day is a fresh chance to choose your best adventure. Let the energy of now push you toward it.

Finding Balance Under a Full Blood Moon

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This Libra Full Moon is the doorway to a potentially new version of our lives

For me, the last couple of months have felt a bit all over the place. I have been trying my best to focus and feel accomplished, but there has just been so much to do that it has been hard to give attention to everything I want to do. I’m sure you can totally relate. There’s business work. There’s creative work. There’s spiritual work. There’s relationship time. There’s friendship time. There’s family time. There’s dog time. Not to mention that there’s always the all-important me time that needs to get in. There are bills to pay, dishes to do, posts to write, clients to read, stories to listen to, and there’s fitness to work on too. I can’t forget the necessary trips I’ve had to take, the Instagram pictures I’ve needed to upload, and the concerts I’ve put my dancing shoes on to attend. I’m reeeeeeeal busy. But aren’t we all these days?

With so many of the areas in our lives vying for attention, it can be truly hard to feel balanced within. We can feel stretched and pulled into different directions. And for the most part, we focus on the things we aren’t able to get to. So we end up beating ourselves up for the things we didn’t check off the list rather than celebrating all of the things we did. And that propels us into this panicked state, where we get to sleep pondering all the things we have to do tomorrow, only to hit the ground running the next day in some zombie-like state. Then we go into each day like a chicken with its head cut off, just trying to get things done, just trying to get ahead, without really taking the time to get present. Perhaps it’s because if we allowed ourselves to get present, we would have to get very real with ourselves about the state of our lives.

When we’re pushing and running and trying and doing, we aren’t really just being. And if we aren’t giving ourselves the time to just be, then we’re really just creating an unbalanced life. We must allow ourselves the chance to release the urgency we place on “getting it all done”, or else we aren’t actually receiving the gifts that life wants to offer us. How can we if we’re too busy rushing by them?

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If we can slow down, we will see the bullshit for what it is

Mark Nepo wrote, “When feeling urgent,you must slow down.” He continued with “The doorway to our next step of growth is always behind the urgency of now. Now more than ever, when all feels urgent, you must cut the strings to all events.” I think what Mr. Nepo was saying is that we have to slow down enough to see beneath the busyness of our lives. And that all the places we think we need to be are never really urgent when it comes to the greater purpose of our lives. In fact, if we can slow down, we will see the bullshit for what it is. We will see that the busy work we think we need to do is just busy work keeping us from the truer things we want to accomplish with our lives. And we will see that in a great pause, a mirror appears, allowing you to see the more authentic you that is urging to break free. These are the important messages for this current Libra Full Moon moment.

Astrologically, things are just as busy. There are planets moving in ways to make challenging angles to each other. Some are getting along. Some are pushing each other. For us, that means we are being pushed and prodded toward our higher calling – more to come on all that in a future post. But this Libra Full Moon (also called the Blood Moon due to its lunar eclipse) is the doorway to a potentially new version of our lives. Perhaps you have been saying you want to make some changes in your life. Well, now is the time to make them. Or life may just find a way to make them for you. But in order to best see how to make the proper changes, you must not push back. You must stand still, strong like a tree. You must survey your life as if from a mountaintop on a clear day, with great perspective and clarity.

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There is no more waiting

You must become comfortable with the present moment in your life. Whether it’s a job you hate, a man you no longer love, or a body you can no longer destroy, you have to pause and look in that mirror to say, “Okay. I see you.” Otherwise you may just set yourself up for a greater challenge to come. You may be forced to deal with things when now you have the power to take them on. There is no more waiting. There is only the opportunity to restore balance to your life in a healthy way, by taking control and having the responsibility to do so. You know where things are off so take the steps toward bringing yourself back into alignment. You deserve a life that feels your own.

Let’s take a closer look at the signs for more clarity:

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What About This Monster Full Moon?

This full moon is the catalyst for you to break new ground

I have had a few people ask me to chime in on what astrologer Susan Miller is referring to as next week’s “Monster Moon”, or the Libra Full Moon.  The energy of it really starts today and culminates on March 27th, when a ton of planets will be fully ignited – the Sun, Moon, Venus, Mars, Jupiter, Uranus, and Pluto.  Though it will touch all of us, it’s primarily going to affect a few signs in a major way: Libra, Aries, Capricorn, Cancer, and Gemini – or anyone with natal planets in those signs.  So if you are not one of those signs but your rising or moon is, then you’re also going to be feeling all of this quite a bit.  Okay, this is probably all sounding like a lot.  So let me try and break it down, and then I can get specific on what I think we can all do to best navigate these potentially volatile waters.

First off, we all know a full moon is a time to release some built-up emotional energy – hence the whole idea of letting loose and howling at it.  This month, that internal release is coming in the sign of Libra.  Generally speaking, it’s time to address the pent-up frustration we have around certain relationships.  And it needs to be vocal, since Libra is an air sign and has to have a talk about it.  Perhaps there is someone you haven’t been able to completely express yourself to, or with whom you’ve been creating a level of underlying tension.  That tension could be good or bad – the boss you want to tell to fuck off or the cute guy you’ve been tiptoeing around with your feelings.  Well, this could be the time where you have no choice but to let the truth be heard.  Truth is the key word here.  We can’t avoid it with this full moon so don’t try to – it will bite you in the ass later.

No more childhood mentalities that cause us to act out as unconscious adults

Now most importantly, we just completed a period where most of the planets traveled through Pisces.  These last forty or so days pushed us to connect to our soul’s desires more and urged us to bring certain personal cycles to an end.  Though there were certainly projects, relationships, etc that could have found completion at this time, it was really dealing more with our internal situation.  We were being asked to say goodbye to some aspects of our inner self that had reached their expiration date.  No more shitty childhood mentalities that cause us to act out as unconscious adults.  We must now be more aware of our actions and even more so of the motivations behind them.  The same should be said for our goals and dreams.  Have we been walking a road with our soul for a compass, or have we been using something like a desire to please our family or insecurity around love to guide us?

Thankfully, Mercury is still in that place of soul reflection, so we have some time to address our soul and ask for guidance.  We can identify our outdated thinking patterns and give them the boot so that we can each truly heal from a deeper place.  So, journal it out.  Meditate.  Grab a bottle of wine and your best friend so you can just talk about your deepest fears.  Anything that gets you closer to the core of what could be holding you back.  If you hold these feelings, insecurities, and/or fears inside, then you give them the power to control.  And why the fuck should you be giving your power away to your thoughts if they are just covered in cobwebs and trying to sabotage your happiness?  It’s time to let go, once and for all.  And like, now.

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