The Dream For Your Life

Let this Aries new moon be the new beginning to end all new beginnings

I have a dream for my life. I have a dream to be original. To live a life that is full of something magical. My dream is to live for greatness and to go places that are far beyond where I believed I was ever capable of getting to. I have a dream to be successful and to do so with the swagger of Tom Ford. I have a dream to help others make their dreams come true, because one’s success that I participate in is also my success. I have a dream to be expansive with my life, wide like the sea and sky. I dream to do so with a love by my side, one that shares smiles and a home with me. And to invite others that I love and admire into that home for both work and play.

You see, I have a dream for my life. And it is time now to focus all of my intention, wisdom, and hope on actualizing it.

This is my life. I must own it.

I didn’t go into this birthday with the usual “put all your troubles down and let loose for a day” mentality

Yesterday was my birthday. And I approached it with a readiness to turn another year older. This past year has been one of the most challenging I have ever experienced. I have faced emotional, mental, spiritual, and physical challenges – yes every damn color of the challenge rainbow – and have done so with a scared but brave willingness to face them and go in. I like to live beneath the surface like that.

I know that without confrontation there can be no reward. Whether you are confronting your demons, your fears, or your dreams, you can’t engage with your life unless you’re staring it boldly in the face and asking, “What?” So I didn’t go into this birthday with the usual “put all your troubles down and let loose for a day” mentality. Instead, I went into it with that same thirst for personal knowledge. I put my spiritual warrior’s hat on and allowed myself to see my life for what it truly is, and I urged myself to ask myself if this life was in alignment with that dream that I have for it.

I am happy to report that I am on the right path. But as I said, now I must focus. Because a new beginning, like a birthday, can simply just become a talking point for a dinner conversation if not actually taken seriously and utilized. And I don’t have time for the kinda bullshit when I got a dream to live.

And neither do you.

Consider this new moon time as an opportunity to deeply recommit to that dream and begin a new, greater relationship with it

The Aries new moon is here. This is the annual beginning of a new emotional cycle for us all. Like a birthday, this new beginning can allow us to take stock of where we are internally and make sure that we are giving ourselves the love and support we need to manifest the dream for our lives. We all have a dream. And it can’t be driven by fame or money or a lack of love. But rather, it should be born from the core of our truest selves. And it must be nurtured. Like a garden or popular Instagram account, it must be paid attention to on a daily basis. So consider this new moon time as an opportunity to deeply recommit to that dream and begin a new, greater relationship with it. Without that kind of commitment, it will just stay a thought bubble until it becomes a last breath regret. So you must get married to the personal dream you have for your life. You must own it.

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It’s Time To Shine, Bitches!

Living in the shadows can be cold and depressing,

so let’s all get out into the light together and shine, bitches

I recently went to a metaphysical bookshop and saw that there was a woman doing readings there. I felt an urge to do it and it had been a long time since I let someone sit across from me and give me some truth/advice. So I got one. At first, the reading wasn’t giving me all of my life. It felt a little general, and she sort of had me doing most of the work. But once we got into some specific questions, she really did hit on a few things that felt right on for me. More importantly, she just told me some things that regardless, I think I needed to hear. For one thing, she said that I had a problem with shining. “You keep yourself in the shadows so you don’t have to put yourself out there.” It’s true. I know that one of my greatest challenges comes with allowing the spotlight to shine on me. She also said that I had to stop hiding my truth, and that I would be best when I could just allow myself to say what I feel and not be passive aggressive about it. Something I know entirely too much about. “Be you”, she shouted. “People are gonna love you or they’re gonna hate you. So who gives a shit?”

Preach.

People are either going to love you or hate you. You can’t control that. So why go about modulating yourself to the point of submission in hopes that you won’t cause a scene. You will just end up stuck in the shadow of your thoughts, nodding yes or shaking your head no when really you just want to scream. It’s important that each of us be all of ourselves all of the time. Yes, we don’t want to hurt feelings. We don’t want to say something we’ll regret. But there is a thing called tact. It can be helpful when called upon. There is also a thing called indigestion. And when we continuously stifle our truths or our deepest emotions, we can cause ourselves a great indigestion of the soul. And both our spirits and our stomachs will suffer.

We can’t get by with just doing some yoga or watching some Oprah, thinking we are getting deep with ourselves

It’s time to forge a new, deeper relationship with your truer, unique self, and the Aquarius New Moon is here to help you see it through. Yes, you’ve been told before to just let go and be yourself. But do you really know who “yourself” is, or are you just playing along? Maybe you have a job working a 10-6 but really consider yourself an artist. But are you really an “artist”? What does that mean? I classify myself as a writer, but if I were not sitting here before this blog post, would I still be considered one? And how does that relate to the man I am with my family or my man or my best friends? Does it relate? Yes, this is some deeper psycho-spiritual shit, but if we are going to live a life of greater, deeper meaning, then we can’t get by with just doing some yoga or watching some Oprah, thinking we are getting deep with ourselves.

We have to ask ourselves the bigger questions so we can know ourselves in a bigger way. And in turn, we can then BE ourselves in a bigger way. We can better understand the unique definition of our spirit and live accordingly. We can do it loudly and proudly and in a way that feels truly authentic. For if we can’t be our most authentic self, then we are just too busy giving a shit about what others think of us. And let me tell you, living in the shadows can be cold and depressing, so let’s all get out into the light together and shine, bitches.

Let’s shine.

Here’s some more direct talk for each of the signs:

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Kill Your Inner “Blah Blah Blah”

This Gemini full moon wants you to trust that you already know the truth for your life

So I end up having a glass of wine and some avocado fries with my man and his lovely Gemini friend of many years. We toast to the Gemini full moon, and she asks, “What does it mean?” Now I have been mulling it over for the last few days and, until that point, I hadn’t been able to distill it down. But in that moment, I just uttered, “It’s time to let go of the chatter.” She paused, then nodded and sipped her wine. “There’s a lot of chatter.” And in analyzing the chart for this current full moon some more, as well as just being a person in the world right now, I must agree with that blurted out statement.

It’s time to let go of the chatter, everyone. Sure, shift is in the air. We are all in the midst of some major transformation, whether we’re having babies, changing jobs, moving homes, or adjusting our self-perceptions to align with who we want to be. And that kind of bold evolution will cause our minds to work overtime with ideas, worry, and questions. Thoughts get cluttered, and we easily confuse that deeply honest voice of truth with the lesser ego-centered voices that stem from fear, pain, and hurt. And it sucks, because they both kind of sound alike and it can get to the point where one can’t tell the difference. But let’s face it. If you just settle down long enough and ask yourself any question, the correct answer is usually the first thing that comes up.

Kill your inner blah blah blah and let the soul’s voice emerge

This Gemini full moon wants you to trust that you already know the truth for your life. So all of this questioning, second-guessing, and moments of confusion are really just procrastination masquerading as your thoughts. So kill your inner blah blah blah and let the soul’s voice emerge. Believe that it has your best interest in mind, and that it won’t allow you to step into something that will destroy your heart, endanger your body, or ridicule your existence. Know that your personal growth is already in motion. You just have to be still long enough to get caught up in the current. Because if you’re flailing about, and that’s probably what you’re mind is doing most of the time, then you’ll never be light enough to be swept away to your destiny.

Let’s look at each of the signs and get a better sense of how this could be personally affecting you:

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I’m Fucking Awesome, And So Are You

This weekend’s full moon in Taurus urges you to connect your sense of self-worth to the life you allow yourself to live

For the first time in almost ten years, I don’t have a full-time job. I have work, which helps to define me. I have astrology. I am a writer. I am helping to produce a film. But at this moment in time, none of these things are currently adding much to my bank account on a consistent basis. Now it has been somewhat liberating. I have been allowed the opportunity to guide myself toward the things I want to focus on. But it has also been as scary as plummeting through a crack in the earth.

When I was leaving my last job back in May, a good Taurus friend who had just been through the process told me that it was going to bring up some things. Fear. Anxiety. And he said to just let them come on. They’re real emotions, and they shouldn’t be ignored. Thankfully, I did have the film project to look forward to, and that came along a few months later in more of a full-time way. But over the last couple of months, my participation in it leveled off some, and I found myself back in the space of “What the fuck”.

We all have a responsibility to regard ourselves with dignity and delight

Though there has been more time to dive into my creativity and my astrology work, I have been a little beaten up by the ego in the mirror. He has been talking a lot about money and rent and the future. And in a moment of weakness, there was inner talk of needing to find “a real job”. But if I were to cave and go back into the wheel I just recently vacated, I wouldn’t be honoring my spiritual truth. Because I wouldn’t be honoring the gifts I’ve been given and that I should be using for my livelihood. It’s this push toward a greater faith in ourselves that the current astrological climate wants us to recognize and step into

This weekend’s full moon in Taurus urges you to connect your sense of self-worth to the life you allow yourself to live. If you are feeling stuck, then it may be because you don’t truly believe in your abilities. Recognize that your deepest feelings of self-confidence directly reflect your circumstances. That can be hard for some to ingest. “Why would I believe myself into unhappiness?” Well, because underneath it all, you haven’t truly told yourself that you deserve to be happy. And that kind of shit can wedge into your psyche deep, causing you to act out in seemingly childish, unconscious ways. Please know that you will continue to do so until you face the truth of your pain connected to feelings of failure and being less-than what you dreamed you would be. Once you go into all that, then you will truly begin to feel liberated from your ego’s hold.

We all have a responsibility to regard ourselves with dignity and delight. So there is no reason for any of us to waste our lives devoting time toward experiences that lack our passion. Sure, life will hand us ridiculously challenging experiences that are beyond our psyche’s control. But it’s how we then respond to them that defines us. And if we can respond with some sense of self-worth, then we are aiming higher.

Attach your worth to what’s really in your heart

Now is the time to show ourselves that we deserve to do what we love. If we can offer ourselves that gift, then the Universe will recognize and offer a gift in return. It may not be a million dollars, but it could be! At the very least, it will be some sort of tangible reminder that when you attach your worth to what’s really in your heart, then your actual value in life will go up. That is because you finally deem yourself good enough to receive it.

Let’s take a closer look at the signs to see what area in your life this may be affecting. And remember to check out your rising sign too, if you know it.

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The Aries Full Moon That Wants To Rock Your World

This Aries Full Moon wants you to reconnect to an area of your life where you crave creativity, inspiration, and action

Usually I start my posts out talking about me. However this time, I want to talk about you. I want to talk about how you are trying your best to get in touch with your highest self while at the same time trying to be fabulous in your everyday life. You want enlightenment but then want to go shopping after attaining it. You want to be in a job that you like but more so, one that utilizes your specific talents and passions. You don’t want to feel like you’re wasting your time, unless it’s your decision to do so on a TV binge, Instagram session, or Candy Crush marathon. You want to be open to surprise in your romantic life, but you also want a clearer understanding of the bigger picture – are you going to get married/stay married or not? Should you be a parent? That question burns even more so if you already have a child. And yes, you’re probably wondering what the hell you should do or be for Halloween. Well aren’t we all?

That is just my point. Aren’t we all? Yes, we’re all snowflakes, each one of us unique in our atomic chemistry. But at the same time, we also all strive, question, and contemplate life’s big questions. We all live inside of a world inside of our heads. We all fear. We all enjoy. We all get confused. And we all, at times, wish someone or something would just come along and say, “This is your path. Get on it and walk.” The funny thing is, this actually does happen for us all – probably daily. We receive answers to our questions in forms of things we watch or read, overheard conversations, or spurts of internal dialogue whose authenticity we then question. This collective universality of experience is extremely important to keep awareness of if one aims to be a loving, compassionate human being. And it is especially something to be aware of as we enter this Aries Full Moon.

Reset your emotional clock and get on track with your precise plan

The current astrological climate is rather aggressive in its desire to push us all toward actualizing our greater selves. Yes, it may feel like the planets and stars are always eagerly urging us in the direction of higher self-realization. Well, that’s because the Universe has that as the ultimate goal for each of us. And for each, being one’s “greater self” looks different. But we all have a specific cosmic blueprint to follow. And when the full moon is in Aries, the first sign of the Zodiac, it’s a yearly opportunity to reset your emotional clock and get on track with your precise plan.

This Aries Full Moon wants you to reconnect to an area of your life where you crave creativity, inspiration, and action. Being that it’s illuminated by the Sun in Libra, it wants you to do this while recognizing that you are one with those around you. We may not all come from the same place emotionally, physically, or mentally, but our spirits are from one source. So in order to move forward, you must see that oneness. So, you may be dealing with a soul-crushing co-worker or boss, or your significant other may be disconnected and taking it out on you. You may just be frustrated with your own stalled progress around a project, job search, or emotional quandary. Whatever the case, you must hold compassion for everyone involved so that you can then be calm and clear enough to see the path light up before you. It may just be time to leave that work or relationship situation. Or you may have a light bulb moment around a question or process you’ve been stuck in. None of this can occur when you’re pointing the finger. And that includes pointing it at the mirror.

Take your growth seriously or else just flounder

So how are you opening yourself up to a new start within? And where have you felt a stagnancy or apprehension to make change? Trust that this new emotional beginning of some sort won’t be easy. There is struggle in it, but it’s coming from a place of love. The Universe wants you to work hard for the gifts it has in store. It wants you to take your growth seriously or else just flounder. In a way, it’s like exam time in school. So are you going to come correct and take the test? Or you just gonna doodle in the margins? If getting in touch with that highest self really is as important to you as I think it is, then you’re going to put your head down, bite the end of that pen, and get to work.

Let’s get a closer look at the area of your life that could help unlock the door to this exciting, life-growing process:

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The Idea of You and a New Moon in Libra

What’s the idea you have for yourself?

A few weeks ago, I got back from Minnesota where I was working as a producer on a feature film. This is the first time that I have worked in this capacity on a movie, and the actual production process was rewarding, exhausting, and one of the most challenging experiences of my life. And the hours were simply not cute. Actually, neither was I after a couple days of it. But my greatest struggle wasn’t sleep deprivation or maintaining my girlish figure amidst the tables of craft service. Those were easy to manage in comparison to dealing with the internal question mark that arose over myself as the shoot wore on.

I went into this filming process thinking I had a pretty clear idea of myself. I’m a 36-year-old man. I got issues, but I know who I am. However, through this journey, I was forced to question the ideas of me I had in place time and again. For instance, I thought I was entirely compassionate when I’m actually a bit of a shady bitch. My thought that I was cautious in my decision making actually read to others as uncertain and lacking in confidence. And I saw that questioning my instincts was a constant epidemic of my mind, and it never lead to anything but disappointment. Mostly, I realized that one shouldn’t just sit idly by, waiting on a ship to come in. With that, all you do is grow old on some dock, watching as others go on about their lives.

When heavy trouble would arise on set, my go-to would be to just sit and observe. Someone smarter would come along and handle. But that mentality does nothing for one’s personal growth. And sometimes, I am that someone smarter. So I had to push myself to get involved. No one was going to ask my opinion. I had to force others to hear my voice. Thus, I forced myself to hear my own voice and acknowledge it. And that was something, with the exception of this blog, I had subtly squashed and put into submission as of late.

If we can’t see ourselves fresh every day, then we’re not giving ourselves the opportunity to truly evolve.

All this has allowed for a new me to emerge. I’m bolder. I’m more confident. And I’m less afraid to speak up about what I feel with the fear of rejection hanging over me. But this shift isn’t just about my actions. It’s about mentality. It’s about changing the idea I have of me. This is a perfect kind of realization for the astrological climate around this new moon in Libra.

What’s the idea you have for yourself? For one, there’s a sense of how we think we come across to others, which is usually a sharp difference from the actual truth. We can also identify ourselves too much around a job, a relationship, or even our gender or sexual identity. And sometimes, we labor to craft the perfect idea of what we think our lives should be. We know the career we want or would excel at if we weren’t stuck in the one we were currently in, and we think it’s just a matter of time before the boss notices or the Universe opens the door to the right opportunity. But really, that’s all bullshit. If we can’t see ourselves fresh every day, then we’re not giving ourselves the opportunity to truly evolve. We then can’t relate to others from an honest place. And we rob ourselves of growth and attaining a true balance within which is really all Libra wants us to do.

The process of finding your balance can be wobbly at times, so it requires movement.

Libra craves and creates balance, especially in relationships with others. But as people, we can only project a peaceful equilibrium and attract those who have one if we truly feel it inside. Right now, the planets want us to meet a new idea for ourselves. We need to be honest about what we’re looking for in our lives and stop letting our circumstances dictate what we feel, think, and do. Each of us is a unique being with a set of lessons to take on. So take a look at your life. Are you connecting and activating your specific life plan, or are you just responding to the world and events around you? If you’re not being active in the process, then you’re not achieving balance. The process of finding your balance can be wobbly at times, so it requires movement. Like in yoga, we must fall down when trying to hold a pose to fully know the strength and power of its opposition: complete stillness.

Let’s look more specifically at the signs and how this can be playing out for you:

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This New Moon Is So All About You

If you don’t feel worthy of applause, then you ultimately keep it from your life

This past weekend, I had the pleasure of doing an afternoon of readings for a lovely group of people. One of them was a double Leo, which means there was a strong need for recognition and approval within her. Of course, there was also a ton of creativity present, but the fact that she hadn’t gotten enough of it out into the world meant that her soul was starving for its time in the spotlight. All Leo’s need it. To some, that drive to be front and center can seem too self-serving. But for Leo, that’s just part of the astrological DNA. So unless one’s being an asshole about it, there’s no reason to shy away from that desire for attention. I stressed to her that there was nothing wrong about wanting to be recognized for her gifts and talents. In fact, for her, it was a must. The only reason she wasn’t allowing it was because of some subconscious notion that it was wrong to desire a spotlight. And that’s all wed to self-worth. Because the truth is, if you don’t feel worthy of applause, then you ultimately keep it from your life.

At the end of my long day, the hostess squeezed my shoulder and said, “You’re really good at this.” I smiled and deflected it with a comment about how great her and her friends were for being so receptive to the readings. She proceeded to say it a couple of more times. “You are really really good at this, Angel.” After about the third time, something clicked. It was as if a voice inside said, “Hear her.” And I did. I finally heard what she was trying to tell me. (See, I also have Leo issues.) In that moment, I connected to my soul’s core and with my whole heart, welcomed her emotional gratitude and recognition of my talent. I deemed myself worthy of her applause. Full of warmth, I smiled and said “Thank you.” I then packed up my things and left her home, feeling so wonderful for the opportunity to share my gifts with others.

Now is the time to shift focus and give yourself the attention you deserve

The Leo New Moon is here, and it wants us to connect with our deeper need to be accepted and loved for who we are and what we have to offer the world around us. To best understand what our greatest gift is, we must look to the thing that brings us our purest joy. Now I’m not talking about that bottle of wine you may suck back after a long day of work. I am talking about that activity or time when pristine, soulful joy rises up and overcomes you. It’s the specific thing that stimulates that place in your heart where creativity and romance lives. And it’s where you need to open yourself up to receiving appreciation and respect.

This also means making yourself vulnerable to your personal truth. Because if you are feeling disrespected or unacknowledged somewhere in your life, that may be Leo showing you that you’re barking up the wrong tree. Your greatest gift is perhaps just lying dormant or is at least being underutilized. If that’s the case, then now is the time to shift focus and give yourself the attention you deserve.

Let’s take a closer look at each sign and see how this could be affecting you:

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