Category: Full Moon

OLD HABITS DIE NOW

Anxiety found its way to me at a very early age.

I have no idea when I started biting my nails.  I must have been around 7 or 8 when my dad would yell at me from the couch as I sat four feet away from the TV set, just gnawing on my hand.  It sounds like anxiety found its way to me at a very early age.  Chewing my nails was a way to deal with the pent up energy.  And it still is, I guess.  What can I say: I have a lot of spirit running through me at all times.

Today as I was driving on a grocery run, I started to bite my nail.  I immediately became present with what I was doing and pulled my hand away.  As I continued to drive, it dawned on me that I have been partaking in this particular bad habit for almost thirty years.  Thirty years of behavior that my young child self started while mindlessly staring at The Cosby Show.  And here I am.  A grown ass man, still mindless.  So what the hell has kept me stuck in this juvenile routine for so many years?  I think it’s probably a product of my fearful upbringing, coupled with a problem relaxing.  But it ain’t doing me any good now.

We must free ourselves from the habits that keep us from actualizing our best selves. 

You may think that a habit like nail biting isn’t a big deal.  Gross, yes.  But is it destructive?  On the surface, no.  But in truth, when it comes to certain stressful situations, I am still that scared, nervous little boy.  And in my adult life, when dealing in business or with a client, people don’t want to see some scared little boy in front of them.  They want to see a confident, capable man.  And that is who I want to be.  But holding onto some childish activity just lets me keep one foot in the doorway to adolescence, and that’s a problem.  Because then I am not fully taking responsibility for the present moment, and I am ultimately expressing fear about being a fully realized adult.  I’m keeping myself from truly living as me.

Well, it’s time to let go.

This week’s full moon in Taurus wants you to get real.

We all have our vices, addictions, and areas of life where bad decision-making reigns, but the planets currently have a grander plan in mind for the sum of us.  We must free ourselves from the habits that keep us from actualizing our best selves.  This week’s full moon in Taurus wants you to get real and see that by holding onto a habit, you’re not giving yourself the complete commitment you deserve.  More so, it wants you to get to the root of your apprehension to going all in on yourself.  In order to be the greatest expression of yourself, you have to be dedicated to the dream you have for your life.  It is when you strive for that dream that you activate the scenarios and relationships that will take you to the next level of your existence.

So what nasty habits are keeping you from making that ultimate commitment – the one that would have you dazzling at the change you’ve made for your life?  Look at your life and choose one habit that is keeping you from actualizing the next, best version of you.  Now, that is not to say that the ‘you’ now isn’t good enough.  But the ‘you’ now probably isn’t taking full advantage of the gifts you have nor is it fulfilling the true purpose you see for yourself.  So look deep and see where in your life you could stand to let go of an old way of being.

Here’s some further help, in case you need it.

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This Full Moon in Aries Means Business

Who the hell doesn’t need to exhale right now? 

Last night as we were getting ready for bed, my boyfriend the Aquarius muttered sleepily, “This week has just flown by.”  Sure, this is something we all say or hear time and again, but when I paused to really take in his statement, I realized that the week truly had for me.  But, it was really because the week had been chock full of business and life and communication.  And transformation.  Yes, Pluto’s shift out of retrograde has definitely urged the energy forward in a massive way.  Change is, by all means, afoot.  And she is taking no prisoners.  This energetic twitch has built us all up to this weekend’s full moon in Aries, a time of release.  And who the hell doesn’t need to exhale right now?  But with Aries around us, it ain’t gonna be easy to, as Whitney called it, shoop.

I feel like we’re all barreling toward some sort of goal or hoped for outcome right now, and Aries only amplifies that.  Yet, as I said, a full moon is a time to let go of everything that’s been building up these last few weeks.  It’s not necessarily the cool down in a workout, but more so the halfway point, when we pause for a nice sip of water and a few breaths to help us collect ourselves.  Yes, we all feel the need to accomplish something – especially during the crazy swelling period of 2012 energy. Some of us are moving methodically ahead, paying attention to the signs and road posts helping to guide us to our destination.  However, others of us have been pushing ahead without much awareness of the world around us, so perhaps we are feeling a bit overwhelmed by the transition occurring in our worlds.  Or taken by surprise when change finds her way to our doorstep.  Either way, we need to take this important moment to release the tension we have recently collected.  Now how does Aries best do that?

If there is ever a time to be blowing off steam, this is the time do so – that is if you need to.  If you have been walking slowly while everyone else has been in fast motion, you may just have an opportunity now to access more creativity than you have in a while.

Let’s take a quick look at how you can harness this Aries full moon for good:

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It’s a full moon in Aquarius. What about it?

I bet you woke up this am thinking, “I am totally going to be my highest inspired self today”

I can’t even remember how long it has been since I sat down to write an astro blog.  Sure, I know the last date I posted something and I have gone back to recount old postings of mine, however the actual act of tapping astrological musings onto the keyboard is an old, sorely missed friend.  So I am here today to create and release something new out into the world.  Because today is the full moon in Aquarius, the energies of which allow us to release expressions of our highest inspired selves out into the world.  Sure, a completely easy task to take on.  I bet you woke up this am thinking, “I am totally going to be my highest inspired self today”, and then popped on some Pink songs, put on your cutest shoes, and kissed the daylight with your most confident hello.  Okay, maybe that was just me.  And in all reality, I was only half as energetic as that picture I just painted.  But I did leave my house knowing that I had to reconnect to that part of me that feels the most creative and awake.

So here I am.

“What finally convinced me to go ahead was simply that I was so unhappy not going ahead.” – Steven Pressfield

A full moon is all about a release of energy.  It’s not exactly the end, but it’s more like that moment where you throw all your cards on table and see how the rest of the game shakes out.  I feel like a lot of people I’ve encountered lately have felt a sense of “something’s gotta give.”  The toils of reality play a huge part, but in the context of astrology, we’ve also had that little friend, Mercury Retrograde, at play.  As many of you know, this is when communication breaks down and your computer has the hiccups or your Directv didn’t record the latest episode of The Bachelor Pad, or you find out that you accidently left a message on your friend’s voicemail calling her a skank.  Those who know my astrology and me know that I see it more as a time to slow down and take stock of where you’re at and what you’re thinking about.  Lot’s of “Re” things need to go on.  Regroup.  Reimagine.  Reconnect.  Renew.  And it’s in the sign of Leo, which means it’s about remembering to cast yourself as the star of your show.  Something many of us forget to do.  So how is everything in your life working for the greater good of you?  Or is it not?  Do you need to rethink some things that aren’t allowing you to live your most fulfilled life?

This Aquarius full moon is an opportunity to connect to your dreams and release that more inspired you out into the world.  So let’s look at all the signs and get to it!

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So. It’s a full moon in Aries. What about it?

As my boyfriend, The Aquarius, and I were walking through the quiet, charming community where his mother lives, we stared up to the vast sky and took in the burgeoning moon.  I wondered aloud what this upcoming Aries full moon would be about.  Thankfully, I’m graced with a man who totally gets it and has not just an interest but also an understanding of the way the cosmos operate.  So we talked it out and hypothesized, all while taking into deep consideration that a full moon brings the need for release while the Aries nature is all go-go-go and interested in new beginnings.  We came to some conclusions, but I still didn’t feel like I completely comprehended its message.  I blame the wine.

Later, I continued pondering this interesting dichotomy and tried to apply it to my own life.  Being an Aries, I am greatly in touch with the fact that we, as a Zodiac race, like to start something new before finishing up the last thing.  In fact, I was in the middle of reading something that I am desperate to get through when I received the inspiration to start writing this piece.  What are you gonna do, huh?  Anyhow, an Aries full moon is a time then when we must resist the urge to begin some new direction, project, or task.  Instead, we need to place our focus onto the thing we have been working so tirelessly at pushing up the hill to completion.  Whether it is the quest for a new home, job, or pair of shoes to go with that new jacket you got at the outlet mall, you can’t give up too easily, especially when you have come so far and invested so much time and energy into it.  So how do we know what part of our story needs a proper conclusion during this full moon?

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So. It’s a full moon in Pisces. What about it?

We have to allow ourselves to go beyond the beyond. 

A few days ago, I was chatting with my friend at work, the Taurus, about this upcoming full moon in Pisces. We were talking about doing some sort of guided meditation to commemorate it and given that my guru friend who is excellent at leading them was going to be out of town, we started to think on other options.  I felt like she was fishing a bit for me to offer to lead one, since she’s always pushing me to embrace my spiritualist side more.  But I didn’t want to cave.  I’m not the guy that sits in front of others and guides them into the inner depths of their souls.  But almost as if someone else spoke for me, I heard myself offering to do it.  I riffed on what a full moon in Pisces could be about and in moments had a firm concept for a guided meditation.  However, I left our chat with some major trepidation about the whole thing.  Sure, it’s just going to be me, and a few of my friends, but still I didn’t want to fuck it all up.  Was this going to be a huge mistake?

Since then, I feel like I’ve received signs that have confirmed my thoughts on this full moon.  First, I got deeper into planning the meditation, and in talking it through with my boyfriend, the Aquarius, found myself to have some own inner breakthroughs about it.  Then, I received some intriguing, slightly frantic texts from a Pisces/Aries friend who was in need of some spiritual therapy.  As we hopped on the phone and I pulled some cards for her, we were able to unearth some truths that were in total alignment again with what I thought the full moon was trying to bring on.  And the Aquarius has a Pisces rising, so he too was digging into places that only felt amplified by his full moon task.

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So, it’s a full moon in Aquarius. What about it?

Aquarians want nothing more but to live up to the ideals of a harmonious world. 

Aquarians are a free-spirited, fun-loving breed.  I should know.  I was born from one.  A closest friend is one.  And I date one.  So, I am certainly no stranger to the Aquarian nature.  It’s an inspired, athletic, and eccentric energy.  The Aquarius needs to be paid attention to but not entirely out of ego.  They have an excitement for the world around them and need to feel connected to it in a major way.  If their enthusiasm goes unnoticed, they feel a sense of false living – as if they are here without true, concise purpose.  And that is certain death for an Aquarius.

I see this worldly hope in the three Aquarians whom I hold close to my heart.  My mother is one of the most energetic humans I know, but her greatest reserve stems from an almost childlike need to appreciate everyone and everything around her.  However, she can easily slip into a negative place if her excited approach to life isn’t fully allowed or accepted.  Same goes for one of my best girlfriends.  She craves mental stimulation from the second she wakes up in order to properly function.  And my Aquarian man?  Well, he just wants to see the best in everyone, even when they are offering him the worst.  But this tireless desire coupled with an enthusiasm to be a positive influence on the world keeps him pushing toward the best version of himself on an hourly basis.  See, Aquarians want nothing more but to live up to the ideals of a harmonious world.  So how does that translate to this weekend’s full moon?

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So. It’s a full moon in Capricorn. What about it?

Let presence be life’s co-writer.

I recently reconnected with one of my closest friends, a Capricorn, who for the month of June and some change was on a spiritual journey along El Camino de Santiago, a sacred pilgrimage route across Spain that has been traveled for over a thousand years by a countless number of seekers.  It was so magnificent to hear his voice.  Not only because I missed him, but because I took such joy in hearing the lightness and enthusiasm in his words.  See, in the past, he always seemed to be troubled by something going on in his life, and this frustration or unease tended to give him a heavier presence in whatever room he was in.  But now that he had created a life for himself where he could be rid of any unnecessary responsibilities that may have bogged him down before, he was free to make room for more magic and wonder.  Yes, I said magic and wonder.  A Capricorn.  One of the more stable-headed, “I got to see it to believe it” types.

I think what’s happened is that he has granted himself an adventure which has allowed him to discover a newer, more updated version of himself.  He found a new narrative and let presence be life’s co-writer.  For me, he embodies the lessons of this full moon.  Now, that’s not to say we all need to quit our jobs, relationships, and have an Eat.Pray.Love-like adventure.  But perhaps it’s time to take the lessons of the earlier Cancer new moon a bit further.  Shall we?

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So. A full moon in Sagittarius. What about it?

 If we look back on the life we have lived thus far, we are able to see what chameleons we each can be.

If we look back on the life we have lived thus far, we are able to see what chameleons we each can be.  In my 34-ish years, I have already lived so many lives and have been an array of different people.  Some versions of myself have been angrier than others.  Some have been less responsible.  Others have been more frugal, more creative, drunker, and poorer.  But at the core, they have all been me.  Over the years, I have been able to let go of aspects of myself that were not working or have forced myself to change them when the going got tough.  I mean, we’ve all done it.

Take a minute to look back at your life ten years ago.  For me, I was living in San Francisco, working as a full time astrologer and tarot reader.  My schedule from day to day was never the same.  I had seven roommates: three humans and four cats.  And I was probably out dancing instead of at home typing.  I also was incredibly insecure, secretly fearful, and believed I was meant to rule the world.  Who were you?  Which aspects of you were working and which weren’t?  Did you like the you that existed then?  Have you changed much?  I look back and have you ask all of these questions in honor of this week’s full moon in Sagittarius.

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