That Sagittarius New Moon When The Perfect Illusion Died

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The Sagittarius New Moon wants us to bust through the perfect illusions we have built up in our lives so that we can take responsibility for our actual emotional truth

I’ve been away from writing because I just got married last weekend and have been immersed in the world of wedding planning. But it all went off perfectly and I’m in love with being a married man. Now being an astrologer, I of course had to pick a date that had some planetary meaning behind it. The date we chose coincided with Saturn being conjunct my Neptune in the 7th House. What does that mean? Well, Saturn is that planet all consumed with us growing up and taking responsibility in our lives. The 7th House is the house of partnership and marriage and because my Neptune, the planet of illusion, lives there, I found myself having to break the illusion of what I thought a wedding day should look like. Instead, I embraced the day and each moment for what it was and I could not have been more content and joyful throughout it.

As Saturn asked of me, I was taking responsibility for my approach to marriage and not entering into it from a place of delusion. I allowed myself to move through the illusions I had built for myself so that I could grasp the other side of Neptune, that of spirituality. I am a spiritual being. That is my truth. And my pure approach to my wedding allowed my ceremony and reception to reflect my spiritual truth. And my timing was spot on, as this new moon is all about this.

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Put your authentic self at the forefront

The Sagittarius New Moon wants you to bust through the perfect illusions you have built up in your life so that you can take responsibility for your actual emotional truth. You can no longer subscribe to the lies that you have told yourself. And you have been singing those lies so strongly for so long, that you believe them to be the truth of your own inner voice now. But that is some bullshit. And you know it. When you can get quiet with yourself and get in touch with the disharmony you feel in your heart about your relationship, your career, your health, etc, you will find access to your real truth. So stop allowing the behaviors that perpetuate your poor emotional habits.

It’s time to only take action from a place of authenticity. Stop trying to curve your feelings so that you can please others. You must put your needs at the forefront. And by doing so, put your authentic self at the forefront. Breaking through those illusions of what you think you should be doing or who you should be will connect you to the spiritual core of who you are, and that is what you need to be doing right now. Focusing outward will only garner you empty experiences. Allowing your inner self to be your guide will garner you the true experiences you need in your life right now.

I know, this can all sound a little easier said than done. Or maybe vague. But if you drill down into your general relationship with how authentic and truthful you are being in all aspects of your life, you will see where the holes are and the work that you need to do. And I bet you already know where those holes are. So don’t get caught up in responding in the usual way – the people pleasing way. Bye to that shit.

Be you. All you. That’s the Sag New Moon way.

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That Taurus New Moon When You Measure What You’re Worth

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Define your worth by the love you feel for yourself and for others

What are you worth, and how do you judge it? Do you judge by how much money you make? Is it by how busy you are each week? And don’t get all high and mighty on me and be like, “Oh I love myself. I am priceless, honey!” Not if you allow someone to make a critical comment about your work or your hair or your mode of transportation and then feel some sort of way about it for hours or days or weeks to come. If that is the case, then you may be valuing yourself based on some other person’s perception of you, which means you’ve placed your sense of worth outside of yourself. Now, if you never do that and you’re still feeling priceless, then get it girl! But, if you’re like me, you may still allow any sort of rejection to ding your human heart. And let’s be real, it can ding your fragile ego too. Well please know that it’s okay, because we have to be willing to feel what we need to feel. And, as we feel it, we work through it, which allows ourselves to get closer to a place where our worth solely stems from within. That is the promised land.

This Taurus New Moon wants you to establish a new, greater sense of self worth, which will allow you to be fully responsible for the actions you take. This means it is time to love yourself and all that you are in a bigger way so that you feel confident enough to seize everything you want in life. If your worth is found outside you in any way, then you will easily stand by, waiting for someone to do something or say something that will validate your existence. And then you may not take action toward manifesting your goals, because you don’t feel you’ve been given the go-ahead to do so. But the only go-ahead you need is the one given to you by your purest intuitive sense. And if you make something or do something and others don’t respond, well let them and keep on keeping on. Sure, there may be some valid criticism there but take it and move on without letting it define YOU.

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You are magic with a unique message to offer

Define your worth by the love you feel for yourself and for others. You are not your critic’s words. You are not the shade thrown at you. You are a brilliant, creative light on this spinning rock we call Earth. You are magic with a unique message to offer. And you are responsible for your happiness and successes. Yes, that means you are responsible for your failures too, but you are also none of these things. You are a beautiful human experiencing these things. And you observe them. You learn from them. But you don’t define yourself by them. Again, you define yourself by the love you feel for yourself and for others. That is your truth so let that truth radiate bright into the eyes of your life, and all that other bullshit will just be blinded by its glow.

Now let’s take a look at a few more words for each sign. How can you measure your worth?

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Truth Is The New Black

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Get to a place where you can say “That’s the real me” and love it.

I just finished watching the second season of Orange is the New Black. It’s an amazing, brilliant television series, and these thirteen episodes gave me all of my life and some even for my next life. If you know it, then you know. If you don’t it’s a Netflix series about women in prison. It delves deeply into their emotional lives and offers fresh, real characters that are relatable and insane. In one scene, a character is assured by someone on the outside that they still remember the person she was before prison. That is how they will remember her and they know that the person she is in prison isn’t the real her. Without pause, she stares them back and disagrees. “That is the real me.” In that moment, she accepts her truth. But is she happy with it?

Cut to me these past few weeks (and forgive me for being absent from writing, but life has gotten hold!), and I am scheduled to death, dealing with an outbreak of shingles, and helping to nurse an ailing boyfriend and dog. Last night, I get home from work and suddenly have this pain in my left eye. What the fuck? I wake up and it’s still there. I look at the eye and it looks fine. Maybe it’s tension or sinus issues. But after some time and a more careful inspection, I see that I have a sty under my bottom eyelid. Again I say, what the fuck? So I try to take it easy. I get a massage. I do some warm compresses. But I know that there’s some business here for me to learn. My body is trying to wake me up. And has been – hello, shingles! So I go to my trusty Louise Hay book to look up the spiritual meaning behind an eye issue.

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I am mostly angry because I know that everything I am angry about is bullshit

In “Heal Your Body”, Louise says that I “am looking at life through angry eyes.” What Louise? You don’t know me. I am not an angry person. Okay? What does she know? I then look at myself in the mirror, at my sty. And I nod. I am angry. I am angry that everything feels like a struggle. I am angry that I don’t have more money. I am angry that I don’t make enough time for my creativity. I am angry that everybody else seems to have something good going in their lives but me. And I am mostly angry because I know that everything I am angry about is bullshit. That I can’t compare. That I can’t complain. I can be angry. It’s valid. But I can’t see the world through angry eyes or else I’m just casting shade on it all. And thus I am not seeing life clearly. Now don’t get me wrong, I love to throw shade in the right company. But it ain’t a way to build a life. And it certainly can’t be my truth. However, right now, it is. So what to do about it? What does one do when they accept their truth but see that it needs changing?

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Use this full moon energy to reconnect to that authentic essence of you

The Full Moon in Sagittarius is here to get us back in touch with our personal truth so that we can cast off anything that has been obstructing our view of the unique life we are meant to be living. Sure, there may be people in our lives who are causing us strife and slowing things down. Or they are just teaching us some valuable lessons that are forcing us to take on responsibilities and grow up in ways we hadn’t planned on. And these responsibilities may feel like they hinder us from doing the things we want to be doing for ourselves. But that doesn’t mean we have to forget who we truly are deep down. That day job doesn’t have to kill the dream you. And if the day job is in alignment with the dream you, then check if it’s somehow overwhelming the love or home or creative life you want but don’t seem to have time for anymore. Make the time. Use this full moon energy to reconnect to that authentic essence of you and remind yourself of the truth of you. Don’t let go. Don’t give up. Don’t see the world through angry eyes. Get to a place where you can say “That’s the real me” and love it.

Here’s a closer look at the signs and what it means for you:

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Your Rebirth is Now

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Just see the new you emerging and dive into the wave of it

My plan this morning was to wake up early and channel the Scorpio new moon’s energy to write one of my usual posts on it. However, Uranus, the ruler of surprise, was directly involved in my personal new moon and where it fell in my chart, so it brought on an unexpected turn of events. I awoke to some messages that a relative had gone into the hospital and was not doing very well. After speaking to my parents, it was revealed that he would probably not make it for much longer. Though not incredibly close to him, I knew it was important for me to go and be with my family. Thus my afternoon of writing turned into a day in the hospital, feeling grief and sadness. In a way, it was actually an experience suited to the Scorpio new moon as it was literally about the sign’s greatest marker. Death. But it also allowed me to spend some very intimate time with the people I love most dearly in life, and to see the other important element of Scorpio. Rebirth.

My family and I are not the same people we were a decade or two ago. Once divided by pain, anger, and addiction, we have since transformed into a clan that now puts love first. Sure, we still have some collective healing to do, but we have truly evolved in a remarkably positive way. However, our family’s rebirth hasn’t kept me from still reacting to them from those old feelings of pain or anger. At times, it would be like the twelve year old me was in the room again, feeling all of the same emotions that tore him up inside so many years ago. And then I would be frustrated at myself for still holding onto the past in such an emotional way. It was a vicious cycle.

Today though, I saw that I was able to engage them without feeling any of the old childhood crap at my feet. The young me wasn’t even in the room. Instead, today I was just present as the man I am now. I guess you could say that seeing another man at death’s door will force you into the moment. I have also been experiencing a pretty powerful inner shift leading up to today. The old elements of me that no longer belong have been seriously put on trial as of late. And I think today’s experience helped them to get their final sentencing. I also know I’m not the only one feeling this inner urge to shift and evolve.

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This New Moon Is So All About You

If you don’t feel worthy of applause, then you ultimately keep it from your life

This past weekend, I had the pleasure of doing an afternoon of readings for a lovely group of people.  One of them was a double Leo, which means there was a strong need for recognition and approval within her.  Of course, there was also a ton of creativity present, but the fact that she hadn’t gotten enough of it out into the world meant that her soul was starving for its time in the spotlight.  All Leo’s need it.  To some, that drive to be front and center can seem too self-serving.  But for Leo, that’s just part of the astrological DNA.  So unless one’s being an asshole about it, there’s no reason to shy away from that desire for attention.  I stressed to her that there was nothing wrong about wanting to be recognized for her gifts and talents.  In fact, for her, it was a must.  The only reason she wasn’t allowing it was because of some subconscious notion that it was wrong to desire a spotlight.  And that’s all wed to self-worth.  Because the truth is, if you don’t feel worthy of applause, then you ultimately keep it from your life.

At the end of my long day, the hostess squeezed my shoulder and said, “You’re really good at this.”  I smiled and deflected it with a comment about how great her and her friends were for being so receptive to the readings.  She proceeded to say it a couple of more times.  “You are really really good at this, Angel.”  After about the third time, something clicked.  It was as if a voice inside said, “Hear her.”  And I did.  I finally heard what she was trying to tell me.  (See, I also have Leo issues.)  In that moment, I connected to my soul’s core and with my whole heart, welcomed her emotional gratitude and recognition of my talent.  I deemed myself worthy of her applause.  Full of warmth, I smiled and said “Thank you.”  I then packed up my things and left her home, feeling so wonderful for the opportunity to share my gifts with others.

Now is the time to shift focus and give yourself the attention you deserve

The Leo New Moon is here, and it wants us to connect with our deeper need to be accepted and loved for who we are and what we have to offer the world around us.  To best understand what our greatest gift is, we must look to the thing that brings us our purest joy.  Now I’m not talking about that bottle of wine you may suck back after a long day of work.  I am talking about that activity or time when pristine, soulful joy rises up and overcomes you.  It’s the specific thing that stimulates that place in your heart where creativity and romance lives.  And it’s where you need to open yourself up to receiving appreciation and respect.

This also means making yourself vulnerable to your personal truth.  Because if you are feeling disrespected or unacknowledged somewhere in your life, that may be Leo showing you that you’re barking up the wrong tree.  Your greatest gift is perhaps just lying dormant or is at least being underutilized.  If that’s the case, then now is the time to shift focus and give yourself the attention you deserve.

Let’s take a closer look at each sign and see how this could be affecting you:

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Speak the Truth or Get Off the Pot!

This Sagittarius full moon is all about releasing your enlightened truth out into the world

I am writing this from a Hacienda in Spain where my boyfriend and I are traveling for a wedding.  At the rehearsal dinner, one of the grooms and I were chatting about the full moon, which will be hitting directly just some hours after he and his partner exchange their vows.  “What does it mean?” he asked.  “It’s in Sagittarius”, I told him.  “Speak the truth.”  His eyes got very wide.  Later, as I sat on a poolside lounge chair staring up at the rising moon, his partner came over to ask how I was doing.  “I heard what you said about the full moon.  Speak the truth you said.”  I nodded.  “That’s all you can do with this one.”  He also widened his eyes with the weight of that proposition.  Before we could get too much farther into it, we were interrupted and the conversation shifted.  But I was left to think that these two want to take this task on.  I mean, it’s their wedding.  The whole point is to stand up before your family and friends and state the honest to God truth about your feelings for the one you love.  And before a gay wedding, there has already been so much “coming clean” that has lead up to the event that the party should be the easy part.  (Or at least as easy as any wedding can be.)  But being honest is scary.  And most times, being honest to others isn’t as hard as being honest to your self.

This Sagittarius full moon is all about releasing your enlightened truth out into the world.  Sometimes we speak and think that we are speaking from our truth, but we’re actually not.  Instead, what we’re really doing is just talking to get through a situation.  We are talking for the sake of it rather than connecting to our more divine self and allowing our words to be guided from that place.  See, this full moon wants our spirit’s to be involved which makes honesty even harder to do.  Because of the current Gemini energy at play, our brains are also operating at a higher level right now, which means we can sometimes talk ourselves into believing a truth that isn’t entirely the case.  So, right now, we must work harder at connecting to our deeper selves so that we can be sure that our hearts and souls are involved along with our minds in making decisions.  Because we can make good decisions right now that can lead to sustainable paths for our current goals.  Again, it comes down to truth.

Come out of hiding about the truth of who you are

What area in your life needs your utmost truth right now?  Perhaps you are covering up the truth with thoughts like “It’s all gonna be alright” or “I’m fine” or “I don’t really believe that, I’m just being silly or fucking around” when you really want to be curling up in a ball and saying “Lord God, help me.”  Or you’re just not dealing with it at all and letting booze, drugs, or a fake relationship squash the pain.  You could also be facing it but feel that you’re struggling with the challenge.  Again, I ask you to turn to truth.

Come out of hiding about the truth of who you are.  Don’t be afraid to feel what you feel and speak what you know in your core to be true.  Show others the thoughts that exist behind the closed door of your mind.  And most importantly, be willing to tell yourself that you accept you with complete and utter love.  If you need to be a freak, so be it.  If you are afraid your friends won’t get it, fuck them.  If you’re partner doesn’t know something about you, share it now.  Because like begets like.  So enlightenment begets enlightenment.  And if you illuminate yourself, then you illuminate your world.  The lights on the path go on, and you can see more clearly where you need to go to make your dreams a reality.  And you can’t deny the truth of a situation because it is lit up for the whole world to see.  Yes, sometimes the truth is scary and painful, but it’s the only way to your personal destiny.  And if you’re reading this, I know that your goal is to find that destiny.

Let’s get a more specific sense of where in your life this could be affecting you:

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