What’s the idea you have for yourself?
A few weeks ago, I got back from Minnesota where I was working as a producer on a feature film. This is the first time that I have worked in this capacity on a movie, and the actual production process was rewarding, exhausting, and one of the most challenging experiences of my life. And the hours were simply not cute. Actually, neither was I after a couple days of it. But my greatest struggle wasn’t sleep deprivation or maintaining my girlish figure amidst the tables of craft service. Those were easy to manage in comparison to dealing with the internal question mark that arose over myself as the shoot wore on.
I went into this filming process thinking I had a pretty clear idea of myself. I’m a 36-year-old man. I got issues, but I know who I am. However, through this journey, I was forced to question the ideas of me I had in place time and again. For instance, I thought I was entirely compassionate when I’m actually a bit of a shady bitch. My thought that I was cautious in my decision making actually read to others as uncertain and lacking in confidence. And I saw that questioning my instincts was a constant epidemic of my mind, and it never lead to anything but disappointment. Mostly, I realized that one shouldn’t just sit idly by, waiting on a ship to come in. With that, all you do is grow old on some dock, watching as others go on about their lives.
When heavy trouble would arise on set, my go-to would be to just sit and observe. Someone smarter would come along and handle. But that mentality does nothing for one’s personal growth. And sometimes, I am that someone smarter. So I had to push myself to get involved. No one was going to ask my opinion. I had to force others to hear my voice. Thus, I forced myself to hear my own voice and acknowledge it. And that was something, with the exception of this blog, I had subtly squashed and put into submission as of late.
If we can’t see ourselves fresh every day, then we’re not giving ourselves the opportunity to truly evolve.
All this has allowed for a new me to emerge. I’m bolder. I’m more confident. And I’m less afraid to speak up about what I feel with the fear of rejection hanging over me. But this shift isn’t just about my actions. It’s about mentality. It’s about changing the idea I have of me. This is a perfect kind of realization for the astrological climate around this new moon in Libra.
What’s the idea you have for yourself? For one, there’s a sense of how we think we come across to others, which is usually a sharp difference from the actual truth. We can also identify ourselves too much around a job, a relationship, or even our gender or sexual identity. And sometimes, we labor to craft the perfect idea of what we think our lives should be. We know the career we want or would excel at if we weren’t stuck in the one we were currently in, and we think it’s just a matter of time before the boss notices or the Universe opens the door to the right opportunity. But really, that’s all bullshit. If we can’t see ourselves fresh every day, then we’re not giving ourselves the opportunity to truly evolve. We then can’t relate to others from an honest place. And we rob ourselves of growth and attaining a true balance within which is really all Libra wants us to do.
The process of finding your balance can be wobbly at times, so it requires movement.
Libra craves and creates balance, especially in relationships with others. But as people, we can only project a peaceful equilibrium and attract those who have one if we truly feel it inside. Right now, the planets want us to meet a new idea for ourselves. We need to be honest about what we’re looking for in our lives and stop letting our circumstances dictate what we feel, think, and do. Each of us is a unique being with a set of lessons to take on. So take a look at your life. Are you connecting and activating your specific life plan, or are you just responding to the world and events around you? If you’re not being active in the process, then you’re not achieving balance. The process of finding your balance can be wobbly at times, so it requires movement. Like in yoga, we must fall down when trying to hold a pose to fully know the strength and power of its opposition: complete stillness.
Let’s look more specifically at the signs and how this can be playing out for you:
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