That Sagittarius New Moon When The Perfect Illusion Died

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The Sagittarius New Moon wants us to bust through the perfect illusions we have built up in our lives so that we can take responsibility for our actual emotional truth

I’ve been away from writing because I just got married last weekend and have been immersed in the world of wedding planning. But it all went off perfectly and I’m in love with being a married man. Now being an astrologer, I of course had to pick a date that had some planetary meaning behind it. The date we chose coincided with Saturn being conjunct my Neptune in the 7th House. What does that mean? Well, Saturn is that planet all consumed with us growing up and taking responsibility in our lives. The 7th House is the house of partnership and marriage and because my Neptune, the planet of illusion, lives there, I found myself having to break the illusion of what I thought a wedding day should look like. Instead, I embraced the day and each moment for what it was and I could not have been more content and joyful throughout it.

As Saturn asked of me, I was taking responsibility for my approach to marriage and not entering into it from a place of delusion. I allowed myself to move through the illusions I had built for myself so that I could grasp the other side of Neptune, that of spirituality. I am a spiritual being. That is my truth. And my pure approach to my wedding allowed my ceremony and reception to reflect my spiritual truth. And my timing was spot on, as this new moon is all about this.

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Put your authentic self at the forefront

The Sagittarius New Moon wants you to bust through the perfect illusions you have built up in your life so that you can take responsibility for your actual emotional truth. You can no longer subscribe to the lies that you have told yourself. And you have been singing those lies so strongly for so long, that you believe them to be the truth of your own inner voice now. But that is some bullshit. And you know it. When you can get quiet with yourself and get in touch with the disharmony you feel in your heart about your relationship, your career, your health, etc, you will find access to your real truth. So stop allowing the behaviors that perpetuate your poor emotional habits.

It’s time to only take action from a place of authenticity. Stop trying to curve your feelings so that you can please others. You must put your needs at the forefront. And by doing so, put your authentic self at the forefront. Breaking through those illusions of what you think you should be doing or who you should be will connect you to the spiritual core of who you are, and that is what you need to be doing right now. Focusing outward will only garner you empty experiences. Allowing your inner self to be your guide will garner you the true experiences you need in your life right now.

I know, this can all sound a little easier said than done. Or maybe vague. But if you drill down into your general relationship with how authentic and truthful you are being in all aspects of your life, you will see where the holes are and the work that you need to do. And I bet you already know where those holes are. So don’t get caught up in responding in the usual way – the people pleasing way. Bye to that shit.

Be you. All you. That’s the Sag New Moon way.

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That Aries Full Moon When You Had an Emotional Rebellion

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I have always loved astrology.

Ever since my mom introduced me to the horoscopes at the back of the Los Angeles Daily News. But in 1999, on a whim, I took a job at a metaphysical bookshop. On my first day there, the store manager Angelique, a sweet witchy diva, told me that I wouldn’t be behind the counter forever. “You’ll be working here as an astrologer someday.” Yeah, okay lady, I thought to myself. Cut to months later, it’s my 23rd birthday and I’m reluctantly getting a past life reading with a beautiful Brit named Michelle. She was the type of reader who would book up months in advance but she’d had a rare, last minute cancellation and the time had gone to me. Barely minutes into the reading, she had hooked me with extremely personal insights that no one could have just guessed on. Toward the end of the reading, she asked me about my relationship with astrology. I thought back on Angelique’s words. “I like to read my horoscope.” She laughed and said that I should study it. “You’ve been an astrologer many times over. It will come back to you in no time.” I shrugged at the information but figured why not. I quickly dug into my study of the planets and their ancient divination system. Six months later, I was out from behind the counter and working as a full time astrologer. It has been with me since.

Owning my place as an astrologer took a lot of time and courage. It was challenging enough coming out to people as gay, but coming out as an astrologer presented a whole new level of awkward. Sometimes it was easy. People would find it unique or interesting. Of course, they usually wanted to know what I could tell them about them. But there were also times of being joked about or dismissed. So much so, that I abandoned the work for a short time. With time and friendly encouragement, I have come to realize that it has always been a part of me, and that won’t ever change. I certainly don’t claim to know how astrology entirely works, but I do know that it works for me and offers me extremely meaningful connections with the people I have the pleasure of working with on their charts. I also know that if I chose not to own this piece of myself, I would be denying a huge part of me that wants to blossom, whether just based from this lifetime or countless other life times before.

I am an astrologer, and I love it.

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The Full Moon in Aries wants us to fully embrace the pieces of ourselves that we may not entirely understand but that make us wholly unique

Aries is all about new beginnings. It’s the first sign of the zodiac. Therefore, it can be a little naïve and blind to reality. But that also means that it isn’t tainted by others’ perceptions of reality. Aries feels free to boldly create the reality it envisions. It can charge forth sometimes without care for others around, but it also hopes to inspire others to follow in its path. Aries has a strong leadership quality, as people are attracted to its tenacity and confidence, but it wants to lead people to their own personal rebellion. With Uranus, the planet of inspiration and uniqueness, joining the moon at this full moon time, it amplifies that Aries boldness. It isn’t the time for your outer personality and inner emotional self to war against each other. The two must embrace and integrate. Your sun (soul) and moon (heart) must dance together during this time, meaning you can’t be one person out in the world and another when alone at home. This separation of you will no longer fly.

This is emotional rebellion time. It’s time to feel your passions, goals, and desires as if for the first time. Fall in love all over again. Push yourself to take risks with how you feel. Commit to each moment in your life with your whole heart. Stop filtering yourself for fear of judgment. Fuck the haters. The haters are just a reflection of your own insecurities. And hell, sometimes the greatest hater to your life is you. So you gotta stop that shit. Use this full moon time to get real deep with yourself and communicate about what is really meaningful to you. Ask yourself, “What do I want to define me and my life moving forward?” Wonder what life could be like if no one was watching. No one was judging or scolding or side-eyeing. Just you, no holds barred. No self-imposed limitations on who you could be, who you could love, what you could accomplish. Now how can you bring that forth into your real world life?

Here are some brief offerings of help, per sign: Continue reading “That Aries Full Moon When You Had an Emotional Rebellion”

That Sagittarius Full Moon II, 2016

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Our greatest goal is to get in touch with the core of ourselves

Over the weekend, I was at a party and the conversation turned to the full moon, which then led it to turn to me. “So what does it mean, Angel?” Please note that I had probably had a few drinks at this point, but I’m always game to get into some astrology talk. “Well, it’s the second one in Sagittarius, which makes it even more meaningful. It’s all about truth. Deal with your truth or get the fuck off the pot.” Everyone laughed but then someone chimed in, “Isn’t that what they’re always about? Get in touch with your truth?” Someone else exclaimed in agreement. “Yeah, it’s always the same thing.” At the time, I belted out some response about how it’s always about truth because that’s what most people need to hear. Most are not in touch with their truth, which makes life harder for the rest of us. I don’t know if I made much sense at the time, and I agree that it can feel like every spiritual message is about getting in touch with your true self. But that’s for a reason. It’s because it’s true. Our greatest goal is to get in touch with the core of ourselves, and every day offers an opportunity to connect to that personal, inherent truth so that we can actualize our most valuable self.

Sagittarius is the truth seeker, so to have two full moons in that sign means that the universal energy is urging us to release our greatest truths out into the world. That can come in the form of an important relationship conversation, a creative project, or a deep internal realization that we must come to terms with inside our heart, mind, or spirit. Whatever it is isn’t easy. A lot in our lives may feel at odds with each other right now. Our home life may be sparring in some way with our work life. Or our internal self may want to do one thing that our external life isn’t assisting us in achieving. It may just be that the version of us that our past created is trying to give way to a version of us that we want to be now, but for some reason, we are unable to let go of whatever thought pattern, habit, relationship, job, or what have you that is holding us back. The genesis of our struggle isn’t always easy to connect to, but once we dig into the closet that houses all of our crap, we can uncover it and make way to free ourselves to be entirely who we want to be.

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The Sagittarius moon wants us to know that the more in touch we are with our truth, the clearer our path will be before us

So yes, I know a lot of this can sound broad and leave you wondering what the hell do I do about all this. But if you really take the time to understand yourself and your inner workings, you can make these general ideas concrete. And you will realize that it’s just not worth wasting time in this life. We really do allow ourselves to be clouded by the shit of our past, whether we know it or not. That is the human way. Our conditioning can keep us paralyzed from moving forward. The Sagittarius moon wants us to know that the more in touch we are with our truth, the clearer our path will be before us.

Here are some closer looks at the signs and how this full moon is affecting them:

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That Full Moon When You Got Real Clear

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We must be willing to dig into the truth of why we’re feeling so confused

Things just aren’t that clear right now. That’s what happens when Saturn, the planet of restriction and responsibility comes in close contact with Mercury, the ruler of the mind. Personally, I’ve been toiling over some decisions and driving myself to slightly epic points of insanity. Given that this is all occurring in Sagittarius means that it’s all trying to drive me toward a truth of some kind, but with Gemini in the mix, it’s hard to get quiet enough to clear the air. Whenever I sit with a client, I tend to always tell him or her that meditation is key to one’s success. And I always do my best to walk that talk and meditate daily. But even my recent meditations have been overrun with lists of things to do and questions about what’s right or wrong.

Today marks a Gemini full moon, which means it’s possible to connect to our minds in a way that helps us to release some answers to the questions on our thoughts. But we must be willing to dig into the truth of why we’re feeling so confused. Are we letting some fear or insecurity creep into the decision making process, clouding our best judgment and intuition? Or perhaps we’ve assigned some person in our life too much power over how we think or feel, causing our heart’s compass a lack of clarity. Whatever the case, we need to be willing to come to blows with our truest selves and face reality. We know what’s messing up. There just needs to be a willingness to accept what is a possibly a mistake we’ve made.

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This specific full moon time can feel challenging, but it can also be liberating

So how to know the truth? Well first off, trust your gut. You know your fears by now. You know what they sound like and you know what they respond to. If you’re not sure, then let me help. Your fears are usually excited by some need to be accepted by others. They can be enticed by the idea of being “left out” or considered a failure. They thrive on intimacy, and vulnerability. They don’t want you to succeed. Instead, they want you to stay put because it’s safe and free of change. So if you can’t get clear enough to make a strong decision, then take the time to dissect what is going on in your life and ask yourself if you’re being shrouded by some fear-based idea. Get calm and ask yourself what truly feels right and what feels wrong. You will know what makes sense for you. And let everyone else dictate their own lives, not yours.

It’s important to feel your thoughts and think about your feelings in a responsible way. Yes, these are two different things. Feel what you’re saying so that you know that you’re not saying something that can hurt another. If you’re thoughts are causing you pain and you can’t release them in a healthy way, they will only transform into hurtful words toward another. And this is never good, especially during the holidays when family is involved. Also, think about your feelings from an adult point of view. Are you overreacting? Are you being childish? Now is not the time to just react. Make sure your feelings about something or someone aren’t connected to some outdated pain or uncertainty. You may be bummed but it could just be about something that bears no resemblance to your actual reality. It’s just an old thinking pattern that feels ready to be released. So use this full moon time to release it in some constructive way, i.e. writing a letter you don’t need to send, some creative endeavor, or by simply beating a pillow for ten seconds. Um yeah, I do it. And it works.

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This specific full moon time can feel challenging, but it can also be liberating. It can be a time to release your old, “young” ways of thinking that don’t serve you anymore. You need to take responsibility for your thoughts and your feelings. No one is making you feel the way you do. You are simply choosing to respond. And you need to get a grip on how you do so. You deserve to feel good about your choices. You deserve to be confident. You have it within you. So have gratitude for your ability to change and grow, and have a fantastic Thanksgiving.

That Libra New Moon When You Pulled It Together

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Life is too precious to be wasting time on shit that doesn’t make us feel happy

As this comes to print, the Libra New Moon is spreading its energy around, calling upon us all to begin again in some aspect of our lives. The last few weeks have all been a bit of a clusterfuck, shall we say? Mercury was in a hell of a retrograde, causing all of us to reboot in various ways, whether it was in a relationship, a job sitch, or in some inner element of ourselves. I can say for myself that it really wore me down. I felt like I had a minor breakdown every other day (and maybe like two major breakdowns). In all, it was a struggle, as it forced me to reconsider some of my usual ways of being. And with that, came some understandings about things I need to change about myself, and about how I take on my world. What about you? Have you had any sorts of revelations about yourself and the way you take on life over these last few weeks? Well, the Libra New Moon is here to help both you and me integrate the lessons of these past weeks into our daily lives so that we can manifest some necessary evolution for ourselves.

Libra is all about balance. So what areas of your life are out of whack? What parts of you are you ignoring? Hopefully you have taken some stock of what is missing from your life, or at least have felt the inner stirrings that it is time to shake things up a bit. Life is too precious to be wasting time on shit that doesn’t make us feel happy. Sometimes, we end up spending most of our days in jobs or environments that completely deplete us. Well, if there is no way to get entirely out of those situations at this time, then how do you balance them better with activities that you do like? And this goes for relationships, your home life, or any path of study or education. If you are immersed too far into something that isn’t entirely feeding you mind, body, and soul, then you need to teeter back the other direction and work some more joyful elements into your life.

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This Libra New Moon has a lot of work for you to do

Analyze and make a plan. Over the last few weeks, what has caused you the most grief? Where have you been overwhelmed? What have you been craving but haven’t been giving yourself the time to enjoy? Ponder these questions and give yourself some honest answers. Then, make a plan to incorporate the things you’re missing into your life more while detaching yourself from things that are draining you. And yes, obviously the shit that is bringing you down is probably just unnecessary to your life right now, so it should go. But this doesn’t just have to be about ridding yourself of all the bad in exchange for some good. Maybe your job is great but you’re so buried in it that it’s keeping you from enjoying your partner or your family. Or perhaps you are just being plain lazy these days and enjoying lots of taquitos, which can be fulfilling, but you’re pushing aside some creative pursuit that would actually fulfill you a hell of a lot more.

You must find your balance. One key to this is meditation. I prescribe meditation in all of my chart readings with clients now. It is so necessary to taming the mind and seeing through the mental clutter. And meditation doesn’t have to be sitting cross-legged on a pillow for twenty minutes. It can be different for everyone. For some, free writing is meditative. For others, it’s gardening. But the intention is always the same – close your mental space off to wandering though and connect to the present. We cannot fully see what is missing, or what is in abundance, in our lives if we can’t tune in from the present.

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You must get still with what your unique spirit wants for you

Another element on the path to balance is finding our unique truth. Sometimes, we tell ourselves that we should be focusing on our family, or our jobs, or our creative pursuits more, but then it’s actually just external pressure masquerading as our internal voice causing us to think this way. We have to make sure that we want isn’t what someone else wants for us. We can try so hard to please others in our lives that we convince ourselves that what they want is what we want too. It’s just easier that way, right? Yeah, until you’re staring in the mirror, crying yourself silly while some old sad ballad plays, wondering how you ended up here. Okay, maybe that’s just me. But seriously, you must get still with what your unique spirit wants for you. And you have to try to honor it in a way that honors your personal integrity and your authentic self. It is easy to lose sight of our authenticity, especially in a society based around fitting in, getting “likes”, etc. Move on from that mentality and ground in to what matters to you. And then move more of that into your life.

This Libra New Moon has a lot of work for you to do. I know, it seems like we just got out of a damn retrograde and here I am offering you more mountains to climb. Well, that’s life. But these should also be much more fun if you approach from a place of joy. Joy for being the kind of person who wants to figure your shit out, who wants to be the best damn you that you can be, and for wanting to try and fearlessly actualize your dreams. Also, there is one more element to Libra, and that is partnership. So you don’t have to do all of this alone. You have people in your life who care for you and want to be a part of your happiness and growth. So connect with them, get their advice or just ask them to lend an ear as you work it all out. And you will work it all out. I have so much faith in you. You should too.

Happy Libra New Moon!

That Aries Full Moon When You Really Grew Up

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We have been motivated to leave behind old ways of being and to step into a more “grown-up” version of the person we want to be

I was talking to a friend last night, and we were discussing how both us and some of our friends are all feeling in a very similar place right now. It’s as if we’ve come through a larger cycle of transformation and change and we’re ready to “leave school for the real world.” In thinking about it, I realized that, collectively, we have done just that. For the last three years, Saturn has been moving through Scorpio. This three-year period has pushed us to face some of our weaknesses and our fears. It has asked us to move beyond our comfort zone and to try on new aspects of ourselves. We have been motivated to leave behind old ways of being and to step into a more “grown-up” version of the person we want to be. It has not been easy, and it may have left some of us in a place of “What the fuck do I do now?” But know that you’ve moved away from some relationships, work situations, home environments, etc, that just weren’t serving you. And as rough as it has been, it has also been rewarding. And you should feel much more in your power than the you who lived in your life three years ago.

Thankfully, the Aries Full Moon is here to help us culminate this process so that we can charge forth into the next horizon. It wants you to take your first major step into the newness of your current, more “grown-up” life. It’s time to take major advantage of the shift that your life has been creating for you. Take ownership of the positive changes you are instilling into your life. You know that leaving your job or committing to your new man was a challenge to undertake, but how strongly are you taking the reins in writing this next chapter? It’s time to seal the deal and just be the damn change already. Feel connected to your instincts and trust that inner voice to guide you properly. Whatever it is you’re trying to manifest, you have it in you to do so. You just have be the guide. No one else is gonna come along with a map and escort you to some gold. You are the map. Just be present enough to the flow of your life to follow it.

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I don’t need to take months to accomplish something when I have today

I know this to be true. Three years ago, I was in a job that felt meaningless to me. I knew it had to change but I didn’t know what the change was going to look like. As soon as I took ownership of the change that needed to occur, life took over. It wasn’t always easy but it was rewarding. And now I step into this next phase with that same sense of belief and excitement. But I also know that I can’t sleep on it. I don’t need to take months to accomplish something when I have today. I was lucky enough to jump into the moving waters before so that I could flow into profound opportunities and glorious personal growth experiences. But now, I must stay present so to navigate the rocks and waves ahead. I must stay present to my journey or else it will overcome me and I will be left, washed up on shore, waiting for another wave to catch me. I must stay present because there is no alternative. And you know this.

And now some further words on each sign:

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That Aquarius Full Moon When You Gave Your Old Bullshit Away

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This Aquarius full moon wants us to express ourselves from our deepest place.

First, let me apologize. Since I’ve been pretty busy as of late, I don’t have a full horoscope-like post for you this week. However, I did want to write to you all as it is the Aquarius full moon, and I didn’t want it to pass without connecting with everyone. So instead of diving into the depths for each sign, I will share some general words inspired for you all by this full moon.

Last night at a lovely dinner with friends, my boyfriend, The Aquarius, was talking to someone about this full moon. “I think it’s all about being your truest self. Moving through the fears that keep you from expressing your truest self.” And he is right. The Aquarius Full Moon wants us to release our unique, authentic selves out into the world. It doesn’t want us to get caught up in the bullshit of who we think we’re supposed to be, or the roles we play at work or at home. This full moon wants us to express ourselves from our deepest place. But in order to do that, we must know exactly how to get to that deepest place so we can access that true self.

Mining the depths of our selves is tough ass work. Even when we think we’re “going there”, closing our eyes and meditating or journaling to our hearts content, we may still be just going through the motions without actually plummeting into and facing the core of our personal, spiritual questions. We may become aware of our inner challenges without actually moving through and beyond them. Instead, we just let them move in and grow comfortable living in these challenges. And eventually, that becomes all we know, the challenge of trying to be our best self. So how do we bust through and make a real shift that can actually make all this personal work worthwhile?

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Playing the ego game will only lead you back to feeling empty again

Well, if you are reading this, on some level, you are on a personal spirit quest. And you must be connected to your spirit quest at every moment. You can’t just do your spirit work and then move on to your rest of the day being caught up in the ego life game that everyone else is playing. Because at this point, you know better, and where others will find triumph in beating someone else out or feeling like number one, you will know better. And playing the ego game will only lead you back to feeling empty again.

Use this full moon time to get in touch with whatever fears and limitations have been holding you back from being the person you dream of becoming. Think on what is keeping you from letting go of lame ways of being that stifle your voice, withhold you from pursuing and/or believing heartily in your dreams, or cause you unnecessary sadness. Whatever these things are, these thoughts or old memories, they don’t own you. So don’t absorb yourself in them. But you must know them before you can release them. You must name them. Meet them. Have a juice with them. And then tell them, “You have no power over me. You have no power over me. You have no power over me.”

You have the power to know you and be you. Others may not like the most powerful you. They will be threatened. And it will be hard. It takes work. But you have it within you to take responsibility for your greatest self. You have it within you to live as your greatest self. And I totally want to meet him or her. You should want that too.

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Happy Full Moon in Aquarius!

“Freedom is what you do with what has been done to you.” – Madonna