That Scorpio Full Moon When You Learned to Really Live

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Live from a place of complete honesty and integrity

So, these last few weeks have been a trip, in the best way. It started with a birthday that made me go, “Whoa middle-age-ish.” But that also hit me in the best way. I felt a fire lit beneath me and gained a sense of greater excitement for the life I’m living. I reconnected to old friends who I desperately need in my life. I followed paths by the compass of my true self, and not by the flashlight of fear. I tried, with my whole heart, to be my best self in ways that I haven’t in some time. I became more present to me. I credit a good amount of it to an amazing reader, Sabrina (http://www.sabrinapureofheart.com/sabrina), who helped to connect me to distant pieces of myself, looking for retrieval. Please go to her if you’re in need of the same. But I also credit myself, for learning to be open to the unknown and not being so scared anymore.

Why do I share all of this with you? Well because it’s the Full Moon in Scorpio. And this full moon is about putting your love to the test. And my love is in helping you, my dear readers, to get completely in touch with your highest self. To live from a place of complete honesty and integrity. To just be so damn proud of you when you look in the mirror because you’re finally not doing that same shit anymore that always leaves you feeling failure-ish and sad. I share my deepest shit so that you can feel more comfortable with yours.

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So find a way to take all the changes and ideas and deepest, silent thoughts you’ve been stewing over and live them out in your life. Show people a newer version of you, sprung from your own ideas of who you want to be, and should be. Don’t fuck around anymore.

You have one life. So live it.

I’m gonna give you some words from my House Mother, Madonna. Because she and Oprah co-govern the land of living your shit out loud. And her new album, Rebel Heart, goes IN.

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If you don’t have it, get it now. (https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/rebel-heart/id953710965)

“If you try and fail, get up again
Destiny will choose you in the end
If you don’t make the choice
And you don’t use your voice
Someone else will speak for you instead
What you want is just within your reach
But you gotta practice what you preach
You pay with sweat and tears
And overcome your fears
Never let the fire inside you leave.”

Now here is a brief, closer look at all the signs:

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The Full Moon and Your Personal Legend

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Paulo Coelho’s THE ALCHEMIST changed my life.

I remember reading it for the first time in the late 90’s, when a friend gifted me a copy. The magical story of a young shepherd on a journey to discover his “Personal Legend” shook me at the core. It just happened to coincide with my own personal spiritual awakening, so it truly felt as if the book had fallen from the sky and into my lap for a deep meaningful reason. Since then, I have read the book too many times to count. I’ve listened to the audio book as read by Jeremy Irons twice. I even still have my original copy, with all of the underlined quotes that spoke to me the moment I read them. I’m obsessed. But if you’ve read it, you know why.

One of the most famous quotes from THE ALCHEMIST is “And, when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.” In a recent interview with Oprah, Coelho said that this refers to both “the negative and the positive.” The energy and words that make up our thoughts are what pull things to us. Now this doesn’t just refer to the materialism of The Secret, a book people discovered and thought they could use to manifest a new Bentley. Because Coelho ties it to the purpose of uncovering your “Personal Legend”, or “your mission on Earth.” And “To realize one’s Personal Legend is a person’s only real obligation.” I mean, how fucking true is that?

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The reason I do all of the work that I do, whether it be astrology readings, writing this blog, writing narrative screenplays, or making/producing films is to take steps toward realizing my own “Personal Legend”. I know that I am here to translate stories. Whether it be the fictional stories told to me by the characters in my mind, the fictional stories told to others that then need help getting produced and put out into the world, or the personal stories of those whose lives I get to touch when I sit with them for a reading. I know it is somehow my duty to assist in the process of birthing those important stories into the world. And I am grateful for it. I am grateful for such a fascinating mission. But it took me a long time to accept it. And everyday, I grow more into it, with courage and enthusiasm, because I know that the universe has indeed conspired to help me get to this point. I pay attention, with the intention that I can see where I am supposed to head and be clear about the specific achievements that I am supposed to actualize. So, that I can truly realize my “Personal Legend”.

What is your “Personal Legend”? Do you feel at all connected to the great story of your life? If so, how are you taking part in its unfolding? And if not, what can you be doing to steer yourself onto the path?

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This Pisces Full Moon is here to help by supporting you in being your most authentic self.

The full moon is making powerful connections to the planets Saturn and Pluto, both of which are concerned with making great change, inside and out. They are trying to get you to remove a mask and bravely reveal more of who you choose to be, instead of just being who you’ve told yourself you should be. And Pisces is all concerned with getting in touch with that spirit self. So go within and ask yourself what’s missing. Acknowledge the wound in your life and find the courage to accept that it’s time for a deep healing. If you can do that, the universe will move mountains to make it so.

It’s time to take greater steps toward diminishing whatever roadblocks you have unconsciously built up for yourself. Perhaps you’ve created some negative story that has then aided in manifesting negativity into your life. Or you may just be avoiding the thing you know in your heart is your true calling out of fear of failing or, even worse, succeeding. Yes, some people fear success because they then have to be seen for who they really are in their hearts. And, when young, they may have been scolded for being who they really wanted to be, creating shame and doubt. I know it’s a lot. But don’t you want to achieve your dreams? Well then, keep stepping toward them by asking those great questions and probing yourself and the universe for answers. Trust yourself, and know that you are capable of finding your own “Personal Legend”. You just have to want it with your whole heart.

And please, if you haven’t, read THE ALCHEMIST. Even if you have, read it again. I swear, it’s some profound shit.

Now let’s dig a little deeper into each sign:

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The Idea of You and a New Moon in Libra

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What’s the idea you have for yourself?

A few weeks ago, I got back from Minnesota where I was working as a producer on a feature film.  This is the first time that I have worked in this capacity on a movie, and the actual production process was rewarding, exhausting, and one of the most challenging experiences of my life.  And the hours were simply not cute.  Actually, neither was I after a couple days of it.  But my greatest struggle wasn’t sleep deprivation or maintaining my girlish figure amidst the tables of craft service.  Those were easy to manage in comparison to dealing with the internal question mark that arose over myself as the shoot wore on.

I went into this filming process thinking I had a pretty clear idea of myself.  I’m a 36-year-old man.  I got issues, but I know who I am.  However, through this journey, I was forced to question the ideas of me I had in place time and again.  For instance, I thought I was entirely compassionate when I’m actually a bit of a shady bitch.  My thought that I was cautious in my decision making actually read to others as uncertain and lacking in confidence.  And I saw that questioning my instincts was a constant epidemic of my mind, and it never lead to anything but disappointment.  Mostly, I realized that one shouldn’t just sit idly by, waiting on a ship to come in.  With that, all you do is grow old on some dock, watching as others go on about their lives.

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When heavy trouble would arise on set, my go-to would be to just sit and observe.  Someone smarter would come along and handle.  But that mentality does nothing for one’s personal growth.  And sometimes, I am that someone smarter.  So I had to push myself to get involved.  No one was going to ask my opinion.  I had to force others to hear my voice.  Thus, I forced myself to hear my own voice and acknowledge it.  And that was something, with the exception of this blog, I had subtly squashed and put into submission as of late.

If we can’t see ourselves fresh every day, then we’re not giving ourselves the opportunity to truly evolve.

All this has allowed for a new me to emerge.  I’m bolder.  I’m more confident.  And I’m less afraid to speak up about what I feel with the fear of rejection hanging over me.  But this shift isn’t just about my actions.  It’s about mentality.  It’s about changing the idea I have of me.  This is a perfect kind of realization for the astrological climate around this new moon in Libra.

What’s the idea you have for yourself?  For one, there’s a sense of how we think we come across to others, which is usually a sharp difference from the actual truth.  We can also identify ourselves too much around a job, a relationship, or even our gender or sexual identity.  And sometimes, we labor to craft the perfect idea of what we think our lives should be.  We know the career we want or would excel at if we weren’t stuck in the one we were currently in, and we think it’s just a matter of time before the boss notices or the Universe opens the door to the right opportunity.  But really, that’s all bullshit.  If we can’t see ourselves fresh every day, then we’re not giving ourselves the opportunity to truly evolve.  We then can’t relate to others from an honest place.  And we rob ourselves of growth and attaining a true balance within which is really all Libra wants us to do.

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The process of finding your balance can be wobbly at times, so it requires movement.

Libra craves and creates balance, especially in relationships with others.  But as people, we can only project a peaceful equilibrium and attract those who have one if we truly feel it inside.  Right now, the planets want us to meet a new idea for ourselves.  We need to be honest about what we’re looking for in our lives and stop letting our circumstances dictate what we feel, think, and do.  Each of us is a unique being with a set of lessons to take on.  So take a look at your life.  Are you connecting and activating your specific life plan, or are you just responding to the world and events around you?  If you’re not being active in the process, then you’re not achieving balance.  The process of finding your balance can be wobbly at times, so it requires movement.  Like in yoga, we must fall down when trying to hold a pose to fully know the strength and power of its opposition: complete stillness.

Let’s look more specifically at the signs and how this can be playing out for you:

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What About This Monster Full Moon?

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I have had a few people ask me to chime in on what astrologer Susan Miller is referring to as next week’s “Monster Moon”, or the Libra Full Moon.  The energy of it really starts today and culminates on March 27th, when a ton of planets will be fully ignited – the Sun, Moon, Venus, Mars, Jupiter, Uranus, and Pluto.  Though it will touch all of us, it’s primarily going to affect a few signs in a major way: Libra, Aries, Capricorn, Cancer, and Gemini – or anyone with natal planets in those signs.  So if you are not one of those signs but your rising or moon is, then you’re also going to be feeling all of this quite a bit.  Okay, this is probably all sounding like a lot.  So let me try and break it down, and then I can get specific on what I think we can all do to best navigate these potentially volatile waters.

First off, we all know a full moon is a time to release some built-up emotional energy – hence the whole idea of letting loose and howling at it.  This month, that internal release is coming in the sign of Libra.  Generally speaking, it’s time to address the pent-up frustration we have around certain relationships.  And it needs to be vocal, since Libra is an air sign and has to have a talk about it.  Perhaps there is someone you haven’t been able to completely express yourself to, or with whom you’ve been creating a level of underlying tension.  That tension could be good or bad – the boss you want to tell to fuck off or the cute guy you’ve been tiptoeing around with your feelings.  Well, this could be the time where you have no choice but to let the truth be heard.  Truth is the key word here.  We can’t avoid it with this full moon so don’t try to – it will bite you in the ass later.

No more childhood mentalities that cause us to act out as unconscious adults

Now most importantly, we just completed a period where most of the planets traveled through Pisces.  These last forty or so days pushed us to connect to our soul’s desires more and urged us to bring certain personal cycles to an end.  Though there were certainly projects, relationships, etc that could have found completion at this time, it was really dealing more with our internal situation.  We were being asked to say goodbye to some aspects of our inner self that had reached their expiration date.  No more shitty childhood mentalities that cause us to act out as unconscious adults.  We must now be more aware of our actions and even more so of the motivations behind them.  The same should be said for our goals and dreams.  Have we been walking a road with our soul for a compass, or have we been using something like a desire to please our family or insecurity around love to guide us?

Thankfully, Mercury is still in that place of soul reflection, so we have some time to address our soul and ask for guidance.  We can identify our outdated thinking patterns and give them the boot so that we can each truly heal from a deeper place.  So, journal it out.  Meditate.  Grab a bottle of wine and your best friend so you can just talk about your deepest fears.  Anything that gets you closer to the core of what could be holding you back.  If you hold these feelings, insecurities, and/or fears inside, then you give them the power to control.  And why the fuck should you be giving your power away to your thoughts if they are just covered in cobwebs and trying to sabotage your happiness?  It’s time to let go, once and for all.  And like, now.

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HAPPY NEW MOON IN PISCES – NOW GET IT TOGETHER!

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Push yourself toward a deeper soul connection

Hey Everyone!  Today is the New Moon In Pisces, which basically means that its time to set some imaginative, spirituality-based intentions for the next thirty days.  I, for one, signed up for Deepak Chopra and Oprah’s 21-Day Meditation Challenge, which starts today.  Because that is how I roll.  But you should figure out what you can do to push yourself toward a deeper soul connection.  Whether it’s starting this new lunar month off immersed in one of your favorite pastimes or chanting deeply for hours on end, figure out what you need to do to tap into the source of your highest self.  That way, you can be in the best personal space from which to birth ideas on how to manifest your current dreams.

As I’ve mentioned in previous posts, there are so many planets passing through the sign of Pisces right now, that all of us are feeling rather raw and naked to the world around us.  We’re all sensitive or more tired than usual – that’s because Pisces governs our inner world, so with a ton of its energy swirling about, we’re being pushed to lead more from our gut-based intuition.  And for some of us, that can be a really obnoxious task.  We want to analyze and understand.  But right now, that’s just trying to swim upstream.

Don’t get left behind when the shift into Aries begins

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One Man’s Pain is Another Man’s Retrograde

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Shit’s gonna go down when you least expect it

For the past few months now, I have been unhappy in my day job.  It had just ceased being challenging and creative in the way I needed it to be.  And I had been talking to friends about my “next steps” while mentally laboring over the things I needed to be doing in order to achieve the real professional success I was looking for in my life.  Yeah, lots of words.  Lots of me, talking.  Therefore, I wasn’t making much tangible progress.  In particular, these last few weeks saw me making light attempts to flesh out some of my creative projects, but the work always found itself overshadowed by my inner chatter – a white noise wall of questions.  Am I really meant to be a writer?  How should I go about bringing it into my life?  What is this astrology thing about for me?  Is it a legitimate path?  How can I find clarity when I have to report daily to a job that leaves me passionless?

Then, life offered me a nudge – I was abruptly laid off from my job.  In a way, it wasn’t sudden.  I had the feeling that I needed to move along.  I just thought that perhaps I would be a bit more in the driver’s seat.  However, when Saturn, the planet of structure, is hovering over Uranus, the ruler of sudden surprise, and it’s going on in your chart’s 6th House, the place that rules your daily work routine, shit’s gonna go down when you least expect it.  And how you least expect it.  But I haven’t responded in a way that most would in this situation.  In fact, I have surprised myself with how positive I am seeing the whole thing.

I am choosing to utilize this moment as a call to order

I know that this is a gift of retrograde.  The universe is urging me to review how I want to spend my days and reinterpret my daily routine to fit that ideal.  All I can see here is opportunity.  Sure, there is some fear and imminent limitation in the situation, which are all things Saturn, but I am choosing to utilize this moment as a call to order.  And, in a way, it’s a chance to reboot my life.  That is the exact gift of a retrograde for each and every one of us – a do-over.

We need to make sure that we’re asking the necessary questions

Everyone is going through some major questioning right now.  Not only are Mercury and Saturn in retrograde, but we also have five planets and the celestial cousin Chiron all moving through the sign of Pisces.  That means we are either getting deeply in touch with our inner selves or we are feeling so confused that we just can’t drink three glasses of wine fast enough.  And coupled with the retrograde energy, we’re second-guessing our ideas and goals.  Are we sure that we know what we’re doing?  The good thing is, we don’t need to have the answers right away.  We just need to make sure that we’re asking the necessary questions.  That way, we can then open ourselves up to receiving all of the important information that is going to help us understand where we need to go next in life.

Let’s take a closer look at how all of these planetary influences are affecting each sign:

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Your Soul is Your Truth – Deal With It!

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A gift lies within pain and confusion

I haven’t written for the last month, but it’s not because I have chosen to desert you, dear reader.  Soon after my last post, a dear friend of mine passed away.  It was one of those moments in life that shattered my perceived perception of how the Universe works.  I couldn’t help but to question the goodness of all things, knowing that my young, successful, and ambitious friend had been wiped from the earth in a single day.  I spent so much time agonizing over how I could have been a better friend, or creating fear for myself around death.  Then, exactly one week later, my boyfriend experienced a death in his immediate family, which brought mortality even more into the limelight.  I spent hours wondering, “what the hell is going on here, Universe?”  I was tired, sad, and just plain over it.  So I caved and spent a good long month just crying.

With the dust from my intense January settled, I have truly been able to recognize that a gift lies within pain and confusion.  But we must be willing to go into the tears and feelings to access it.  Because that is the only way that we can move deeper, into the Piscean deep where our soul dwells.  And our soul is our truth.  Sometimes, we can grow too distant from that truth, and we need a crushing hand to come in and remind us to reconnect.  See, my soul was feeling abandoned in a way, and nothing ever comes from being in that place.  Thankfully, I have re-established the connection, and just in time for Pisces to make its way in.

In Pisces lives spirit and intuition.

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Pisces is the connecter to soul.  In Pisces lives spirit and intuition.  It is the sign that governs our link to the divine and makes our human experience a deeper, more soulful one.  The sun hasn’t moved into Pisces yet, but four others are already there – Mercury, Mars, Neptune, and the asteroid Chiron, which in astrology represents our soul’s greatest wound.  With the Sun coming to join soon, as well as Venus, we will all be driven more by our internal compass, so it will be important to gain or further vitalize that connection.  Otherwise, we could just find ourselves fighting the messages we are receiving, making life chaotic rather than flowing.  And that’s where we deserve to be.

Let’s look more closely at where Pisces may be affecting you, and how you should harness its energy to live a better life.

(In Memory of Sadath Garcia, a true friend and Aries soul.)

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