That Taurus New Moon When You Measure What You’re Worth

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Define your worth by the love you feel for yourself and for others

What are you worth, and how do you judge it? Do you judge by how much money you make? Is it by how busy you are each week? And don’t get all high and mighty on me and be like, “Oh I love myself. I am priceless, honey!” Not if you allow someone to make a critical comment about your work or your hair or your mode of transportation and then feel some sort of way about it for hours or days or weeks to come. If that is the case, then you may be valuing yourself based on some other person’s perception of you, which means you’ve placed your sense of worth outside of yourself. Now, if you never do that and you’re still feeling priceless, then get it girl! But, if you’re like me, you may still allow any sort of rejection to ding your human heart. And let’s be real, it can ding your fragile ego too. Well please know that it’s okay, because we have to be willing to feel what we need to feel. And, as we feel it, we work through it, which allows ourselves to get closer to a place where our worth solely stems from within. That is the promised land.

This Taurus New Moon wants you to establish a new, greater sense of self worth, which will allow you to be fully responsible for the actions you take. This means it is time to love yourself and all that you are in a bigger way so that you feel confident enough to seize everything you want in life. If your worth is found outside you in any way, then you will easily stand by, waiting for someone to do something or say something that will validate your existence. And then you may not take action toward manifesting your goals, because you don’t feel you’ve been given the go-ahead to do so. But the only go-ahead you need is the one given to you by your purest intuitive sense. And if you make something or do something and others don’t respond, well let them and keep on keeping on. Sure, there may be some valid criticism there but take it and move on without letting it define YOU.

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You are magic with a unique message to offer

Define your worth by the love you feel for yourself and for others. You are not your critic’s words. You are not the shade thrown at you. You are a brilliant, creative light on this spinning rock we call Earth. You are magic with a unique message to offer. And you are responsible for your happiness and successes. Yes, that means you are responsible for your failures too, but you are also none of these things. You are a beautiful human experiencing these things. And you observe them. You learn from them. But you don’t define yourself by them. Again, you define yourself by the love you feel for yourself and for others. That is your truth so let that truth radiate bright into the eyes of your life, and all that other bullshit will just be blinded by its glow.

Now let’s take a look at a few more words for each sign. How can you measure your worth?

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That Scorpio Full Moon When You Learned to Really Live

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Live from a place of complete honesty and integrity

So, these last few weeks have been a trip, in the best way. It started with a birthday that made me go, “Whoa middle-age-ish.” But that also hit me in the best way. I felt a fire lit beneath me and gained a sense of greater excitement for the life I’m living. I reconnected to old friends who I desperately need in my life. I followed paths by the compass of my true self, and not by the flashlight of fear. I tried, with my whole heart, to be my best self in ways that I haven’t in some time. I became more present to me. I credit a good amount of it to an amazing reader, Sabrina (http://www.sabrinapureofheart.com/sabrina), who helped to connect me to distant pieces of myself, looking for retrieval. Please go to her if you’re in need of the same. But I also credit myself, for learning to be open to the unknown and not being so scared anymore.

Why do I share all of this with you? Well because it’s the Full Moon in Scorpio. And this full moon is about putting your love to the test. And my love is in helping you, my dear readers, to get completely in touch with your highest self. To live from a place of complete honesty and integrity. To just be so damn proud of you when you look in the mirror because you’re finally not doing that same shit anymore that always leaves you feeling failure-ish and sad. I share my deepest shit so that you can feel more comfortable with yours.

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So find a way to take all the changes and ideas and deepest, silent thoughts you’ve been stewing over and live them out in your life. Show people a newer version of you, sprung from your own ideas of who you want to be, and should be. Don’t fuck around anymore.

You have one life. So live it.

I’m gonna give you some words from my House Mother, Madonna. Because she and Oprah co-govern the land of living your shit out loud. And her new album, Rebel Heart, goes IN.

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If you don’t have it, get it now. (https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/rebel-heart/id953710965)

“If you try and fail, get up again
Destiny will choose you in the end
If you don’t make the choice
And you don’t use your voice
Someone else will speak for you instead
What you want is just within your reach
But you gotta practice what you preach
You pay with sweat and tears
And overcome your fears
Never let the fire inside you leave.”

Now here is a brief, closer look at all the signs:

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That Taurus New Moon When You Pull It Together

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Manifest the true transformation at hand

If you’ve been paying attention to my blog, or just the world of astrology in general, you’ve seen that the month of April was quite, as us professionals call it, a shit show. We had the lunar eclipse in Libra that started to make us all feel a bit crazy. But it was even more so the huge square, or cross, that four planets were creating in the sky with their placements. Uranus, Pluto, Jupiter, and Mars have all been connecting in a way that has been pushing us to get more in tune with our authenticity so that we can manifest the true transformation at hand. You know, no big deal. Just some total soul reclamation type shit!

For me, life has been a whirlwind during these last few weeks. I haven’t been able to keep up with everything that needs to get done. It’s as if the planets have me running a giant life obstacle course right now. However, in the past when feeling overwhelmed, I would allow my frustration to get the best of me and thus sabotage some of my work or personal life. The problem was that I was always focused more on the mistakes of the past or what I was hoping to see happen in the future. That’s how I would relate to my present so everything would be filtered through that, causing chaos. Lately, I’ve been able to shift my perspective so that I can accept my present moment for what it is. With this personal alteration, I am better equipped to run the obstacle course. I don’t trip and fall (as much).

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The New Moon in Taurus is here to solidify and ground us into the next chapter of our lives

Have you also been feeling the intensity of these last few weeks? Finding that you’re more upset than usual? Or just stressed, usually because of other people’s mistakes or slow response time to your needs? Well, hopefully like me, you have approached it with a new sense of self. You have seen a bolder, braver, and more patient you step forward to address the issues at hand. Or at least, you have had the thoughts percolate inside that would invite such a change. Well, don’t worry if you haven’t stepped up just yet. Just because April is ending doesn’t mean you don’t still have time to tap into the great energy of change that has been sweeping through. In fact, this week is the perfect time to get into the groove of a new you and make it real.

The New Moon in Taurus is here to solidify and ground us into the next chapter of our lives and being. Taurus is all about tangibility, so it’s time to show your life how you can assert the new you in a more practical way. The new habits should be settling in and taking effect. And it’s also an eclipse, which amplifies its energy in a big way! So if there are new jobs, relationships, or additions to your home, now is the time to really dig into them with gusto and own your need for them in your life. Anything that is unnecessary to this new growth cycle for you should be minimized or completely gone. What should be left are the seeds for a greater, more brilliant chapter of your life. So get to planting, watering, or harvesting what you’ve grown. The proof is in the putting, so put yourself to the test.

Let’s dig a little deeper into each sign:

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I’m Fucking Awesome, And So Are You

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This weekend’s full moon in Taurus urges you to connect your sense of self-worth to the life you allow yourself to live

For the first time in almost ten years, I don’t have a full-time job. I have work, which helps to define me. I have astrology. I am a writer. I am helping to produce a film. But at this moment in time, none of these things are currently adding much to my bank account on a consistent basis. Now it has been somewhat liberating. I have been allowed the opportunity to guide myself toward the things I want to focus on. But it has also been as scary as plummeting through a crack in the earth.

When I was leaving my last job back in May, a good Taurus friend who had just been through the process told me that it was going to bring up some things. Fear. Anxiety. And he said to just let them come on. They’re real emotions, and they shouldn’t be ignored. Thankfully, I did have the film project to look forward to, and that came along a few months later in more of a full-time way. But over the last couple of months, my participation in it leveled off some, and I found myself back in the space of “What the fuck”.

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We all have a responsibility to regard ourselves with dignity and delight

Though there has been more time to dive into my creativity and my astrology work, I have been a little beaten up by the ego in the mirror. He has been talking a lot about money and rent and the future. And in a moment of weakness, there was inner talk of needing to find “a real job”. But if I were to cave and go back into the wheel I just recently vacated, I wouldn’t be honoring my spiritual truth. Because I wouldn’t be honoring the gifts I’ve been given and that I should be using for my livelihood. It’s this push toward a greater faith in ourselves that the current astrological climate wants us to recognize and step into

This weekend’s full moon in Taurus urges you to connect your sense of self-worth to the life you allow yourself to live. If you are feeling stuck, then it may be because you don’t truly believe in your abilities. Recognize that your deepest feelings of self-confidence directly reflect your circumstances. That can be hard for some to ingest. “Why would I believe myself into unhappiness?” Well, because underneath it all, you haven’t truly told yourself that you deserve to be happy. And that kind of shit can wedge into your psyche deep, causing you to act out in seemingly childish, unconscious ways. Please know that you will continue to do so until you face the truth of your pain connected to feelings of failure and being less-than what you dreamed you would be. Once you go into all that, then you will truly begin to feel liberated from your ego’s hold.

We all have a responsibility to regard ourselves with dignity and delight. So there is no reason for any of us to waste our lives devoting time toward experiences that lack our passion. Sure, life will hand us ridiculously challenging experiences that are beyond our psyche’s control. But it’s how we then respond to them that defines us. And if we can respond with some sense of self-worth, then we are aiming higher.

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Attach your worth to what’s really in your heart

Now is the time to show ourselves that we deserve to do what we love. If we can offer ourselves that gift, then the Universe will recognize and offer a gift in return. It may not be a million dollars, but it could be! At the very least, it will be some sort of tangible reminder that when you attach your worth to what’s really in your heart, then your actual value in life will go up. That is because you finally deem yourself good enough to receive it.

Let’s take a closer look at the signs to see what area in your life this may be affecting. And remember to check out your rising sign too, if you know it.

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The Idea of You and a New Moon in Libra

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What’s the idea you have for yourself?

A few weeks ago, I got back from Minnesota where I was working as a producer on a feature film.  This is the first time that I have worked in this capacity on a movie, and the actual production process was rewarding, exhausting, and one of the most challenging experiences of my life.  And the hours were simply not cute.  Actually, neither was I after a couple days of it.  But my greatest struggle wasn’t sleep deprivation or maintaining my girlish figure amidst the tables of craft service.  Those were easy to manage in comparison to dealing with the internal question mark that arose over myself as the shoot wore on.

I went into this filming process thinking I had a pretty clear idea of myself.  I’m a 36-year-old man.  I got issues, but I know who I am.  However, through this journey, I was forced to question the ideas of me I had in place time and again.  For instance, I thought I was entirely compassionate when I’m actually a bit of a shady bitch.  My thought that I was cautious in my decision making actually read to others as uncertain and lacking in confidence.  And I saw that questioning my instincts was a constant epidemic of my mind, and it never lead to anything but disappointment.  Mostly, I realized that one shouldn’t just sit idly by, waiting on a ship to come in.  With that, all you do is grow old on some dock, watching as others go on about their lives.

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When heavy trouble would arise on set, my go-to would be to just sit and observe.  Someone smarter would come along and handle.  But that mentality does nothing for one’s personal growth.  And sometimes, I am that someone smarter.  So I had to push myself to get involved.  No one was going to ask my opinion.  I had to force others to hear my voice.  Thus, I forced myself to hear my own voice and acknowledge it.  And that was something, with the exception of this blog, I had subtly squashed and put into submission as of late.

If we can’t see ourselves fresh every day, then we’re not giving ourselves the opportunity to truly evolve.

All this has allowed for a new me to emerge.  I’m bolder.  I’m more confident.  And I’m less afraid to speak up about what I feel with the fear of rejection hanging over me.  But this shift isn’t just about my actions.  It’s about mentality.  It’s about changing the idea I have of me.  This is a perfect kind of realization for the astrological climate around this new moon in Libra.

What’s the idea you have for yourself?  For one, there’s a sense of how we think we come across to others, which is usually a sharp difference from the actual truth.  We can also identify ourselves too much around a job, a relationship, or even our gender or sexual identity.  And sometimes, we labor to craft the perfect idea of what we think our lives should be.  We know the career we want or would excel at if we weren’t stuck in the one we were currently in, and we think it’s just a matter of time before the boss notices or the Universe opens the door to the right opportunity.  But really, that’s all bullshit.  If we can’t see ourselves fresh every day, then we’re not giving ourselves the opportunity to truly evolve.  We then can’t relate to others from an honest place.  And we rob ourselves of growth and attaining a true balance within which is really all Libra wants us to do.

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The process of finding your balance can be wobbly at times, so it requires movement.

Libra craves and creates balance, especially in relationships with others.  But as people, we can only project a peaceful equilibrium and attract those who have one if we truly feel it inside.  Right now, the planets want us to meet a new idea for ourselves.  We need to be honest about what we’re looking for in our lives and stop letting our circumstances dictate what we feel, think, and do.  Each of us is a unique being with a set of lessons to take on.  So take a look at your life.  Are you connecting and activating your specific life plan, or are you just responding to the world and events around you?  If you’re not being active in the process, then you’re not achieving balance.  The process of finding your balance can be wobbly at times, so it requires movement.  Like in yoga, we must fall down when trying to hold a pose to fully know the strength and power of its opposition: complete stillness.

Let’s look more specifically at the signs and how this can be playing out for you:

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Do You Love Yourself, or Whisky and Cheetos More?

When it comes to placing value on our selves and our own personal needs, we can all look pretty damn cheap

I was recently giving a reading to someone and we got into a discussion about the second house, which rules all things material and money.  It’s also the house where Taurus usually lives.  As we dug into the state of her financial affairs, I urged her to also think of value and worth in a different way.  Perhaps this time in her life wasn’t about her raking in a pot of gold to then turn into a new house or car.  Or maybe it was.  However, in order for her to actualize that physical wealth, she was going to have to first get into contact with her own sense of internal wealth.  And after chiseling away at that notion, she got it.  She was making money but was unable to hold onto it in a meaningful way, because she wasn’t applying it towards things she personally valued.  Instead, she was putting it towards things that she felt she should have based on other people’s ideas for her life.  And this life isn’t about pleasing others.  It’s about coming into contact with what we inherently treasure, and then materializing that into existence.  This can be hard for a lot of us.  Because when it comes to placing value on our selves and our own personal needs, we can all look pretty damn cheap.

The relationship you have with money is a direct response to your own sense of self worth.  That doesn’t entirely mean that if you’re broke, you hate yourself.  What it does mean is that you have to become more aware of where you place value in your life and whether that is in alignment with the worth you place on yourself.  For instance, you may claim to value your health but then spend money on whisky and Cheetos.  Sure, a splurge is important and we all should have some fun.  But, if your idea of fun is getting drunk and licking that weird yellow dust off your fingers, then your personal values may be a little out of whack.

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The Taurus new moon is here to help you hone in on where your sense of personal worth needs some attention

You must take stock of your life and become more vigilant about your choices and the messages they send back to your psyche.  Thankfully, the Taurus new moon is here to help you hone in on where your sense of personal worth needs some attention.  Once you better understand where your focus needs to be, it’s then a perfect time to plant seeds for new growth.  And hopefully, if you play your cards right, the Taurus new moon tree that grows for you will have some money dangling from it.

Taurus is about manifestation.  It’s about turning inspiration into the tangible.  Thus, the Taurus new moon is about sprouting those ideas into living, breathing reality.  And this one is powerful, as it has Mercury (thought, communication) and Mars (action) right behind it, pushing it toward optimal growth.  But again, note that nothing will fruit if you’re not in touch with what you need.  Or you will just have more of what you don’t want blossom, and then you’ll have an abundance of more to complain about in work, at home, etc.  So how in touch are you with what you truly value?  Are your actions in alignment with that?  What is the state of your personal integrity?  Do you need to make it stronger and, if so, how does happen?

Here’s a brief look at each sign, with the hopes of offering you some personal growth and a little realness:

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Can You Please Just Trust Yourself Already?

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The Scorpio Full Moon teaches us that we have to let go of emotional control and trust that what we want is already in the process of being manifested

I’m sorry to be so late in the game with my Full Moon piece.  I have spent the last week in New York City at work on the movie that I am helping to produce.  I was also able to visit some old friends who I hadn’t seen in a while.  And most importantly, I was able to reconnect with a city that I left almost ten years ago to pursue a new life and some bigger dreams in Los Angeles.  On my last night in Brooklyn, I was able to stand on a rooftop overlooking Manhattan, and I was struck with the enormity of it.  And I was struck with the fact that I lived there.  A young man with barely any money and no job, I had moved there in my early twenties to follow the lifelong goal to live in New York City.  And I did it.  In that moment of remembrance, I was able to recognize the strength and determination that dwells within me.  But I sometimes lose sight of it and feel afraid or apprehensive.  This trip gave me the gift of hindsight and allowed me to see all of the man that I am.  There, on that building rooftop in Dumbo, I was able to see the fearless man that I can be, and I was able to let go of some of the timid man I had become.  A piece of me had come home, and just in time for the Scorpio Full Moon.

The Scorpio Full Moon teaches us that we have to let go of emotional control and trust that what we want is already in the process of being manifested.  We may have fears around some of the things going on in our lives.  A lot of us are being asked to step up and accept more responsibility for our selves and our life choices.  And this full moon is amplifying that, as our souls are continuing their push towards maturity and growth.  If we are able to trust our intuition and let our purest inner voice guide us, we then can really see the fruits of our greatest dreams start to emerge on the tree of life.  And I know we all want that.  But in order to truly get the dreams fulfilled, we have to believe wholeheartedly that they can.  We have to let go and trust.

Be one who originates positivity and change in your life

The ideas for all the changes you want to take root are still emerging, and those projects you want to bring into full light are still immersed in a lot more discussion that you would like.  But this is the test.  We all must be willing to do the mental and physical work toward manifesting a goal with the belief that everything we want will work out.  If we can’t allow that faith inside and instill it into the work we’re doing, we will instead work from a place of fear.  And that will only cause us to destroy everything we have worked toward up until this point.  So don’t be one of the destroyers.  Be one who originates positivity and change in your life.  Have faith in yourself and what you want.  That is the only way to succeed.

This Full Moon is also an eclipse, which in astrology means that the energy of it intensifies over the next couple of weeks as we head to the new moon in Taurus.  That one will also come with an eclipse.  As Susan Miller calls it, this is an “eclipse season”, as we will then have a third eclipse at the end of May.  All this is to say that everything we are trying to put into motion can happen, but it comes at a price.  And it’s an internal one.  We have to face everything with a strength and grace we may have never seen inside of us before.  Or, like me, had forgotten that we already have.

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So let go of your preconceived notions of you and invite a greater transformation into your life.  I know you can.  Here are some quick little capsules of knowledge to better help you do so:

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OLD HABITS DIE NOW

Anxiety found its way to me at a very early age.

I have no idea when I started biting my nails.  I must have been around 7 or 8 when my dad would yell at me from the couch as I sat four feet away from the TV set, just gnawing on my hand.  It sounds like anxiety found its way to me at a very early age.  Chewing my nails was a way to deal with the pent up energy.  And it still is, I guess.  What can I say: I have a lot of spirit running through me at all times.

Today as I was driving on a grocery run, I started to bite my nail.  I immediately became present with what I was doing and pulled my hand away.  As I continued to drive, it dawned on me that I have been partaking in this particular bad habit for almost thirty years.  Thirty years of behavior that my young child self started while mindlessly staring at The Cosby Show.  And here I am.  A grown ass man, still mindless.  So what the hell has kept me stuck in this juvenile routine for so many years?  I think it’s probably a product of my fearful upbringing, coupled with a problem relaxing.  But it ain’t doing me any good now.

We must free ourselves from the habits that keep us from actualizing our best selves. 

You may think that a habit like nail biting isn’t a big deal.  Gross, yes.  But is it destructive?  On the surface, no.  But in truth, when it comes to certain stressful situations, I am still that scared, nervous little boy.  And in my adult life, when dealing in business or with a client, people don’t want to see some scared little boy in front of them.  They want to see a confident, capable man.  And that is who I want to be.  But holding onto some childish activity just lets me keep one foot in the doorway to adolescence, and that’s a problem.  Because then I am not fully taking responsibility for the present moment, and I am ultimately expressing fear about being a fully realized adult.  I’m keeping myself from truly living as me.

Well, it’s time to let go.

This week’s full moon in Taurus wants you to get real.

We all have our vices, addictions, and areas of life where bad decision-making reigns, but the planets currently have a grander plan in mind for the sum of us.  We must free ourselves from the habits that keep us from actualizing our best selves.  This week’s full moon in Taurus wants you to get real and see that by holding onto a habit, you’re not giving yourself the complete commitment you deserve.  More so, it wants you to get to the root of your apprehension to going all in on yourself.  In order to be the greatest expression of yourself, you have to be dedicated to the dream you have for your life.  It is when you strive for that dream that you activate the scenarios and relationships that will take you to the next level of your existence.

So what nasty habits are keeping you from making that ultimate commitment – the one that would have you dazzling at the change you’ve made for your life?  Look at your life and choose one habit that is keeping you from actualizing the next, best version of you.  Now, that is not to say that the ‘you’ now isn’t good enough.  But the ‘you’ now probably isn’t taking full advantage of the gifts you have nor is it fulfilling the true purpose you see for yourself.  So look deep and see where in your life you could stand to let go of an old way of being.

Here’s some further help, in case you need it.

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