That Cancer Full Moon When You Were in All Your Glory

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It’s time to feel. All of it.

The Cancer full moon is always my favorite. Full disclosure, my own moon is in Cancer so it always feels like I’m dialing in on some profound emotional experience or revelation on these days. Thank God I scheduled therapy for today. But I also love it because Cancer rules the moon, so it also marks her yearly moment to allow us all a collective emotional exhale. We may all be feeling a little emotionally constipated right now, stopped up from all the feelings we’ve had to confront and absorb over these last six months. Hell, these last two months have been enough of a roller coaster to last me a lifetime. But consider that whatever emotional process we initiated in July is now coming to a head and it wants to explode or release. Now it’s not entirely in the, “I need to scream at someone and have a breakdown” kind of way though it could be. I would just say that if we’ve been looking within and trying to cultivate some stronger relationship with ourselves around an area of our lives, now is the perfect time to move it all out of the head and into our hearts. It’s time to feel. All of it.

We should use this moment as an opportunity to love ourselves wholly. We must drop the bullshit mental games we play with ourselves and fall madly in love with the life we want to build. It’s not okay anymore to make excuses nor succumb to our own internal negative speak. Now this is all easier said than done. I know that I can meditate all day long and then come out of it to an immediate self-criticism. And that quick switch from “love and light” to “girl, your eyes look tired” is rough because then it makes the meditation feel like a failure. But it’s not. It’s just human. However, the goal is to minimize the feeling we take from the critical voice. Because THAT IS ALL IT IS. It’s not a real voice. It’s a voice conjured by past insecurities that we tell ourselves is the voice of reality. But the voice of reality is actually all around you. The voice of reality is simply the present moment.

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The time has come for you to believe in the future self that you deep down know exists in the space laid out for you

The goal is to navigate the pitfalls of the inner voices so that we come out of our days feeling gratitude and self-love. We cannot attach to the inner saboteur anymore. (By the way, if you don’t have this voice then you’ve succeeded at life and can just stop reading now.) When we do attach to that voice, we put a roadblock up in front of our abundance. We cannot see the opportunities coming our way. We cannot trust the voice of inspiration because we think it is the same voice of self-doubt. But these two do not come from the same place. Inspiration is fleeting while self-doubt will stick around. Inspiration comes in like a whisper from a dream while self-doubt nags like a roommate we can’t get rid of. Well, right now, inspiration, luck, abundance, and insight are available to us. We just have to feel with our whole mind, body, and soul that we deserve it to access it.

You deserve goodness. Can you truly believe that for yourself? I need you to feel that with your whole heart. Look in the mirror and tell that scared, loving being that is you, “I deserve goodness.” Do that for me. Do that for yourself. The time has come for a profound shift in your being, both emotional and spiritual. The time has come for you to believe in the future self that you deep down know exists in the space laid out for you. The time has come to get it together. Have faith that the goals and aspirations that you FEEL are true and can manifest if you can LOVE yourself like you never have before. Drop the shitty habits. Drop the shitty friends. Drop the shitty things you tell yourself over and over without even realizing you’re doing it. You have love in the world. And that full moon in Cancer is here, to illuminate it for you in all its glory. Be you in all your glory.

That Gemini Full Moon When You Got Out of Your Head And Into Your Life

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You are the Sun to your life, the greatest life-giving star to everything that creates your own personal Universe

I’ve recently come to the realization that I tend to put myself last, meaning that what I want always gets put behind what I believe other people want of me. I have trained myself to say, “Well let me handle what that other person needs from me since my thing can wait.” What that kind of thinking has fostered is a lifetime of waiting for myself to show up, well, for myself. I’ve constantly shown up for others out of fear of them hating me or being angry at me or not liking me. It’s all the business that comes along with wanting to be loved and accepted. But now, I’ve burst through to a place where I can see that I need to be the center of my world, and everyone else and their needs can orbit around me. Now this isn’t to say that I haven’t been selfish in the past. I have made choices where I had to put myself first. But in hindsight, those choices were made from a place of survival and not self-love. I wasn’t ever really running toward anything but more so running away. And this placed all of my dreams in a pile, one I would be back later to clean up. Thankfully, later is now. Better now than never.

The Gemini Full Moon time creates the space for us all to bring our inner hopes, needs, and questions to the surface so that we can take action on them. We have the opportunity to face whatever internal dialogue of self-doubt versus self-worth it is that we contend with and move through it. We can elevate ourselves from a one-dimensional to a multi-dimensional view of ourselves. We should take this time to grab those dreams, those visionary ideas for our lives that we haven’t given enough validity to and push them into some form of existence. This may be a necessary shift in a relationship or family, or perhaps a conversation that needs to happen around career. Maybe there’s a project that needs to begin or a new field of study that needs attention paid to. Whatever it is that you know in your heart and mind is the thing that will help you connect to your loved self, take some action toward it now.

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You must take stock of your life and see where your own inner conversation has led you. How are you keeping yourself small? Who have you been waiting for to give you permission that you can be who you want to be? You must move into a state of self-being and self-worth where you can feel enabled to accomplish the goals that you believe you could achieve once upon a dream. You have that opportunity. You just need to take responsibility for your growth and accept the abundance that is available to you. Sure, it may look like a terrible road to cross full of challenge and upheaval. But no great race was ever rewarded for not leaving the starting gate.

The key right now is to NOT go it alone. It’s so easy to stay inside the bubble of yourself and toil through your troubles there. You don’t want to seem weak to others. You don’t want friends to think you’re crazy or unhappy. You don’t want anyone to know you feel alone. But making yourself vulnerable to others is the fastest way to understand that you are not alone. And this Gemini Full Moon time wants you to connect with someone other than the critical voice in your head. Jupiter in Libra and Mars in Aquarius are around too, urging you to reach out and give yourself over to others, insecurities and all. Make yourself available to others. Ask for their insight. Gather advice on an issue. Allow their encouragement to enter into your being, to remind you that you are the Sun to your life, the greatest life-giving star to everything that creates your own personal Universe. So you deserve to do all that you feel encouraged and called to do. Yes, this process will make you feel like you have some growing up to do. But you do. We all do, no matter our age or experience. That is called living. So get to it. I’m here for you.

That Aries Full Moon When You Really Grew Up

We have been motivated to leave behind old ways of being and to step into a more “grown-up” version of the person we want to be

I was talking to a friend last night, and we were discussing how both us and some of our friends are all feeling in a very similar place right now. It’s as if we’ve come through a larger cycle of transformation and change and we’re ready to “leave school for the real world.” In thinking about it, I realized that, collectively, we have done just that. For the last three years, Saturn has been moving through Scorpio. This three-year period has pushed us to face some of our weaknesses and our fears. It has asked us to move beyond our comfort zone and to try on new aspects of ourselves. We have been motivated to leave behind old ways of being and to step into a more “grown-up” version of the person we want to be. It has not been easy, and it may have left some of us in a place of “What the fuck do I do now?” But know that you’ve moved away from some relationships, work situations, home environments, etc, that just weren’t serving you. And as rough as it has been, it has also been rewarding. And you should feel much more in your power than the you who lived in your life three years ago.

Thankfully, the Aries Full Moon is here to help us culminate this process so that we can charge forth into the next horizon. It wants you to take your first major step into the newness of your current, more “grown-up” life. It’s time to take major advantage of the shift that your life has been creating for you. Take ownership of the positive changes you are instilling into your life. You know that leaving your job or committing to your new man was a challenge to undertake, but how strongly are you taking the reins in writing this next chapter? It’s time to seal the deal and just be the damn change already. Feel connected to your instincts and trust that inner voice to guide you properly. Whatever it is you’re trying to manifest, you have it in you to do so. You just have be the guide. No one else is gonna come along with a map and escort you to some gold. You are the map. Just be present enough to the flow of your life to follow it.

I don’t need to take months to accomplish something when I have today

I know this to be true. Three years ago, I was in a job that felt meaningless to me. I knew it had to change but I didn’t know what the change was going to look like. As soon as I took ownership of the change that needed to occur, life took over. It wasn’t always easy but it was rewarding. And now I step into this next phase with that same sense of belief and excitement. But I also know that I can’t sleep on it. I don’t need to take months to accomplish something when I have today. I was lucky enough to jump into the moving waters before so that I could flow into profound opportunities and glorious personal growth experiences. But now, I must stay present so to navigate the rocks and waves ahead. I must stay present to my journey or else it will overcome me and I will be left, washed up on shore, waiting for another wave to catch me. I must stay present because there is no alternative. And you know this.

And now some further words on each sign:

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That Aquarius Full Moon When You Gave Your Old Bullshit Away

This Aquarius full moon wants us to express ourselves from our deepest place.

First, let me apologize. Since I’ve been pretty busy as of late, I don’t have a full horoscope-like post for you this week. However, I did want to write to you all as it is the Aquarius full moon, and I didn’t want it to pass without connecting with everyone. So instead of diving into the depths for each sign, I will share some general words inspired for you all by this full moon.

Last night at a lovely dinner with friends, my boyfriend, The Aquarius, was talking to someone about this full moon. “I think it’s all about being your truest self. Moving through the fears that keep you from expressing your truest self.” And he is right. The Aquarius Full Moon wants us to release our unique, authentic selves out into the world. It doesn’t want us to get caught up in the bullshit of who we think we’re supposed to be, or the roles we play at work or at home. This full moon wants us to express ourselves from our deepest place. But in order to do that, we must know exactly how to get to that deepest place so we can access that true self.

Mining the depths of our selves is tough ass work. Even when we think we’re “going there”, closing our eyes and meditating or journaling to our hearts content, we may still be just going through the motions without actually plummeting into and facing the core of our personal, spiritual questions. We may become aware of our inner challenges without actually moving through and beyond them. Instead, we just let them move in and grow comfortable living in these challenges. And eventually, that becomes all we know, the challenge of trying to be our best self. So how do we bust through and make a real shift that can actually make all this personal work worthwhile?

Playing the ego game will only lead you back to feeling empty again

Well, if you are reading this, on some level, you are on a personal spirit quest. And you must be connected to your spirit quest at every moment. You can’t just do your spirit work and then move on to your rest of the day being caught up in the ego life game that everyone else is playing. Because at this point, you know better, and where others will find triumph in beating someone else out or feeling like number one, you will know better. And playing the ego game will only lead you back to feeling empty again.

Use this full moon time to get in touch with whatever fears and limitations have been holding you back from being the person you dream of becoming. Think on what is keeping you from letting go of lame ways of being that stifle your voice, withhold you from pursuing and/or believing heartily in your dreams, or cause you unnecessary sadness. Whatever these things are, these thoughts or old memories, they don’t own you. So don’t absorb yourself in them. But you must know them before you can release them. You must name them. Meet them. Have a juice with them. And then tell them, “You have no power over me. You have no power over me. You have no power over me.”

You have the power to know you and be you. Others may not like the most powerful you. They will be threatened. And it will be hard. It takes work. But you have it within you to take responsibility for your greatest self. You have it within you to live as your greatest self. And I totally want to meet him or her. You should want that too.

Happy Full Moon in Aquarius!

“Freedom is what you do with what has been done to you.” – Madonna

That Sagittarius Full Moon When Caitlyn Jenner Showed Us the Way

Living is giving the world your most authentic you, all the time, in the moment

As you all know by now, Caitlyn Jenner has been introduced to the world, and she is pretty damn gorgeous. Many are shouting praise for her bravery, while others scoff at her decision. Some may even go so far as to say cruel, nasty things about her and her transition. Yes, I am looking at you, Fox News. However, in the end, none of it really matters to her process. Yes, it’s amazing for her to feel the support. She deserves it. And really, Caitlyn is forging major change in the mainstream world with her courageous and very public transformation. Personally, I’m in awe of her. Yet, what matters most is that she is making time in her precious life to live in the entirety of her truth. Whether she does so in front of billions or was doing so in a small town, it doesn’t fully matter to her life journey. What matters is that she is finally allowing herself to exist in her complete authenticity. And that is what we should all aspire to do.

We all must live in our unique truth. But to do so, we must first explore, then understand, and ultimately accept the nature of our unique truth. Some of us are afraid to probe too deeply. We accept the realities of our lives as they are presented to us and ignore the voices inside, urging us to live differently, more freely. We become afraid of what our families, our friends, our peers, our churches, our businesses will think of us. We cower from the honesty in our hearts to appease the eyes of those around us. But that is not living. Living is giving the world your most authentic you, all the time, in the moment.

The confusions in your life are illusions

The Sagittarius Full Moon wants to inspire you to release your most authentic self onto the world. Now, you may be saying, “I am me. This is it.” But then in another breath, you go on about how you’re confused about your career, or your relationship, or how to best manage your health. And that is because you are fighting a silent war with your truth. The Sagittarius Full Moon wants to remind you that the confusions in your life are illusions. You just need to wave them away with some honest self-reflection. And a good old-fashioned chat with a trusted somebody never hurt either.

So, where are you in the process? Perhaps you need to explore a bit more into what exactly is your authentic truth. Get quiet with yourself. Ask some questions. “Do I love the direction of my life?” Do I love me in all that I do?” Maybe you have explored further and have that deeper knowledge. Now, how do you grow to understand it better so you can put it into action? How do you gain the complete acceptance so that you can just live it openly? Don’t beat yourself up for not having all the answers now. Mercury is in retrograde so now is a good time to keep exploring. But be in the question until you are fully able to live the answer. And, if like Caitlyn, you’re already there, then keep on being the ultimate example. We all need a light to follow.

Let’s look a little more deeply at each sign and how this full moon could affect you:

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That Scorpio Full Moon When You Learned to Really Live

Live from a place of complete honesty and integrity

So, these last few weeks have been a trip, in the best way. It started with a birthday that made me go, “Whoa middle-age-ish.” But that also hit me in the best way. I felt a fire lit beneath me and gained a sense of greater excitement for the life I’m living. I reconnected to old friends who I desperately need in my life. I followed paths by the compass of my true self, and not by the flashlight of fear. I tried, with my whole heart, to be my best self in ways that I haven’t in some time. I became more present to me. I credit a good amount of it to an amazing reader, Sabrina (http://www.sabrinapureofheart.com/sabrina), who helped to connect me to distant pieces of myself, looking for retrieval. Please go to her if you’re in need of the same. But I also credit myself, for learning to be open to the unknown and not being so scared anymore.

Why do I share all of this with you? Well because it’s the Full Moon in Scorpio. And this full moon is about putting your love to the test. And my love is in helping you, my dear readers, to get completely in touch with your highest self. To live from a place of complete honesty and integrity. To just be so damn proud of you when you look in the mirror because you’re finally not doing that same shit anymore that always leaves you feeling failure-ish and sad. I share my deepest shit so that you can feel more comfortable with yours.

So find a way to take all the changes and ideas and deepest, silent thoughts you’ve been stewing over and live them out in your life. Show people a newer version of you, sprung from your own ideas of who you want to be, and should be. Don’t fuck around anymore.

You have one life. So live it.

I’m gonna give you some words from my House Mother, Madonna. Because she and Oprah co-govern the land of living your shit out loud. And her new album, Rebel Heart, goes IN.

If you don’t have it, get it now. (https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/rebel-heart/id953710965)

“If you try and fail, get up again
Destiny will choose you in the end
If you don’t make the choice
And you don’t use your voice
Someone else will speak for you instead
What you want is just within your reach
But you gotta practice what you preach
You pay with sweat and tears
And overcome your fears
Never let the fire inside you leave.”

Now here is a brief, closer look at all the signs:

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The First Full Moon of 2015

The path toward our goals will continue to illuminate under the guide of that full moon light

Every start to a new year seems to begin the same way. There’s usually a diet or new exercise routine involved. Then there’s the pledge to approach work in a more confident, productive way. Ultimately, it’s always about letting go of old, lame habits and ushering in new, more life-affirming ones that will make you and me the greatest version of ourselves that we can be. But if you’re like me, you may usually have trouble holding up to the commitments you’ve put on yourself, thus placing a veil of failure on your new year. Or you just decide to forgo the whole thing entirely and swear off any sort of “resolution”, saying they’re pointless. Which is really just code for “I give up.” Well given the astrological blueprint laid out for this first full moon of 2015, you can actually avoid both of these pitfalls and truly see a powerful personal transformation this year. And I so want that for you.

With this full moon in Cancer, it’s at its most powerful. The moon is the governor of your internal life. She controls the tides of the oceans in the same way she controls the tides of your heart. Her power allows strong feelings to wash in and cover the shore of your life. You experience them as they bubble and froth at the surface. But then, they wash away and offer a moment of stillness and peace. With the moon at its fullest, this process is amplified. The waves of your emotions are greater. And their strength is greater, which offers the chance to wash more away. So anything that has been stuck on your shore, just baking in the light of day, can now be taken out to sea and pulled away from your life for good. Wouldn’t that be nice?

With this full moon, you have a chance to let go of the old tired mentalities that have left you clinging to the feelings of the past

So what inner bullshit do you need to get clear of so that you can experience a more serene, focused inner life this year? As we know, change begins within. And just wanting a new beginning is a new beginning. It all begins in the spirit and the mind. With this full moon, you have a chance to let go of the old tired mentalities that have left you clinging to the feelings of the past. They are what stop you from evolving. Because even when you get that new job or relationship, you still find yourself responding in the same, unhealthy ways when you get to feeling some kind of way. And then you’re hitting that wall of failure that keeps you from wanting to commit to new beginnings in the first place. So what if we just eliminate the middle men of doubt and insecurity?

It’s time to truly allow ourselves the chance to aspire to the heights of our dreams and believe with our whole heart that we can have them. This won’t come without conflict. The path won’t be void of roadblocks. But if we’re fully honoring our own uniqueness and giving the heart exactly what it wants, then we will see these challenges as opportunities for personal growth. And the path toward our goals will continue to illuminate under the guide of that full moon light. Just believe in yourself, more than you ever have. I know that it can be scary to fully commit to you and what you want in your life. But in the words of someone great, “Fuck fear.” You’re greater than fear. And you’re greater than you believe you are in this very moment. So step into the next moment knowing that and you’re off.

Here’s a brief look at how to approach for each sign:

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The Full Moon and Your Personal Legend

Paulo Coelho’s THE ALCHEMIST changed my life.

I remember reading it for the first time in the late 90’s, when a friend gifted me a copy. The magical story of a young shepherd on a journey to discover his “Personal Legend” shook me at the core. It just happened to coincide with my own personal spiritual awakening, so it truly felt as if the book had fallen from the sky and into my lap for a deep meaningful reason. Since then, I have read the book too many times to count. I’ve listened to the audio book as read by Jeremy Irons twice. I even still have my original copy, with all of the underlined quotes that spoke to me the moment I read them. I’m obsessed. But if you’ve read it, you know why.

One of the most famous quotes from THE ALCHEMIST is “And, when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.” In a recent interview with Oprah, Coelho said that this refers to both “the negative and the positive.” The energy and words that make up our thoughts are what pull things to us. Now this doesn’t just refer to the materialism of The Secret, a book people discovered and thought they could use to manifest a new Bentley. Because Coelho ties it to the purpose of uncovering your “Personal Legend”, or “your mission on Earth.” And “To realize one’s Personal Legend is a person’s only real obligation.” I mean, how fucking true is that?

The reason I do all of the work that I do, whether it be astrology readings, writing this blog, writing narrative screenplays, or making/producing films is to take steps toward realizing my own “Personal Legend”. I know that I am here to translate stories. Whether it be the fictional stories told to me by the characters in my mind, the fictional stories told to others that then need help getting produced and put out into the world, or the personal stories of those whose lives I get to touch when I sit with them for a reading. I know it is somehow my duty to assist in the process of birthing those important stories into the world. And I am grateful for it. I am grateful for such a fascinating mission. But it took me a long time to accept it. And everyday, I grow more into it, with courage and enthusiasm, because I know that the universe has indeed conspired to help me get to this point. I pay attention, with the intention that I can see where I am supposed to head and be clear about the specific achievements that I am supposed to actualize. So, that I can truly realize my “Personal Legend”.

What is your “Personal Legend”? Do you feel at all connected to the great story of your life? If so, how are you taking part in its unfolding? And if not, what can you be doing to steer yourself onto the path?

This Pisces Full Moon is here to help by supporting you in being your most authentic self.

The full moon is making powerful connections to the planets Saturn and Pluto, both of which are concerned with making great change, inside and out. They are trying to get you to remove a mask and bravely reveal more of who you choose to be, instead of just being who you’ve told yourself you should be. And Pisces is all concerned with getting in touch with that spirit self. So go within and ask yourself what’s missing. Acknowledge the wound in your life and find the courage to accept that it’s time for a deep healing. If you can do that, the universe will move mountains to make it so.

It’s time to take greater steps toward diminishing whatever roadblocks you have unconsciously built up for yourself. Perhaps you’ve created some negative story that has then aided in manifesting negativity into your life. Or you may just be avoiding the thing you know in your heart is your true calling out of fear of failing or, even worse, succeeding. Yes, some people fear success because they then have to be seen for who they really are in their hearts. And, when young, they may have been scolded for being who they really wanted to be, creating shame and doubt. I know it’s a lot. But don’t you want to achieve your dreams? Well then, keep stepping toward them by asking those great questions and probing yourself and the universe for answers. Trust yourself, and know that you are capable of finding your own “Personal Legend”. You just have to want it with your whole heart.

And please, if you haven’t, read THE ALCHEMIST. Even if you have, read it again. I swear, it’s some profound shit.

Now let’s dig a little deeper into each sign:

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The Present is Your Present

The Capricorn Full Moon is all about this business of future and past.

We all struggle to live in the present. We all want to because everything from books to spiritual quotes posted on Instagram tells us that the present is all we have. The past is just a page already turned in a book, and the future is an unknown reality that may never actually come to exist. So it really does make so much fucking sense when you think about it. The present is all we have right now. And, it unfurls at rapid speed. With every word I’m typing, the present is moving through me, becoming the future and past all at once. It’s profound and weird and amazing how it all works. Yet, with all of that known, it’s still challenging to push the past and the future completely out of the equation of one’s life. The past has made us who we are up to this present moment. And the future holds the potential for everything this present moment us can become. So don’t we own it to our present day selves to hold onto some sense of those pieces of ourselves? Or do we just need to stop reminiscing and dreaming long enough to look in the mirror and see ourselves for who we are right now, as that is all there is.

The Capricorn Full Moon is all about this business of future and past. It comes as we complete a year long cycle of having Jupiter, the planet of abundance and personal growth, in the sign of Cancer, which is all about our emotional selves and the past. This means that, for us all, this last year has given us an opportunity to simply love and accept ourselves more. We have had to make amends with those parts of our past that we blame for the problems of today. We have had to face complicated emotions that have withheld us from moving forward in our lives today. And we have had to connect to what it is that truly makes our hearts tick so that we can do a better job of living a life that truly reflects and honors that. Through it all, we have hopefully become stronger, wiser, and grown more in love with the person we see in that mirror each day. And if still challenged, we can perhaps be a little kinder with ourselves. Thankfully, this full moon is here to test us on what we’ve learned so that we can truly ground in to the new, improved versions of ourselves and move forward to accomplish some things.

There’s only the future to go.

Dear reader, it’s time for you to be present to what it is you want to achieve in this life and know that you can do it. You have spent enough time pondering about what could be without actually taking any of the necessary steps to make it so.

Now is the time to make it so.

Banish the fears and insecurities of your past. Yes, they have helped to create you but they don’t own you. They don’t define you. And they don’t exist anymore. They only exist as long as you choose to hold onto them. And this full moon urges you to let them go. This next phase is all about growing through creating something new. So keep with you the dreams of the past that help you to see the long-term vision of success and happiness you have for yourself and put the rest away in storage. Or better yet, write it all down and let it burn up in some flames as a symbol that it’s time to release the baggage back to the realm of space and time from which it came.

You can do it. I believe in you. You’ve come this far. There’s only the future to go. And get to it, because there it already went.

Let’s take a closer look at each sign and see how this full moon could be affecting you more. Again, read your rising sign too, if you know it. And if you don’t, email me at ariessoul30@gmail.com. I can try to help you find it.

Here you go:

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Truth Is The New Black

Get to a place where you can say “That’s the real me” and love it.

I just finished watching the second season of Orange is the New Black. It’s an amazing, brilliant television series, and these thirteen episodes gave me all of my life and some even for my next life. If you know it, then you know. If you don’t it’s a Netflix series about women in prison. It delves deeply into their emotional lives and offers fresh, real characters that are relatable and insane. In one scene, a character is assured by someone on the outside that they still remember the person she was before prison. That is how they will remember her and they know that the person she is in prison isn’t the real her. Without pause, she stares them back and disagrees. “That is the real me.” In that moment, she accepts her truth. But is she happy with it?

Cut to me these past few weeks (and forgive me for being absent from writing, but life has gotten hold!), and I am scheduled to death, dealing with an outbreak of shingles, and helping to nurse an ailing boyfriend and dog. Last night, I get home from work and suddenly have this pain in my left eye. What the fuck? I wake up and it’s still there. I look at the eye and it looks fine. Maybe it’s tension or sinus issues. But after some time and a more careful inspection, I see that I have a sty under my bottom eyelid. Again I say, what the fuck? So I try to take it easy. I get a massage. I do some warm compresses. But I know that there’s some business here for me to learn. My body is trying to wake me up. And has been – hello, shingles! So I go to my trusty Louise Hay book to look up the spiritual meaning behind an eye issue.

I am mostly angry because I know that everything I am angry about is bullshit

In “Heal Your Body”, Louise says that I “am looking at life through angry eyes.” What Louise? You don’t know me. I am not an angry person. Okay? What does she know? I then look at myself in the mirror, at my sty. And I nod. I am angry. I am angry that everything feels like a struggle. I am angry that I don’t have more money. I am angry that I don’t make enough time for my creativity. I am angry that everybody else seems to have something good going in their lives but me. And I am mostly angry because I know that everything I am angry about is bullshit. That I can’t compare. That I can’t complain. I can be angry. It’s valid. But I can’t see the world through angry eyes or else I’m just casting shade on it all. And thus I am not seeing life clearly. Now don’t get me wrong, I love to throw shade in the right company. But it ain’t a way to build a life. And it certainly can’t be my truth. However, right now, it is. So what to do about it? What does one do when they accept their truth but see that it needs changing?

Use this full moon energy to reconnect to that authentic essence of you

The Full Moon in Sagittarius is here to get us back in touch with our personal truth so that we can cast off anything that has been obstructing our view of the unique life we are meant to be living. Sure, there may be people in our lives who are causing us strife and slowing things down. Or they are just teaching us some valuable lessons that are forcing us to take on responsibilities and grow up in ways we hadn’t planned on. And these responsibilities may feel like they hinder us from doing the things we want to be doing for ourselves. But that doesn’t mean we have to forget who we truly are deep down. That day job doesn’t have to kill the dream you. And if the day job is in alignment with the dream you, then check if it’s somehow overwhelming the love or home or creative life you want but don’t seem to have time for anymore. Make the time. Use this full moon energy to reconnect to that authentic essence of you and remind yourself of the truth of you. Don’t let go. Don’t give up. Don’t see the world through angry eyes. Get to a place where you can say “That’s the real me” and love it.

Here’s a closer look at the signs and what it means for you:

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