Change or Get Off The Cross

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When you make that intense promise to live greater, your life steps up to meet you

In my last post about the full moon, I wrote that the planets were “moving in ways to make challenging angles to each other. Some are getting along. Some are pushing each other. For us, that means we are being pushed and prodded toward our higher calling.” That’s right, my loves. At this time, we are being strongly urged to grow toward our greater self. And that full moon eclipse was the gateway to it. I mean, did you notice how everyone seemed to be talking about it, even if not in an astrological or spiritual way? They were posting about it on Facebook or taking pictures for their Instagram feed. And it makes sense, because it looked really cool. But also, that full “blood” moon was a massive moment for us all on a deeper level. So subconsciously, we all felt a gravitational pull to her. The full moon eclipse was an opening, leading us down the passageway toward our life’s next great chapter. So now how do we fully step into it?

Recently, I attended this ridiculously amazing restorative yoga class. I’ve been before and it’s always a brilliant experience, but this time it really took me on a deep, meditative journey. Its culmination was a visualization exercise that pushed us to connect with each of the four elements. All the students were asked to picture ourselves as each element in whatever way came to us. At first, I was a huge tranquil sea. Then, I became a cozy fire pit on a cool summer night. I was then the scent of jasmine and lavender coasting on the roof of a spring breeze. And finally I morphed into the dirt that lay at the feet of a family of giant redwoods. I essentially became the earth, in all of its varied, elemental glory. This exercise was so soothing and left me feeling incredibly balanced. For I realized that if I was all four of these elements, I was also the space in the center of them. And it is only from that center space where any of us has the ability to tap into all of the elements of oneself in a clear, balanced way.

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The time for change is now

Between now and the end of April, four of the major planets are creating an elemental cross in the sky, and we are all finding ourselves in the midst of trying to balance between them. In astrology, it’s referred to as a Grand Cross, though some astrologers are punctuating it with feelings of Armageddon or Y2K. Now don’t get me wrong, it is intense. I mean, aren’t you feeling pretty damn intense these days? But you shouldn’t approach this time with fear. Rather, you should engage it with a sense of openness and a curiosity for how to become a better you. We all just need to learn how to still ourselves so that we can attain the lessons being presented to us. The time for change is now.

So what planets are at play here and how does it really affect you?

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Finding Balance Under a Full Blood Moon

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This Libra Full Moon is the doorway to a potentially new version of our lives

For me, the last couple of months have felt a bit all over the place. I have been trying my best to focus and feel accomplished, but there has just been so much to do that it has been hard to give attention to everything I want to do. I’m sure you can totally relate. There’s business work. There’s creative work. There’s spiritual work. There’s relationship time. There’s friendship time. There’s family time. There’s dog time. Not to mention that there’s always the all-important me time that needs to get in. There are bills to pay, dishes to do, posts to write, clients to read, stories to listen to, and there’s fitness to work on too. I can’t forget the necessary trips I’ve had to take, the Instagram pictures I’ve needed to upload, and the concerts I’ve put my dancing shoes on to attend. I’m reeeeeeeal busy. But aren’t we all these days?

With so many of the areas in our lives vying for attention, it can be truly hard to feel balanced within. We can feel stretched and pulled into different directions. And for the most part, we focus on the things we aren’t able to get to. So we end up beating ourselves up for the things we didn’t check off the list rather than celebrating all of the things we did. And that propels us into this panicked state, where we get to sleep pondering all the things we have to do tomorrow, only to hit the ground running the next day in some zombie-like state. Then we go into each day like a chicken with its head cut off, just trying to get things done, just trying to get ahead, without really taking the time to get present. Perhaps it’s because if we allowed ourselves to get present, we would have to get very real with ourselves about the state of our lives.

When we’re pushing and running and trying and doing, we aren’t really just being. And if we aren’t giving ourselves the time to just be, then we’re really just creating an unbalanced life. We must allow ourselves the chance to release the urgency we place on “getting it all done”, or else we aren’t actually receiving the gifts that life wants to offer us. How can we if we’re too busy rushing by them?

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If we can slow down, we will see the bullshit for what it is

Mark Nepo wrote, “When feeling urgent,you must slow down.” He continued with “The doorway to our next step of growth is always behind the urgency of now. Now more than ever, when all feels urgent, you must cut the strings to all events.” I think what Mr. Nepo was saying is that we have to slow down enough to see beneath the busyness of our lives. And that all the places we think we need to be are never really urgent when it comes to the greater purpose of our lives. In fact, if we can slow down, we will see the bullshit for what it is. We will see that the busy work we think we need to do is just busy work keeping us from the truer things we want to accomplish with our lives. And we will see that in a great pause, a mirror appears, allowing you to see the more authentic you that is urging to break free. These are the important messages for this current Libra Full Moon moment.

Astrologically, things are just as busy. There are planets moving in ways to make challenging angles to each other. Some are getting along. Some are pushing each other. For us, that means we are being pushed and prodded toward our higher calling – more to come on all that in a future post. But this Libra Full Moon (also called the Blood Moon due to its lunar eclipse) is the doorway to a potentially new version of our lives. Perhaps you have been saying you want to make some changes in your life. Well, now is the time to make them. Or life may just find a way to make them for you. But in order to best see how to make the proper changes, you must not push back. You must stand still, strong like a tree. You must survey your life as if from a mountaintop on a clear day, with great perspective and clarity.

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There is no more waiting

You must become comfortable with the present moment in your life. Whether it’s a job you hate, a man you no longer love, or a body you can no longer destroy, you have to pause and look in that mirror to say, “Okay. I see you.” Otherwise you may just set yourself up for a greater challenge to come. You may be forced to deal with things when now you have the power to take them on. There is no more waiting. There is only the opportunity to restore balance to your life in a healthy way, by taking control and having the responsibility to do so. You know where things are off so take the steps toward bringing yourself back into alignment. You deserve a life that feels your own.

Let’s take a closer look at the signs for more clarity:

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You Are Your Greatest Love of All

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What does it take to fully learn to love ourselves?

I can’t even imagine how many times my family had to listen to Greatest Love of All blasting from my room during the mid 80’s. It was usually accompanied by my own belted out vocals, though sometimes I would just give it a hearty lip-sync. Either way, it was quite an anthem for the 8 year old chubby, insecure, gay-in-training me. As we all know, Whitney had a way of singing a song as if it were truth in a religious sense. So there was something about her and that song and its slightly confusing but ultimately empowering lyrics that would take me away from my uncertainties and guilty feelings of being too different than everyone else. It would take me away from feeling alone. And as I’ve grown, I have realized that I actually wasn’t alone then. There were others of us out there, in our bedrooms behind closed doors, visioning ourselves onto a stage in front of millions, singing of our decision to never walk in anyone’s shadow. But when the door opened, it was back to hiding the truth and diminishing one’s sense of self-love. So what does it actually take to completely live that way? What does it take to fully learn to love ourselves?

This Valentine’s Day happens to also land on the Full Moon in Leo, which is quite a bang up combo. V Day is obviously all about expressing the love you have for those you care about most in life. However, the Leo Full Moon is actually more connected with loving all the things that are specifically “You” and releasing them onto the world. So yes, today is a time to do for others and show your love. But more importantly, you must use this full moon energy to show yourself the love that you deserve. Especially since we have Mercury in retrograde right now, which is an opportunity for us all to be reconsidering our personal uniqueness. So consider if you have allowed yourself to stifle your distinct truth, whether in your home or job or in your relationships.

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You can be you, without fear.

Are you living a life behind closed doors, or more so locked inside of your mind, when you should be on the stage of your life for the world to see? Know that now is an easy time to let the power of others cloud your own needs. So use this time to get clear about what matters most to you and let the important people know exactly who you are, even if it will surprise them. Connect to your most creative self and remember that you are co-authoring this life with the Universe. You can make decisions. You can be you, without fear. You can blast Greatest Love of All at the highest volume and sing with the windows down. If that’s your truth, then you better own it. Or else, you will just end up living some quiet, status quo life. And you wouldn’t be called to read this if that was the kind of life that was meant for you.

So find your strength in love and let’s go.

Here are some more specific ways to address this Leo Full Moon:

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Kill Your Inner “Blah Blah Blah”

This Gemini full moon wants you to trust that you already know the truth for your life

So I end up having a glass of wine and some avocado fries with my man and his lovely Gemini friend of many years. We toast to the Gemini full moon, and she asks, “What does it mean?” Now I have been mulling it over for the last few days and, until that point, I hadn’t been able to distill it down. But in that moment, I just uttered, “It’s time to let go of the chatter.” She paused, then nodded and sipped her wine. “There’s a lot of chatter.” And in analyzing the chart for this current full moon some more, as well as just being a person in the world right now, I must agree with that blurted out statement.

It’s time to let go of the chatter, everyone. Sure, shift is in the air. We are all in the midst of some major transformation, whether we’re having babies, changing jobs, moving homes, or adjusting our self-perceptions to align with who we want to be. And that kind of bold evolution will cause our minds to work overtime with ideas, worry, and questions. Thoughts get cluttered, and we easily confuse that deeply honest voice of truth with the lesser ego-centered voices that stem from fear, pain, and hurt. And it sucks, because they both kind of sound alike and it can get to the point where one can’t tell the difference. But let’s face it. If you just settle down long enough and ask yourself any question, the correct answer is usually the first thing that comes up.

Kill your inner blah blah blah and let the soul’s voice emerge

This Gemini full moon wants you to trust that you already know the truth for your life. So all of this questioning, second-guessing, and moments of confusion are really just procrastination masquerading as your thoughts. So kill your inner blah blah blah and let the soul’s voice emerge. Believe that it has your best interest in mind, and that it won’t allow you to step into something that will destroy your heart, endanger your body, or ridicule your existence. Know that your personal growth is already in motion. You just have to be still long enough to get caught up in the current. Because if you’re flailing about, and that’s probably what you’re mind is doing most of the time, then you’ll never be light enough to be swept away to your destiny.

Let’s look at each of the signs and get a better sense of how this could be personally affecting you:

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I’m Fucking Awesome, And So Are You

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This weekend’s full moon in Taurus urges you to connect your sense of self-worth to the life you allow yourself to live

For the first time in almost ten years, I don’t have a full-time job. I have work, which helps to define me. I have astrology. I am a writer. I am helping to produce a film. But at this moment in time, none of these things are currently adding much to my bank account on a consistent basis. Now it has been somewhat liberating. I have been allowed the opportunity to guide myself toward the things I want to focus on. But it has also been as scary as plummeting through a crack in the earth.

When I was leaving my last job back in May, a good Taurus friend who had just been through the process told me that it was going to bring up some things. Fear. Anxiety. And he said to just let them come on. They’re real emotions, and they shouldn’t be ignored. Thankfully, I did have the film project to look forward to, and that came along a few months later in more of a full-time way. But over the last couple of months, my participation in it leveled off some, and I found myself back in the space of “What the fuck”.

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We all have a responsibility to regard ourselves with dignity and delight

Though there has been more time to dive into my creativity and my astrology work, I have been a little beaten up by the ego in the mirror. He has been talking a lot about money and rent and the future. And in a moment of weakness, there was inner talk of needing to find “a real job”. But if I were to cave and go back into the wheel I just recently vacated, I wouldn’t be honoring my spiritual truth. Because I wouldn’t be honoring the gifts I’ve been given and that I should be using for my livelihood. It’s this push toward a greater faith in ourselves that the current astrological climate wants us to recognize and step into

This weekend’s full moon in Taurus urges you to connect your sense of self-worth to the life you allow yourself to live. If you are feeling stuck, then it may be because you don’t truly believe in your abilities. Recognize that your deepest feelings of self-confidence directly reflect your circumstances. That can be hard for some to ingest. “Why would I believe myself into unhappiness?” Well, because underneath it all, you haven’t truly told yourself that you deserve to be happy. And that kind of shit can wedge into your psyche deep, causing you to act out in seemingly childish, unconscious ways. Please know that you will continue to do so until you face the truth of your pain connected to feelings of failure and being less-than what you dreamed you would be. Once you go into all that, then you will truly begin to feel liberated from your ego’s hold.

We all have a responsibility to regard ourselves with dignity and delight. So there is no reason for any of us to waste our lives devoting time toward experiences that lack our passion. Sure, life will hand us ridiculously challenging experiences that are beyond our psyche’s control. But it’s how we then respond to them that defines us. And if we can respond with some sense of self-worth, then we are aiming higher.

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Attach your worth to what’s really in your heart

Now is the time to show ourselves that we deserve to do what we love. If we can offer ourselves that gift, then the Universe will recognize and offer a gift in return. It may not be a million dollars, but it could be! At the very least, it will be some sort of tangible reminder that when you attach your worth to what’s really in your heart, then your actual value in life will go up. That is because you finally deem yourself good enough to receive it.

Let’s take a closer look at the signs to see what area in your life this may be affecting. And remember to check out your rising sign too, if you know it.

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The Aries Full Moon That Wants To Rock Your World

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This Aries Full Moon wants you to reconnect to an area of your life where you crave creativity, inspiration, and action

Usually I start my posts out talking about me. However this time, I want to talk about you. I want to talk about how you are trying your best to get in touch with your highest self while at the same time trying to be fabulous in your everyday life. You want enlightenment but then want to go shopping after attaining it. You want to be in a job that you like but more so, one that utilizes your specific talents and passions. You don’t want to feel like you’re wasting your time, unless it’s your decision to do so on a TV binge, Instagram session, or Candy Crush marathon. You want to be open to surprise in your romantic life, but you also want a clearer understanding of the bigger picture – are you going to get married/stay married or not? Should you be a parent? That question burns even more so if you already have a child. And yes, you’re probably wondering what the hell you should do or be for Halloween. Well aren’t we all?

That is just my point. Aren’t we all? Yes, we’re all snowflakes, each one of us unique in our atomic chemistry. But at the same time, we also all strive, question, and contemplate life’s big questions. We all live inside of a world inside of our heads. We all fear. We all enjoy. We all get confused. And we all, at times, wish someone or something would just come along and say, “This is your path. Get on it and walk.” The funny thing is, this actually does happen for us all – probably daily. We receive answers to our questions in forms of things we watch or read, overheard conversations, or spurts of internal dialogue whose authenticity we then question. This collective universality of experience is extremely important to keep awareness of if one aims to be a loving, compassionate human being. And it is especially something to be aware of as we enter this Aries Full Moon.

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Reset your emotional clock and get on track with your precise plan

The current astrological climate is rather aggressive in its desire to push us all toward actualizing our greater selves. Yes, it may feel like the planets and stars are always eagerly urging us in the direction of higher self-realization. Well, that’s because the Universe has that as the ultimate goal for each of us. And for each, being one’s “greater self” looks different. But we all have a specific cosmic blueprint to follow. And when the full moon is in Aries, the first sign of the Zodiac, it’s a yearly opportunity to reset your emotional clock and get on track with your precise plan.

This Aries Full Moon wants you to reconnect to an area of your life where you crave creativity, inspiration, and action. Being that it’s illuminated by the Sun in Libra, it wants you to do this while recognizing that you are one with those around you. We may not all come from the same place emotionally, physically, or mentally, but our spirits are from one source. So in order to move forward, you must see that oneness. So, you may be dealing with a soul-crushing co-worker or boss, or your significant other may be disconnected and taking it out on you. You may just be frustrated with your own stalled progress around a project, job search, or emotional quandary. Whatever the case, you must hold compassion for everyone involved so that you can then be calm and clear enough to see the path light up before you. It may just be time to leave that work or relationship situation. Or you may have a light bulb moment around a question or process you’ve been stuck in. None of this can occur when you’re pointing the finger. And that includes pointing it at the mirror.

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Take your growth seriously or else just flounder

So how are you opening yourself up to a new start within? And where have you felt a stagnancy or apprehension to make change? Trust that this new emotional beginning of some sort won’t be easy. There is struggle in it, but it’s coming from a place of love. The Universe wants you to work hard for the gifts it has in store. It wants you to take your growth seriously or else just flounder. In a way, it’s like exam time in school. So are you going to come correct and take the test? Or you just gonna doodle in the margins? If getting in touch with that highest self really is as important to you as I think it is, then you’re going to put your head down, bite the end of that pen, and get to work.

Let’s get a closer look at the area of your life that could help unlock the door to this exciting, life-growing process:

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That Full Moon When You Dared to be Different

Embrace your uniqueness to a point that you feel uncomfortable

I was very excited and overwhelmed when I found out that we are having two Aquarius full moons this year.  It’s not usual to have two full moons in the same sign in one year.  But occasionally, the world turns in a way that allows us to catch one at the very beginning and one at the very ending of a sign.  Being that I have a number of Aquarius’s in my life, including my mother and the man who I share my life with, I am pretty familiar with their energy.  It’s quirky, out-of-the-box, inventive, and a bit unpredictable.  In total, this can all translate to being rather exciting or extremely tiring.  Thus, the next month or so will be a bit of both.  I know, we’re all pretty exhausted from Mercury’s little stint in retrograde.  However, this will be a good kind of exhaustion.  It’s the kind of exhaustion that will stem from personal productivity toward an important goal rather than just sheer mental worry and confusion, which is something I’m sure all of us could use a break from right now.  Especially when that worry is built from trying to please everyone around us.

It’s interesting how much stock we all can put into how others perceive us.  We will all make important decisions for our lives based off of what we think other people will think of our choices.  Now that is some tiring shit.  I mean you’re already worrying about what you want.  Then, add the concern of what you think other people will think about what you want, and you’re totally wiped out from the stress of worrying about you and everyone else.  Well, Aquarius doesn’t have time for worry.  It wants you to embrace your uniqueness to a point that you feel uncomfortable.  That way, the thought of how others perceive you will vanish from the equation.  Aquarius simply thrives on being completely different from everyone else.  So with these two full moons, the rest of this summer is all about the need to own that special something we each possess inside.

Give over to the wave of your own crazy sexy coolness

You have to be okay with showing people who you really are.  Some may be shocked by how verbally passionate you seem to suddenly be about an issue or project.  Or they may wonder why you’re now deciding to go back to school or take up a seemingly odd hobby.  But the great thing is that you have no reason to care about what they think.  You are the only one on the path of your internal compass.  You are the only one who has to stand accountable to yourself at the end of the day.  And you are the only one who is in charge of your personal happiness.  So stand in your power and give over to the wave of your own crazy sexy coolness.  If you can, it will wash away the bullshit layer you have allowed others to place on your mind, your heart, and your life.  And from there, you can start the process of coming clean.

So know that this is a two-parter.  Again, we have another Aquarius full moon next month, so you have a lot to release around one aspect of yourself.  So start gently and prepare to get real.  Let’s take a closer look at how all this could work for you:

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The Madonna In You, Under a Full Moon

Release your inner Madonna and go beyond the sky

During a not too long ago therapy session, I was asked if I had any sort of power symbol for myself.  Immediately, Madonna came to mind, but I felt like that was actually too silly or cliché to say out loud.  But saying “lion” or some sort of gemstone felt a little forced.  After pondering in silence for far too long, I apologetically mentioned to my therapist that all I could muster up was an image of the diva.  He asked me not to judge my choice.  “Madonna is a perfect power symbol for you”, he said.  “For anyone.”  We then got into a discussion about what she represented for me and why those qualities were ones that were of importance for me.  Confidence.  Perseverance.  Creative bravery.  These are all very valuable characteristics for anyone to aspire to and cherish in life.  And I, like a number of primarily women and gay men, happen to adore a woman who encompasses all of these features.

This weekend, Madonna premieres the film of her latest concert tour on TV, and some early clips have been released online.  In watching with a friend, I found myself completely mesmerized.  But unlike my friend, who threw some side-eye, I was able to overlook the shaky vocals that were coming from her mouth.  I mean, come on, she’s Madonna.  She’s been doing this shit for thirty years.  So for me, the sum of it all is flawless.  She can do no wrong.  And regardless of how good or bad she sounds, she is a 54 year-old woman who still finds new career mountains to climb and pushes herself beyond the limitations of what society and history has deemed appropriate for a woman of her age.  You see, for her, there is no ceiling on the room of her life.  Madonna goes directly through the invisible roof, though some may continue to criticize her for it.  Because Madonna sees that the end goal is always evolving.  For this, we should all have some sort of power symbol like her.  We should all be brave enough to see life through the lens of unlimited potential.  Thankfully, the Capricorn full moon is here to aid us in our own personal expansion.

Our goal must be to manifest the vision we have for our future

Capricorn is a grounded energy that is concerned with the future.  Capricorn wants us to create long-term goals and be responsible for seeing them through.  And most importantly, Capricorn is concerned with our life purpose or destiny.  Its energy wants us to push past our fears and limitations so that we achieve our most optimal expression of self.  We are not here to just dream about what we want until we die, leaving us in our last moments to wish we had achieved the great thing we knew was inside of us.  Our goal must be to manifest the vision we have for our future, thus actualizing our dreams into reality.  Sure, this all means we have to buckle down and do a hell of a lot of work.  But when you’re working on something that your soul’s passion is connected to, it doesn’t feel so much like work.  It feels like art.  It feels like magic.  It feels like fun.  And shouldn’t you be having some damn fun?

This full moon is about your need to exhibit some expression of your long-term goals.  All of us are currently thinking and feeling more passionately about something that reflects our greater ambitions, whether it is a creative project, our home, our children, or our career.  But it isn’t enough to just have that going on in your internal world where only you can experience it.  You must project it out in some way as an offering toward your future potential.  Whether it’s talking about it, sharing what you’ve already done, or committing to it in a way that takes it from the dream to what you’re actually doing with your life, you must concede to its power and take it on.  You may have been working on something great but have been apprehensive or slow to show it to others.  Now would be the time to invite others in and take responsibility for what you’re building – own the destiny you want to have and plant your stake in the ground.  Whatever the case, release your inner Madonna and go beyond the sky.  From there, you can release your bigger dreams out into the world in a way that the entire Universe can see and take part in a round of applause for you.  You deserve it.

For some additional clarity, let’s get into each of the signs more specifically.  And if you know your rising sign, read that as well:

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Speak the Truth or Get Off the Pot!

This Sagittarius full moon is all about releasing your enlightened truth out into the world

I am writing this from a Hacienda in Spain where my boyfriend and I are traveling for a wedding.  At the rehearsal dinner, one of the grooms and I were chatting about the full moon, which will be hitting directly just some hours after he and his partner exchange their vows.  “What does it mean?” he asked.  “It’s in Sagittarius”, I told him.  “Speak the truth.”  His eyes got very wide.  Later, as I sat on a poolside lounge chair staring up at the rising moon, his partner came over to ask how I was doing.  “I heard what you said about the full moon.  Speak the truth you said.”  I nodded.  “That’s all you can do with this one.”  He also widened his eyes with the weight of that proposition.  Before we could get too much farther into it, we were interrupted and the conversation shifted.  But I was left to think that these two want to take this task on.  I mean, it’s their wedding.  The whole point is to stand up before your family and friends and state the honest to God truth about your feelings for the one you love.  And before a gay wedding, there has already been so much “coming clean” that has lead up to the event that the party should be the easy part.  (Or at least as easy as any wedding can be.)  But being honest is scary.  And most times, being honest to others isn’t as hard as being honest to your self.

This Sagittarius full moon is all about releasing your enlightened truth out into the world.  Sometimes we speak and think that we are speaking from our truth, but we’re actually not.  Instead, what we’re really doing is just talking to get through a situation.  We are talking for the sake of it rather than connecting to our more divine self and allowing our words to be guided from that place.  See, this full moon wants our spirit’s to be involved which makes honesty even harder to do.  Because of the current Gemini energy at play, our brains are also operating at a higher level right now, which means we can sometimes talk ourselves into believing a truth that isn’t entirely the case.  So, right now, we must work harder at connecting to our deeper selves so that we can be sure that our hearts and souls are involved along with our minds in making decisions.  Because we can make good decisions right now that can lead to sustainable paths for our current goals.  Again, it comes down to truth.

Come out of hiding about the truth of who you are

What area in your life needs your utmost truth right now?  Perhaps you are covering up the truth with thoughts like “It’s all gonna be alright” or “I’m fine” or “I don’t really believe that, I’m just being silly or fucking around” when you really want to be curling up in a ball and saying “Lord God, help me.”  Or you’re just not dealing with it at all and letting booze, drugs, or a fake relationship squash the pain.  You could also be facing it but feel that you’re struggling with the challenge.  Again, I ask you to turn to truth.

Come out of hiding about the truth of who you are.  Don’t be afraid to feel what you feel and speak what you know in your core to be true.  Show others the thoughts that exist behind the closed door of your mind.  And most importantly, be willing to tell yourself that you accept you with complete and utter love.  If you need to be a freak, so be it.  If you are afraid your friends won’t get it, fuck them.  If you’re partner doesn’t know something about you, share it now.  Because like begets like.  So enlightenment begets enlightenment.  And if you illuminate yourself, then you illuminate your world.  The lights on the path go on, and you can see more clearly where you need to go to make your dreams a reality.  And you can’t deny the truth of a situation because it is lit up for the whole world to see.  Yes, sometimes the truth is scary and painful, but it’s the only way to your personal destiny.  And if you’re reading this, I know that your goal is to find that destiny.

Let’s get a more specific sense of where in your life this could be affecting you:

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Can You Please Just Trust Yourself Already?

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The Scorpio Full Moon teaches us that we have to let go of emotional control and trust that what we want is already in the process of being manifested

I’m sorry to be so late in the game with my Full Moon piece.  I have spent the last week in New York City at work on the movie that I am helping to produce.  I was also able to visit some old friends who I hadn’t seen in a while.  And most importantly, I was able to reconnect with a city that I left almost ten years ago to pursue a new life and some bigger dreams in Los Angeles.  On my last night in Brooklyn, I was able to stand on a rooftop overlooking Manhattan, and I was struck with the enormity of it.  And I was struck with the fact that I lived there.  A young man with barely any money and no job, I had moved there in my early twenties to follow the lifelong goal to live in New York City.  And I did it.  In that moment of remembrance, I was able to recognize the strength and determination that dwells within me.  But I sometimes lose sight of it and feel afraid or apprehensive.  This trip gave me the gift of hindsight and allowed me to see all of the man that I am.  There, on that building rooftop in Dumbo, I was able to see the fearless man that I can be, and I was able to let go of some of the timid man I had become.  A piece of me had come home, and just in time for the Scorpio Full Moon.

The Scorpio Full Moon teaches us that we have to let go of emotional control and trust that what we want is already in the process of being manifested.  We may have fears around some of the things going on in our lives.  A lot of us are being asked to step up and accept more responsibility for our selves and our life choices.  And this full moon is amplifying that, as our souls are continuing their push towards maturity and growth.  If we are able to trust our intuition and let our purest inner voice guide us, we then can really see the fruits of our greatest dreams start to emerge on the tree of life.  And I know we all want that.  But in order to truly get the dreams fulfilled, we have to believe wholeheartedly that they can.  We have to let go and trust.

Be one who originates positivity and change in your life

The ideas for all the changes you want to take root are still emerging, and those projects you want to bring into full light are still immersed in a lot more discussion that you would like.  But this is the test.  We all must be willing to do the mental and physical work toward manifesting a goal with the belief that everything we want will work out.  If we can’t allow that faith inside and instill it into the work we’re doing, we will instead work from a place of fear.  And that will only cause us to destroy everything we have worked toward up until this point.  So don’t be one of the destroyers.  Be one who originates positivity and change in your life.  Have faith in yourself and what you want.  That is the only way to succeed.

This Full Moon is also an eclipse, which in astrology means that the energy of it intensifies over the next couple of weeks as we head to the new moon in Taurus.  That one will also come with an eclipse.  As Susan Miller calls it, this is an “eclipse season”, as we will then have a third eclipse at the end of May.  All this is to say that everything we are trying to put into motion can happen, but it comes at a price.  And it’s an internal one.  We have to face everything with a strength and grace we may have never seen inside of us before.  Or, like me, had forgotten that we already have.

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So let go of your preconceived notions of you and invite a greater transformation into your life.  I know you can.  Here are some quick little capsules of knowledge to better help you do so:

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