That Libra New Moon When Your Truth Came Through

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“Just be you.” It’s such a spirituality buzz-phrase and concept, the idea of just being “you” in every situation. Some of us have no issue with it. I feel like I have folks in my life who bring the person I know them to be one on one to every situation. But that’s not always the case for myself. So much so that I’ve made it a mission this year to get fully in touch with my authenticity and live it everywhere at all times. But then I do find myself in some work-related environment and there I am again, modulating some aspect of myself, usually related to either my queerness or, funnily enough, my spirituality. I don’t respond to something in the way I would if I was just hanging out with my gays or with my fellow witchy spirit folks. I’m muted. I’m thinking one thing but presenting another, just so I don’t have to get into some deeper conversation or open myself to judgment. Trust, I know that’s my shit and what it’s about, but it’s a tired battle. Because really, at the end of it all, who gives a fuck?

The Libra New Moon is here to offer us a chance to begin again in this quest to be our fully unique selves with those around us. It asks us to ponder if we are able to reveal the most important pieces of ourselves, even just to the ten most important people in our lives. If we can’t do that, then just how “important” are they? Also, our closest relationships are a reflection of the relationship we have with ourselves. So if we don’t feel completely in truth or in balance with those we consider to be our besties, then how are we expected to be in balance within ourselves?

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So how are you doing in relationship with your uniqueness? Would you say there are pieces of you that stay hidden or only find their way out in certain situations? Of course, some would argue about boundaries and the need to protect your self in certain areas of life. And I don’t disagree. I don’t need everyone in my life knowing all of my business. But I also shouldn’t feel the need to protect someone else’s feelings as a compromise to my truth.

Libra can be a real people-pleaser energy. It’s about keeping the peace. But in its best form, Libra wants us all to win, including you. So take a look at how you sacrifice your inner self and needs for the sake of other’s happiness. And notice if you’re afraid in some area of your life to rock the boat by speaking some truth about your feelings or desires. Again, I feel you on this.

I’ve been in the closet before and it’s painful. And living in a world where some hate me without even knowing me, simply for who I love, is bullshit. But I can’t allow that to scare me from being all of me. The same goes for my spirituality. I’ve lived through so many years of not wanting to talk about being an astrologer or my connection to spirit out of not being taken seriously in other areas of my life. But fuck those people. I don’t need their acceptance to validate the truth of what I’ve lived and my experience.

Neither do you.

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Let’s take this chance together to not hide or hold back the things within us that make us one hundred percent who we are. The spirit of this is already in the air. It’s in the spirit of the current discussion around sexual harassment and violation. It’s in the spirit of political discussion and standing up for one’s beliefs. The time has come to shift the power dynamics toward our selves and away from others. The time has come to not be quiet about our truth.

Try this. Go back to the idea of the ten most important folks in your life right now. Ask yourself, how much of your authenticity do they know? How are you “in the closet” with them? And does it matter, is it important for you to come clean and shine your heart’s truth out to them? If so, then give it a whirl and push yourself to meet them at the greatest level of you. And if not, then maybe it’s time to shorten that list. It’s all good, because you’re just making room for others to join it who will meet you at the level of your authenticity. And that is what you need right now. It is time to live a life among those who can champion and support your authenticity. It is time to make yourself number one on your list. It is time to love you, all of you. Others will follow.

Happy New Moon in Libra!

That Aries New Moon That Lit the Flame

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That Aries new moon is in such effect, I just had to light the candles and get into some ritual with it. Aries is fire. The entire sky is either in a fire planet or being ruled by one right now. So we all must allow our lives to be a little bit on fire right now too.

Ignite the fire of passion within you for a greater inspiration in your life. The world may be crazy right now but you have the opportunity to find a quiet calm within the blowing winds around you. Whether your greatest challenges have been in love, career, communication, or personal well-being, you can light a new path for yourself. You just have to put your personal power into it – there is no time for sitting back and waiting for someone to come along and guide you.

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Your personal power is only challenged if you try to bring all of your past baggage along with you into this next chapter. Kick it all to the curb and move into tomorrow without being held back by past beliefs and ways of being. That shit is tired. And that’s why you’ve been tired. So stop carrying around the excess weight and dive into your dreams. Remember, you can only live your dreams when you stop relating to them as fantasy.

Love yourself enough now to know that you deserve to live your best, truest existence.

What are you waiting for?

That Cancer Full Moon When You Were in All Your Glory

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It’s time to feel. All of it.

The Cancer full moon is always my favorite. Full disclosure, my own moon is in Cancer so it always feels like I’m dialing in on some profound emotional experience or revelation on these days. Thank God I scheduled therapy for today. But I also love it because Cancer rules the moon, so it also marks her yearly moment to allow us all a collective emotional exhale. We may all be feeling a little emotionally constipated right now, stopped up from all the feelings we’ve had to confront and absorb over these last six months. Hell, these last two months have been enough of a roller coaster to last me a lifetime. But consider that whatever emotional process we initiated in July is now coming to a head and it wants to explode or release. Now it’s not entirely in the, “I need to scream at someone and have a breakdown” kind of way though it could be. I would just say that if we’ve been looking within and trying to cultivate some stronger relationship with ourselves around an area of our lives, now is the perfect time to move it all out of the head and into our hearts. It’s time to feel. All of it.

We should use this moment as an opportunity to love ourselves wholly. We must drop the bullshit mental games we play with ourselves and fall madly in love with the life we want to build. It’s not okay anymore to make excuses nor succumb to our own internal negative speak. Now this is all easier said than done. I know that I can meditate all day long and then come out of it to an immediate self-criticism. And that quick switch from “love and light” to “girl, your eyes look tired” is rough because then it makes the meditation feel like a failure. But it’s not. It’s just human. However, the goal is to minimize the feeling we take from the critical voice. Because THAT IS ALL IT IS. It’s not a real voice. It’s a voice conjured by past insecurities that we tell ourselves is the voice of reality. But the voice of reality is actually all around you. The voice of reality is simply the present moment.

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The time has come for you to believe in the future self that you deep down know exists in the space laid out for you

The goal is to navigate the pitfalls of the inner voices so that we come out of our days feeling gratitude and self-love. We cannot attach to the inner saboteur anymore. (By the way, if you don’t have this voice then you’ve succeeded at life and can just stop reading now.) When we do attach to that voice, we put a roadblock up in front of our abundance. We cannot see the opportunities coming our way. We cannot trust the voice of inspiration because we think it is the same voice of self-doubt. But these two do not come from the same place. Inspiration is fleeting while self-doubt will stick around. Inspiration comes in like a whisper from a dream while self-doubt nags like a roommate we can’t get rid of. Well, right now, inspiration, luck, abundance, and insight are available to us. We just have to feel with our whole mind, body, and soul that we deserve it to access it.

You deserve goodness. Can you truly believe that for yourself? I need you to feel that with your whole heart. Look in the mirror and tell that scared, loving being that is you, “I deserve goodness.” Do that for me. Do that for yourself. The time has come for a profound shift in your being, both emotional and spiritual. The time has come for you to believe in the future self that you deep down know exists in the space laid out for you. The time has come to get it together. Have faith that the goals and aspirations that you FEEL are true and can manifest if you can LOVE yourself like you never have before. Drop the shitty habits. Drop the shitty friends. Drop the shitty things you tell yourself over and over without even realizing you’re doing it. You have love in the world. And that full moon in Cancer is here, to illuminate it for you in all its glory. Be you in all your glory.

That Mercury Retrograde When You Decided Not to Be a Hot Mess

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A Mercury retrograde time can bring chaos into one’s life, but it’s ultimately here to show you a different path to action

Today marks the start of another Mercury Retrograde period (until January 8th). Go ahead. Cheer now! What this means is that for the few next weeks, your greatest hot mess of a friend (and I’ve totally been him before) will be blaming it for every tardy meeting, every missed text, and every unreturned phone call. Sure, that technologically challenged shit will go down, especially for my Scorpio friends, but we can’t let what Mercury in retrograde traditionally represents rule all of our communication misgivings. In fact, we must take this time to hold up, slow our rolls, and take stock of the bigger picture we currently have for our lives. We must get real about whether everything we are doing is helping to manifest our greatest future goals.

Mercury is going retrograde in the sign of Capricorn, which is very concerned with the big picture for our lives and all the hard work that goes into achieving it. We all know that nothing is handed to us. Even for the overnight success, years were spent toiling away in the workshop, at a desk, in the studio, or at school. So when Mercury, the planet engaged in all things communication, halts itself for the retrograde, room should be made for a re-evaluation of one’s goals and what is being done to manifest them.

We should first narrow in on the specific area in life that keeps you up at night: career, a relationship, a health goal, or one’s view on spirituality. Then, if you’re hitting a wall of any kind, stop trying to PUSH forward and reconsider the path. Are you actually doing everything you could be doing to move ahead/break through or just going through some motions? Do you need to let go of something (a person, place, thing, or mentality) in a more profound way so that you can truly activate your next personal phase? The great thing is, you can stop looking around and blaming “xyz” for your problems. With some inward evaluation, you will see what is potentially keeping your goals at bay.

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Without a doubt, these next six weeks can be extremely transformative for all of us. With Pluto, the planet in charge of deep soul shifts, touching on this current Mercury phase, know that you’ll have a more focused understanding of your current intentions and goals by the end of January. But you have to be in the process of figuring your shit out. You can’t just get caught up in the day to day. This doesn’t mean that you shouldn’t get a break in. In fact, you need one. I need one. I’ll be on a beach soon with a book in one hand and a cocktail in another. Yes, the start of this six-week process must include some legit down time. In numerology terms, we are at the end of a ‘9’ year, thus the ending of a major cycle. It’s a back to 1 moment. And with any conclusion to a great life period, we should get in a good ass nap. That’s part of the process too. But then, once revived, you must make time for a rethinking and reworking of those pieces in life that just aren’t taking shape.

It’s important to know that your problems aren’t all in your head and you aren’t the entire reason that you can’t see or think straight. The world is really fucked up right now. Cities are being ravaged without thought for humanity. Women’s rights are coming under fire in various U.S. states. LGBT individuals are continuing to feel like secondary humans to the rest of society. Governments are recalibrating to assert more power in the war for who has the biggest cock. And there is so much else with race and the environment and civil unrest and on and on. It’s disheartening and disillusioning and some of us are struggling to make sense of it – to find our footing.

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Take these next few weeks to better understand where in this world you want to make a difference

One only needs to look to these current times to see the lesson in this Mercury retrograde phase. Pause and reflect on the ways that you can be more of a citizen for the world you believe in. You must figure out how to take your personal unease and alchemize it into something of use. Perhaps you are already in that process. But don’t feel a complete loss if you’re feeling powerless. You’ve only just begun to understand your power and your community is just figuring out how to come together. So time will allow you to gather your resources and rally your ideas into fruition. Take these next few weeks to better understand where in the world you want to make a difference and how. A large part of that answer  will be found by getting a greater understanding of yourself.

A Mercury retrograde time can bring chaos into one’s life, but it’s ultimately here to show you a different path to action. Are you going to get swirled up into life’s drama or will you choose this time to react differently? Can you keep on playing the victim to external circumstances or take pause to consider healthy ways to be a worthy agent of change? Will you allow yourself a clear mind or one filled with to-do lists and regrets and worries? If that email won’t send or your phone won’t make outgoing calls, will you build yourself up into a frustrated mess or just put the damn thing down and try to enjoy a phone-free afternoon of relaxation and contemplation? Right now, I say go for the latter on all counts. Your life will ultimately be more in tune, you’ll feel more purposeful, and you won’t be someone else’s hot mess of a friend when the next retrograde rolls around in the Spring.

That Aries Full Moon When You Really Grew Up

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We have been motivated to leave behind old ways of being and to step into a more “grown-up” version of the person we want to be

I was talking to a friend last night, and we were discussing how both us and some of our friends are all feeling in a very similar place right now. It’s as if we’ve come through a larger cycle of transformation and change and we’re ready to “leave school for the real world.” In thinking about it, I realized that, collectively, we have done just that. For the last three years, Saturn has been moving through Scorpio. This three-year period has pushed us to face some of our weaknesses and our fears. It has asked us to move beyond our comfort zone and to try on new aspects of ourselves. We have been motivated to leave behind old ways of being and to step into a more “grown-up” version of the person we want to be. It has not been easy, and it may have left some of us in a place of “What the fuck do I do now?” But know that you’ve moved away from some relationships, work situations, home environments, etc, that just weren’t serving you. And as rough as it has been, it has also been rewarding. And you should feel much more in your power than the you who lived in your life three years ago.

Thankfully, the Aries Full Moon is here to help us culminate this process so that we can charge forth into the next horizon. It wants you to take your first major step into the newness of your current, more “grown-up” life. It’s time to take major advantage of the shift that your life has been creating for you. Take ownership of the positive changes you are instilling into your life. You know that leaving your job or committing to your new man was a challenge to undertake, but how strongly are you taking the reins in writing this next chapter? It’s time to seal the deal and just be the damn change already. Feel connected to your instincts and trust that inner voice to guide you properly. Whatever it is you’re trying to manifest, you have it in you to do so. You just have be the guide. No one else is gonna come along with a map and escort you to some gold. You are the map. Just be present enough to the flow of your life to follow it.

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I don’t need to take months to accomplish something when I have today

I know this to be true. Three years ago, I was in a job that felt meaningless to me. I knew it had to change but I didn’t know what the change was going to look like. As soon as I took ownership of the change that needed to occur, life took over. It wasn’t always easy but it was rewarding. And now I step into this next phase with that same sense of belief and excitement. But I also know that I can’t sleep on it. I don’t need to take months to accomplish something when I have today. I was lucky enough to jump into the moving waters before so that I could flow into profound opportunities and glorious personal growth experiences. But now, I must stay present so to navigate the rocks and waves ahead. I must stay present to my journey or else it will overcome me and I will be left, washed up on shore, waiting for another wave to catch me. I must stay present because there is no alternative. And you know this.

And now some further words on each sign:

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Hey New Moon, Balance This!

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When the Libra New Moon comes along and asks us all to attain some greater balance in our lives, I’m like, “Really bitch? How?”

I write this to you at 11:11 pm, after a remarkably long day. Hell, it has been a remarkably long week. But it has been full of very rewarding activities. I’m helping to wrap up delivery on a feature film that will be released in less than a month. I am working on producing a short film that is shooting in less than three weeks. I am starting to get into early prep mode on a short that I wrote and plan to direct in December. I am working on blog posts. I am reading charts for astrology clients. I am trying to get my health insurance changed. I am working out every day and meditating every morning. I am taking care of my dog and spending quality time with my man. I am seeing friends and making time to check in with my family. Now I am sure some version of this sounds familiar to you, as you could also probably fill up a paragraph with all the things that you’re juggling in your life. So when the Libra New Moon comes along and asks us all to attain some greater balance in our lives, I’m like, “Really bitch? How?”

Well, the Libra New Moon wants you to keep moving forward on all the important things you’re trying to execute with your life, but in a way that doesn’t overwhelm you. With so much movement right now, it’s important to take the time to prioritize and bring some structure to the way you’re handling all of your tasks and responsibilities. Libra is also about working with a partner. So don’t feel like you have to take on everything alone. You have others to help you lighten the load. You just have to get out of your own head and way long enough to turn and ask for help.

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Take stock of everything you got going on and see if it’s all a necessity right now

At this time, there is also a shift trying to happen, to urge you more into your authenticity. But it’s forcing you to let go of certain elements of you that you thought were in it for the long haul. Be willing to say goodbye to those pieces of your psyche that were really just poor, stubborn habits. If you can do so, you will find yourself open up to more creativity, not just in what you do but also in how you approach continuing to build the person you want to be.

All of this is in the name of bringing more balance into your life. So take stock of everything you got going on and see if it’s all a necessity right now. If it is, then maybe you need to schedule yourself better so that you can fit it all in, but in a way that doesn’t make you hallucinate from sleep deprivation. Perhaps you just need to start putting everything into a calendar. Or again, maybe someone else can help you juggle it better. Just re-evaluate and see. Note that Mercury will be going retrograde on October 4th, so try to get some of this shift into motion before then. If not, you may just fall apart a bit. And that won’t be cute.

Here’s a brief closer look at where you can focus to unlock the door to greater balance:

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The Full Moon and Your Personal Legend

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Paulo Coelho’s THE ALCHEMIST changed my life.

I remember reading it for the first time in the late 90’s, when a friend gifted me a copy. The magical story of a young shepherd on a journey to discover his “Personal Legend” shook me at the core. It just happened to coincide with my own personal spiritual awakening, so it truly felt as if the book had fallen from the sky and into my lap for a deep meaningful reason. Since then, I have read the book too many times to count. I’ve listened to the audio book as read by Jeremy Irons twice. I even still have my original copy, with all of the underlined quotes that spoke to me the moment I read them. I’m obsessed. But if you’ve read it, you know why.

One of the most famous quotes from THE ALCHEMIST is “And, when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.” In a recent interview with Oprah, Coelho said that this refers to both “the negative and the positive.” The energy and words that make up our thoughts are what pull things to us. Now this doesn’t just refer to the materialism of The Secret, a book people discovered and thought they could use to manifest a new Bentley. Because Coelho ties it to the purpose of uncovering your “Personal Legend”, or “your mission on Earth.” And “To realize one’s Personal Legend is a person’s only real obligation.” I mean, how fucking true is that?

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The reason I do all of the work that I do, whether it be astrology readings, writing this blog, writing narrative screenplays, or making/producing films is to take steps toward realizing my own “Personal Legend”. I know that I am here to translate stories. Whether it be the fictional stories told to me by the characters in my mind, the fictional stories told to others that then need help getting produced and put out into the world, or the personal stories of those whose lives I get to touch when I sit with them for a reading. I know it is somehow my duty to assist in the process of birthing those important stories into the world. And I am grateful for it. I am grateful for such a fascinating mission. But it took me a long time to accept it. And everyday, I grow more into it, with courage and enthusiasm, because I know that the universe has indeed conspired to help me get to this point. I pay attention, with the intention that I can see where I am supposed to head and be clear about the specific achievements that I am supposed to actualize. So, that I can truly realize my “Personal Legend”.

What is your “Personal Legend”? Do you feel at all connected to the great story of your life? If so, how are you taking part in its unfolding? And if not, what can you be doing to steer yourself onto the path?

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This Pisces Full Moon is here to help by supporting you in being your most authentic self.

The full moon is making powerful connections to the planets Saturn and Pluto, both of which are concerned with making great change, inside and out. They are trying to get you to remove a mask and bravely reveal more of who you choose to be, instead of just being who you’ve told yourself you should be. And Pisces is all concerned with getting in touch with that spirit self. So go within and ask yourself what’s missing. Acknowledge the wound in your life and find the courage to accept that it’s time for a deep healing. If you can do that, the universe will move mountains to make it so.

It’s time to take greater steps toward diminishing whatever roadblocks you have unconsciously built up for yourself. Perhaps you’ve created some negative story that has then aided in manifesting negativity into your life. Or you may just be avoiding the thing you know in your heart is your true calling out of fear of failing or, even worse, succeeding. Yes, some people fear success because they then have to be seen for who they really are in their hearts. And, when young, they may have been scolded for being who they really wanted to be, creating shame and doubt. I know it’s a lot. But don’t you want to achieve your dreams? Well then, keep stepping toward them by asking those great questions and probing yourself and the universe for answers. Trust yourself, and know that you are capable of finding your own “Personal Legend”. You just have to want it with your whole heart.

And please, if you haven’t, read THE ALCHEMIST. Even if you have, read it again. I swear, it’s some profound shit.

Now let’s dig a little deeper into each sign:

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