That Cancer New Moon When Pluto Was All the Rage

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The Cancer New Moon lands in the midst of all this Pluto business, asking us to begin again from a place of emotional stability and grounded sense of self

Did we all see that Pluto is back? Yes, after being demoted from planet to “dwarf planet” status, Pluto is in the news again thanks to the astonishing photos that have come back from NASA’s New Horizons probe. It has reinvigorated the discussion amongst astronomers and scientists around Pluto and its planetary classification. For me, Pluto never went away. In fact, as an astrologer, one of the first planetary placements I look at in a chart is Pluto. Pluto offers insight into what one’s greatest soul transformation will entail for this lifetime. That’s some heavy shit. We should all know in what area of our lives we are meant to change in the deepest way. It also gives us a sense of the role change will play for us in general. Are you good or bad at change? Will change affect you most in work, relationships, or home? How we relate to change allows us to see how we relate to the ebb and flow of life.

It’s no surprise to me that Pluto is taking center stage, since astrologically speaking, it is incredibly active right now. Pluto, which is currently transiting Capricorn, is directly opposing Mercury and Mars in Cancer. That means we are trying to take steps to actualize ideas that we’ve had brewing in our heads, but it’s a slower, more emotionally connected process. We aren’t just diving in. And that is partly because Cancer slows us down a bit. It wants us to make sure our heart is in every decision. The other part is that Pluto is challenging us to look at life’s bigger picture. Is everything we’re trying to make happen serving our soul’s purpose or are we just trying to appease some ego bullshit? Uranus is also activated in all of this, urging us to approach everything from our own unique perspective. We can’t just go along with whatever everyone else thinks is best, or even approach things from what has been our typical status quo style. Instead, we must make sure to assert our own soulful leanings in all of our actions and be certain that we are steering our own life’s ship.

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Define your personal integrity and make sure that everything you do moving forward supports that definition

The Cancer New Moon lands in the midst of all this Pluto business, asking us to begin again from a place of emotional stability and grounded sense of self. Take a deep breath and ask yourself what really matters to you. Define your personal integrity and make sure that everything you do moving forward supports that definition. How have you been asleep in your life? What areas have you been ignoring because you just don’t want to put in the work to change them? Well, with Pluto here, you either need to use this new moon energy to create new habits and start a new cycle sans whatever you know is supposed to be dumped by the wayside right now, or be forced to make the change later. And the forced way is usually never the fun way. So what do you need to be doing to take better care of yourself, and to be making sure that everything you’re trying to make happen right now truly matters to you?

Let’s take a brief look at each of the signs for greater clarity:

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That Scorpio Full Moon When You Learned to Really Live

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Live from a place of complete honesty and integrity

So, these last few weeks have been a trip, in the best way. It started with a birthday that made me go, “Whoa middle-age-ish.” But that also hit me in the best way. I felt a fire lit beneath me and gained a sense of greater excitement for the life I’m living. I reconnected to old friends who I desperately need in my life. I followed paths by the compass of my true self, and not by the flashlight of fear. I tried, with my whole heart, to be my best self in ways that I haven’t in some time. I became more present to me. I credit a good amount of it to an amazing reader, Sabrina (http://www.sabrinapureofheart.com/sabrina), who helped to connect me to distant pieces of myself, looking for retrieval. Please go to her if you’re in need of the same. But I also credit myself, for learning to be open to the unknown and not being so scared anymore.

Why do I share all of this with you? Well because it’s the Full Moon in Scorpio. And this full moon is about putting your love to the test. And my love is in helping you, my dear readers, to get completely in touch with your highest self. To live from a place of complete honesty and integrity. To just be so damn proud of you when you look in the mirror because you’re finally not doing that same shit anymore that always leaves you feeling failure-ish and sad. I share my deepest shit so that you can feel more comfortable with yours.

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So find a way to take all the changes and ideas and deepest, silent thoughts you’ve been stewing over and live them out in your life. Show people a newer version of you, sprung from your own ideas of who you want to be, and should be. Don’t fuck around anymore.

You have one life. So live it.

I’m gonna give you some words from my House Mother, Madonna. Because she and Oprah co-govern the land of living your shit out loud. And her new album, Rebel Heart, goes IN.

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If you don’t have it, get it now. (https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/rebel-heart/id953710965)

“If you try and fail, get up again
Destiny will choose you in the end
If you don’t make the choice
And you don’t use your voice
Someone else will speak for you instead
What you want is just within your reach
But you gotta practice what you preach
You pay with sweat and tears
And overcome your fears
Never let the fire inside you leave.”

Now here is a brief, closer look at all the signs:

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The First Full Moon of 2015

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The path toward our goals will continue to illuminate under the guide of that full moon light

Every start to a new year seems to begin the same way. There’s usually a diet or new exercise routine involved. Then there’s the pledge to approach work in a more confident, productive way. Ultimately, it’s always about letting go of old, lame habits and ushering in new, more life-affirming ones that will make you and me the greatest version of ourselves that we can be. But if you’re like me, you may usually have trouble holding up to the commitments you’ve put on yourself, thus placing a veil of failure on your new year. Or you just decide to forgo the whole thing entirely and swear off any sort of “resolution”, saying they’re pointless. Which is really just code for “I give up.” Well given the astrological blueprint laid out for this first full moon of 2015, you can actually avoid both of these pitfalls and truly see a powerful personal transformation this year. And I so want that for you.

With this full moon in Cancer, it’s at its most powerful. The moon is the governor of your internal life. She controls the tides of the oceans in the same way she controls the tides of your heart. Her power allows strong feelings to wash in and cover the shore of your life. You experience them as they bubble and froth at the surface. But then, they wash away and offer a moment of stillness and peace. With the moon at its fullest, this process is amplified. The waves of your emotions are greater. And their strength is greater, which offers the chance to wash more away. So anything that has been stuck on your shore, just baking in the light of day, can now be taken out to sea and pulled away from your life for good. Wouldn’t that be nice?

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With this full moon, you have a chance to let go of the old tired mentalities that have left you clinging to the feelings of the past

So what inner bullshit do you need to get clear of so that you can experience a more serene, focused inner life this year? As we know, change begins within. And just wanting a new beginning is a new beginning. It all begins in the spirit and the mind. With this full moon, you have a chance to let go of the old tired mentalities that have left you clinging to the feelings of the past. They are what stop you from evolving. Because even when you get that new job or relationship, you still find yourself responding in the same, unhealthy ways when you get to feeling some kind of way. And then you’re hitting that wall of failure that keeps you from wanting to commit to new beginnings in the first place. So what if we just eliminate the middle men of doubt and insecurity?

It’s time to truly allow ourselves the chance to aspire to the heights of our dreams and believe with our whole heart that we can have them. This won’t come without conflict. The path won’t be void of roadblocks. But if we’re fully honoring our own uniqueness and giving the heart exactly what it wants, then we will see these challenges as opportunities for personal growth. And the path toward our goals will continue to illuminate under the guide of that full moon light. Just believe in yourself, more than you ever have. I know that it can be scary to fully commit to you and what you want in your life. But in the words of someone great, “Fuck fear.” You’re greater than fear. And you’re greater than you believe you are in this very moment. So step into the next moment knowing that and you’re off.

Here’s a brief look at how to approach for each sign:

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That Taurus New Moon When You Pull It Together

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Manifest the true transformation at hand

If you’ve been paying attention to my blog, or just the world of astrology in general, you’ve seen that the month of April was quite, as us professionals call it, a shit show. We had the lunar eclipse in Libra that started to make us all feel a bit crazy. But it was even more so the huge square, or cross, that four planets were creating in the sky with their placements. Uranus, Pluto, Jupiter, and Mars have all been connecting in a way that has been pushing us to get more in tune with our authenticity so that we can manifest the true transformation at hand. You know, no big deal. Just some total soul reclamation type shit!

For me, life has been a whirlwind during these last few weeks. I haven’t been able to keep up with everything that needs to get done. It’s as if the planets have me running a giant life obstacle course right now. However, in the past when feeling overwhelmed, I would allow my frustration to get the best of me and thus sabotage some of my work or personal life. The problem was that I was always focused more on the mistakes of the past or what I was hoping to see happen in the future. That’s how I would relate to my present so everything would be filtered through that, causing chaos. Lately, I’ve been able to shift my perspective so that I can accept my present moment for what it is. With this personal alteration, I am better equipped to run the obstacle course. I don’t trip and fall (as much).

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The New Moon in Taurus is here to solidify and ground us into the next chapter of our lives

Have you also been feeling the intensity of these last few weeks? Finding that you’re more upset than usual? Or just stressed, usually because of other people’s mistakes or slow response time to your needs? Well, hopefully like me, you have approached it with a new sense of self. You have seen a bolder, braver, and more patient you step forward to address the issues at hand. Or at least, you have had the thoughts percolate inside that would invite such a change. Well, don’t worry if you haven’t stepped up just yet. Just because April is ending doesn’t mean you don’t still have time to tap into the great energy of change that has been sweeping through. In fact, this week is the perfect time to get into the groove of a new you and make it real.

The New Moon in Taurus is here to solidify and ground us into the next chapter of our lives and being. Taurus is all about tangibility, so it’s time to show your life how you can assert the new you in a more practical way. The new habits should be settling in and taking effect. And it’s also an eclipse, which amplifies its energy in a big way! So if there are new jobs, relationships, or additions to your home, now is the time to really dig into them with gusto and own your need for them in your life. Anything that is unnecessary to this new growth cycle for you should be minimized or completely gone. What should be left are the seeds for a greater, more brilliant chapter of your life. So get to planting, watering, or harvesting what you’ve grown. The proof is in the putting, so put yourself to the test.

Let’s dig a little deeper into each sign:

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Change or Get Off The Cross

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When you make that intense promise to live greater, your life steps up to meet you

In my last post about the full moon, I wrote that the planets were “moving in ways to make challenging angles to each other. Some are getting along. Some are pushing each other. For us, that means we are being pushed and prodded toward our higher calling.” That’s right, my loves. At this time, we are being strongly urged to grow toward our greater self. And that full moon eclipse was the gateway to it. I mean, did you notice how everyone seemed to be talking about it, even if not in an astrological or spiritual way? They were posting about it on Facebook or taking pictures for their Instagram feed. And it makes sense, because it looked really cool. But also, that full “blood” moon was a massive moment for us all on a deeper level. So subconsciously, we all felt a gravitational pull to her. The full moon eclipse was an opening, leading us down the passageway toward our life’s next great chapter. So now how do we fully step into it?

Recently, I attended this ridiculously amazing restorative yoga class. I’ve been before and it’s always a brilliant experience, but this time it really took me on a deep, meditative journey. Its culmination was a visualization exercise that pushed us to connect with each of the four elements. All the students were asked to picture ourselves as each element in whatever way came to us. At first, I was a huge tranquil sea. Then, I became a cozy fire pit on a cool summer night. I was then the scent of jasmine and lavender coasting on the roof of a spring breeze. And finally I morphed into the dirt that lay at the feet of a family of giant redwoods. I essentially became the earth, in all of its varied, elemental glory. This exercise was so soothing and left me feeling incredibly balanced. For I realized that if I was all four of these elements, I was also the space in the center of them. And it is only from that center space where any of us has the ability to tap into all of the elements of oneself in a clear, balanced way.

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The time for change is now

Between now and the end of April, four of the major planets are creating an elemental cross in the sky, and we are all finding ourselves in the midst of trying to balance between them. In astrology, it’s referred to as a Grand Cross, though some astrologers are punctuating it with feelings of Armageddon or Y2K. Now don’t get me wrong, it is intense. I mean, aren’t you feeling pretty damn intense these days? But you shouldn’t approach this time with fear. Rather, you should engage it with a sense of openness and a curiosity for how to become a better you. We all just need to learn how to still ourselves so that we can attain the lessons being presented to us. The time for change is now.

So what planets are at play here and how does it really affect you?

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Finding Balance Under a Full Blood Moon

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This Libra Full Moon is the doorway to a potentially new version of our lives

For me, the last couple of months have felt a bit all over the place. I have been trying my best to focus and feel accomplished, but there has just been so much to do that it has been hard to give attention to everything I want to do. I’m sure you can totally relate. There’s business work. There’s creative work. There’s spiritual work. There’s relationship time. There’s friendship time. There’s family time. There’s dog time. Not to mention that there’s always the all-important me time that needs to get in. There are bills to pay, dishes to do, posts to write, clients to read, stories to listen to, and there’s fitness to work on too. I can’t forget the necessary trips I’ve had to take, the Instagram pictures I’ve needed to upload, and the concerts I’ve put my dancing shoes on to attend. I’m reeeeeeeal busy. But aren’t we all these days?

With so many of the areas in our lives vying for attention, it can be truly hard to feel balanced within. We can feel stretched and pulled into different directions. And for the most part, we focus on the things we aren’t able to get to. So we end up beating ourselves up for the things we didn’t check off the list rather than celebrating all of the things we did. And that propels us into this panicked state, where we get to sleep pondering all the things we have to do tomorrow, only to hit the ground running the next day in some zombie-like state. Then we go into each day like a chicken with its head cut off, just trying to get things done, just trying to get ahead, without really taking the time to get present. Perhaps it’s because if we allowed ourselves to get present, we would have to get very real with ourselves about the state of our lives.

When we’re pushing and running and trying and doing, we aren’t really just being. And if we aren’t giving ourselves the time to just be, then we’re really just creating an unbalanced life. We must allow ourselves the chance to release the urgency we place on “getting it all done”, or else we aren’t actually receiving the gifts that life wants to offer us. How can we if we’re too busy rushing by them?

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If we can slow down, we will see the bullshit for what it is

Mark Nepo wrote, “When feeling urgent,you must slow down.” He continued with “The doorway to our next step of growth is always behind the urgency of now. Now more than ever, when all feels urgent, you must cut the strings to all events.” I think what Mr. Nepo was saying is that we have to slow down enough to see beneath the busyness of our lives. And that all the places we think we need to be are never really urgent when it comes to the greater purpose of our lives. In fact, if we can slow down, we will see the bullshit for what it is. We will see that the busy work we think we need to do is just busy work keeping us from the truer things we want to accomplish with our lives. And we will see that in a great pause, a mirror appears, allowing you to see the more authentic you that is urging to break free. These are the important messages for this current Libra Full Moon moment.

Astrologically, things are just as busy. There are planets moving in ways to make challenging angles to each other. Some are getting along. Some are pushing each other. For us, that means we are being pushed and prodded toward our higher calling – more to come on all that in a future post. But this Libra Full Moon (also called the Blood Moon due to its lunar eclipse) is the doorway to a potentially new version of our lives. Perhaps you have been saying you want to make some changes in your life. Well, now is the time to make them. Or life may just find a way to make them for you. But in order to best see how to make the proper changes, you must not push back. You must stand still, strong like a tree. You must survey your life as if from a mountaintop on a clear day, with great perspective and clarity.

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There is no more waiting

You must become comfortable with the present moment in your life. Whether it’s a job you hate, a man you no longer love, or a body you can no longer destroy, you have to pause and look in that mirror to say, “Okay. I see you.” Otherwise you may just set yourself up for a greater challenge to come. You may be forced to deal with things when now you have the power to take them on. There is no more waiting. There is only the opportunity to restore balance to your life in a healthy way, by taking control and having the responsibility to do so. You know where things are off so take the steps toward bringing yourself back into alignment. You deserve a life that feels your own.

Let’s take a closer look at the signs for more clarity:

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The Dream For Your Life

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Let this Aries new moon be the new beginning to end all new beginnings

I have a dream for my life. I have a dream to be original. To live a life that is full of something magical. My dream is to live for greatness and to go places that are far beyond where I believed I was ever capable of getting to. I have a dream to be successful and to do so with the swagger of Tom Ford. I have a dream to help others make their dreams come true, because one’s success that I participate in is also my success. I have a dream to be expansive with my life, wide like the sea and sky. I dream to do so with a love by my side, one that shares smiles and a home with me. And to invite others that I love and admire into that home for both work and play.

You see, I have a dream for my life. And it is time now to focus all of my intention, wisdom, and hope on actualizing it.

This is my life. I must own it.

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I didn’t go into this birthday with the usual “put all your troubles down and let loose for a day” mentality

Yesterday was my birthday. And I approached it with a readiness to turn another year older. This past year has been one of the most challenging I have ever experienced. I have faced emotional, mental, spiritual, and physical challenges – yes every damn color of the challenge rainbow – and have done so with a scared but brave willingness to face them and go in. I like to live beneath the surface like that.

I know that without confrontation there can be no reward. Whether you are confronting your demons, your fears, or your dreams, you can’t engage with your life unless you’re staring it boldly in the face and asking, “What?” So I didn’t go into this birthday with the usual “put all your troubles down and let loose for a day” mentality. Instead, I went into it with that same thirst for personal knowledge. I put my spiritual warrior’s hat on and allowed myself to see my life for what it truly is, and I urged myself to ask myself if this life was in alignment with that dream that I have for it.

I am happy to report that I am on the right path. But as I said, now I must focus. Because a new beginning, like a birthday, can simply just become a talking point for a dinner conversation if not actually taken seriously and utilized. And I don’t have time for the kinda bullshit when I got a dream to live.

And neither do you.

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Consider this new moon time as an opportunity to deeply recommit to that dream and begin a new, greater relationship with it

The Aries new moon is here. This is the annual beginning of a new emotional cycle for us all. Like a birthday, this new beginning can allow us to take stock of where we are internally and make sure that we are giving ourselves the love and support we need to manifest the dream for our lives. We all have a dream. And it can’t be driven by fame or money or a lack of love. But rather, it should be born from the core of our truest selves. And it must be nurtured. Like a garden or popular Instagram account, it must be paid attention to on a daily basis. So consider this new moon time as an opportunity to deeply recommit to that dream and begin a new, greater relationship with it. Without that kind of commitment, it will just stay a thought bubble until it becomes a last breath regret. So you must get married to the personal dream you have for your life. You must own it.

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Kill Your Inner “Blah Blah Blah”

This Gemini full moon wants you to trust that you already know the truth for your life

So I end up having a glass of wine and some avocado fries with my man and his lovely Gemini friend of many years. We toast to the Gemini full moon, and she asks, “What does it mean?” Now I have been mulling it over for the last few days and, until that point, I hadn’t been able to distill it down. But in that moment, I just uttered, “It’s time to let go of the chatter.” She paused, then nodded and sipped her wine. “There’s a lot of chatter.” And in analyzing the chart for this current full moon some more, as well as just being a person in the world right now, I must agree with that blurted out statement.

It’s time to let go of the chatter, everyone. Sure, shift is in the air. We are all in the midst of some major transformation, whether we’re having babies, changing jobs, moving homes, or adjusting our self-perceptions to align with who we want to be. And that kind of bold evolution will cause our minds to work overtime with ideas, worry, and questions. Thoughts get cluttered, and we easily confuse that deeply honest voice of truth with the lesser ego-centered voices that stem from fear, pain, and hurt. And it sucks, because they both kind of sound alike and it can get to the point where one can’t tell the difference. But let’s face it. If you just settle down long enough and ask yourself any question, the correct answer is usually the first thing that comes up.

Kill your inner blah blah blah and let the soul’s voice emerge

This Gemini full moon wants you to trust that you already know the truth for your life. So all of this questioning, second-guessing, and moments of confusion are really just procrastination masquerading as your thoughts. So kill your inner blah blah blah and let the soul’s voice emerge. Believe that it has your best interest in mind, and that it won’t allow you to step into something that will destroy your heart, endanger your body, or ridicule your existence. Know that your personal growth is already in motion. You just have to be still long enough to get caught up in the current. Because if you’re flailing about, and that’s probably what you’re mind is doing most of the time, then you’ll never be light enough to be swept away to your destiny.

Let’s look at each of the signs and get a better sense of how this could be personally affecting you:

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I’m Fucking Awesome, And So Are You

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This weekend’s full moon in Taurus urges you to connect your sense of self-worth to the life you allow yourself to live

For the first time in almost ten years, I don’t have a full-time job. I have work, which helps to define me. I have astrology. I am a writer. I am helping to produce a film. But at this moment in time, none of these things are currently adding much to my bank account on a consistent basis. Now it has been somewhat liberating. I have been allowed the opportunity to guide myself toward the things I want to focus on. But it has also been as scary as plummeting through a crack in the earth.

When I was leaving my last job back in May, a good Taurus friend who had just been through the process told me that it was going to bring up some things. Fear. Anxiety. And he said to just let them come on. They’re real emotions, and they shouldn’t be ignored. Thankfully, I did have the film project to look forward to, and that came along a few months later in more of a full-time way. But over the last couple of months, my participation in it leveled off some, and I found myself back in the space of “What the fuck”.

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We all have a responsibility to regard ourselves with dignity and delight

Though there has been more time to dive into my creativity and my astrology work, I have been a little beaten up by the ego in the mirror. He has been talking a lot about money and rent and the future. And in a moment of weakness, there was inner talk of needing to find “a real job”. But if I were to cave and go back into the wheel I just recently vacated, I wouldn’t be honoring my spiritual truth. Because I wouldn’t be honoring the gifts I’ve been given and that I should be using for my livelihood. It’s this push toward a greater faith in ourselves that the current astrological climate wants us to recognize and step into

This weekend’s full moon in Taurus urges you to connect your sense of self-worth to the life you allow yourself to live. If you are feeling stuck, then it may be because you don’t truly believe in your abilities. Recognize that your deepest feelings of self-confidence directly reflect your circumstances. That can be hard for some to ingest. “Why would I believe myself into unhappiness?” Well, because underneath it all, you haven’t truly told yourself that you deserve to be happy. And that kind of shit can wedge into your psyche deep, causing you to act out in seemingly childish, unconscious ways. Please know that you will continue to do so until you face the truth of your pain connected to feelings of failure and being less-than what you dreamed you would be. Once you go into all that, then you will truly begin to feel liberated from your ego’s hold.

We all have a responsibility to regard ourselves with dignity and delight. So there is no reason for any of us to waste our lives devoting time toward experiences that lack our passion. Sure, life will hand us ridiculously challenging experiences that are beyond our psyche’s control. But it’s how we then respond to them that defines us. And if we can respond with some sense of self-worth, then we are aiming higher.

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Attach your worth to what’s really in your heart

Now is the time to show ourselves that we deserve to do what we love. If we can offer ourselves that gift, then the Universe will recognize and offer a gift in return. It may not be a million dollars, but it could be! At the very least, it will be some sort of tangible reminder that when you attach your worth to what’s really in your heart, then your actual value in life will go up. That is because you finally deem yourself good enough to receive it.

Let’s take a closer look at the signs to see what area in your life this may be affecting. And remember to check out your rising sign too, if you know it.

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Your Rebirth is Now

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Just see the new you emerging and dive into the wave of it

My plan this morning was to wake up early and channel the Scorpio new moon’s energy to write one of my usual posts on it. However, Uranus, the ruler of surprise, was directly involved in my personal new moon and where it fell in my chart, so it brought on an unexpected turn of events. I awoke to some messages that a relative had gone into the hospital and was not doing very well. After speaking to my parents, it was revealed that he would probably not make it for much longer. Though not incredibly close to him, I knew it was important for me to go and be with my family. Thus my afternoon of writing turned into a day in the hospital, feeling grief and sadness. In a way, it was actually an experience suited to the Scorpio new moon as it was literally about the sign’s greatest marker. Death. But it also allowed me to spend some very intimate time with the people I love most dearly in life, and to see the other important element of Scorpio. Rebirth.

My family and I are not the same people we were a decade or two ago. Once divided by pain, anger, and addiction, we have since transformed into a clan that now puts love first. Sure, we still have some collective healing to do, but we have truly evolved in a remarkably positive way. However, our family’s rebirth hasn’t kept me from still reacting to them from those old feelings of pain or anger. At times, it would be like the twelve year old me was in the room again, feeling all of the same emotions that tore him up inside so many years ago. And then I would be frustrated at myself for still holding onto the past in such an emotional way. It was a vicious cycle.

Today though, I saw that I was able to engage them without feeling any of the old childhood crap at my feet. The young me wasn’t even in the room. Instead, today I was just present as the man I am now. I guess you could say that seeing another man at death’s door will force you into the moment. I have also been experiencing a pretty powerful inner shift leading up to today. The old elements of me that no longer belong have been seriously put on trial as of late. And I think today’s experience helped them to get their final sentencing. I also know I’m not the only one feeling this inner urge to shift and evolve.

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