Kill Your Inner “Blah Blah Blah”

This Gemini full moon wants you to trust that you already know the truth for your life

So I end up having a glass of wine and some avocado fries with my man and his lovely Gemini friend of many years. We toast to the Gemini full moon, and she asks, “What does it mean?” Now I have been mulling it over for the last few days and, until that point, I hadn’t been able to distill it down. But in that moment, I just uttered, “It’s time to let go of the chatter.” She paused, then nodded and sipped her wine. “There’s a lot of chatter.” And in analyzing the chart for this current full moon some more, as well as just being a person in the world right now, I must agree with that blurted out statement.

It’s time to let go of the chatter, everyone. Sure, shift is in the air. We are all in the midst of some major transformation, whether we’re having babies, changing jobs, moving homes, or adjusting our self-perceptions to align with who we want to be. And that kind of bold evolution will cause our minds to work overtime with ideas, worry, and questions. Thoughts get cluttered, and we easily confuse that deeply honest voice of truth with the lesser ego-centered voices that stem from fear, pain, and hurt. And it sucks, because they both kind of sound alike and it can get to the point where one can’t tell the difference. But let’s face it. If you just settle down long enough and ask yourself any question, the correct answer is usually the first thing that comes up.

Kill your inner blah blah blah and let the soul’s voice emerge

This Gemini full moon wants you to trust that you already know the truth for your life. So all of this questioning, second-guessing, and moments of confusion are really just procrastination masquerading as your thoughts. So kill your inner blah blah blah and let the soul’s voice emerge. Believe that it has your best interest in mind, and that it won’t allow you to step into something that will destroy your heart, endanger your body, or ridicule your existence. Know that your personal growth is already in motion. You just have to be still long enough to get caught up in the current. Because if you’re flailing about, and that’s probably what you’re mind is doing most of the time, then you’ll never be light enough to be swept away to your destiny.

Let’s look at each of the signs and get a better sense of how this could be personally affecting you:

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I’m Fucking Awesome, And So Are You

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This weekend’s full moon in Taurus urges you to connect your sense of self-worth to the life you allow yourself to live

For the first time in almost ten years, I don’t have a full-time job. I have work, which helps to define me. I have astrology. I am a writer. I am helping to produce a film. But at this moment in time, none of these things are currently adding much to my bank account on a consistent basis. Now it has been somewhat liberating. I have been allowed the opportunity to guide myself toward the things I want to focus on. But it has also been as scary as plummeting through a crack in the earth.

When I was leaving my last job back in May, a good Taurus friend who had just been through the process told me that it was going to bring up some things. Fear. Anxiety. And he said to just let them come on. They’re real emotions, and they shouldn’t be ignored. Thankfully, I did have the film project to look forward to, and that came along a few months later in more of a full-time way. But over the last couple of months, my participation in it leveled off some, and I found myself back in the space of “What the fuck”.

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We all have a responsibility to regard ourselves with dignity and delight

Though there has been more time to dive into my creativity and my astrology work, I have been a little beaten up by the ego in the mirror. He has been talking a lot about money and rent and the future. And in a moment of weakness, there was inner talk of needing to find “a real job”. But if I were to cave and go back into the wheel I just recently vacated, I wouldn’t be honoring my spiritual truth. Because I wouldn’t be honoring the gifts I’ve been given and that I should be using for my livelihood. It’s this push toward a greater faith in ourselves that the current astrological climate wants us to recognize and step into

This weekend’s full moon in Taurus urges you to connect your sense of self-worth to the life you allow yourself to live. If you are feeling stuck, then it may be because you don’t truly believe in your abilities. Recognize that your deepest feelings of self-confidence directly reflect your circumstances. That can be hard for some to ingest. “Why would I believe myself into unhappiness?” Well, because underneath it all, you haven’t truly told yourself that you deserve to be happy. And that kind of shit can wedge into your psyche deep, causing you to act out in seemingly childish, unconscious ways. Please know that you will continue to do so until you face the truth of your pain connected to feelings of failure and being less-than what you dreamed you would be. Once you go into all that, then you will truly begin to feel liberated from your ego’s hold.

We all have a responsibility to regard ourselves with dignity and delight. So there is no reason for any of us to waste our lives devoting time toward experiences that lack our passion. Sure, life will hand us ridiculously challenging experiences that are beyond our psyche’s control. But it’s how we then respond to them that defines us. And if we can respond with some sense of self-worth, then we are aiming higher.

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Attach your worth to what’s really in your heart

Now is the time to show ourselves that we deserve to do what we love. If we can offer ourselves that gift, then the Universe will recognize and offer a gift in return. It may not be a million dollars, but it could be! At the very least, it will be some sort of tangible reminder that when you attach your worth to what’s really in your heart, then your actual value in life will go up. That is because you finally deem yourself good enough to receive it.

Let’s take a closer look at the signs to see what area in your life this may be affecting. And remember to check out your rising sign too, if you know it.

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Your Rebirth is Now

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Just see the new you emerging and dive into the wave of it

My plan this morning was to wake up early and channel the Scorpio new moon’s energy to write one of my usual posts on it. However, Uranus, the ruler of surprise, was directly involved in my personal new moon and where it fell in my chart, so it brought on an unexpected turn of events. I awoke to some messages that a relative had gone into the hospital and was not doing very well. After speaking to my parents, it was revealed that he would probably not make it for much longer. Though not incredibly close to him, I knew it was important for me to go and be with my family. Thus my afternoon of writing turned into a day in the hospital, feeling grief and sadness. In a way, it was actually an experience suited to the Scorpio new moon as it was literally about the sign’s greatest marker. Death. But it also allowed me to spend some very intimate time with the people I love most dearly in life, and to see the other important element of Scorpio. Rebirth.

My family and I are not the same people we were a decade or two ago. Once divided by pain, anger, and addiction, we have since transformed into a clan that now puts love first. Sure, we still have some collective healing to do, but we have truly evolved in a remarkably positive way. However, our family’s rebirth hasn’t kept me from still reacting to them from those old feelings of pain or anger. At times, it would be like the twelve year old me was in the room again, feeling all of the same emotions that tore him up inside so many years ago. And then I would be frustrated at myself for still holding onto the past in such an emotional way. It was a vicious cycle.

Today though, I saw that I was able to engage them without feeling any of the old childhood crap at my feet. The young me wasn’t even in the room. Instead, today I was just present as the man I am now. I guess you could say that seeing another man at death’s door will force you into the moment. I have also been experiencing a pretty powerful inner shift leading up to today. The old elements of me that no longer belong have been seriously put on trial as of late. And I think today’s experience helped them to get their final sentencing. I also know I’m not the only one feeling this inner urge to shift and evolve.

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I’m So Over Mercury Retrograde

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It’s now become synonymous with the general state of things just going into “all fucked-up” mode

You’ve probably seen it in your Facebook newsfeed or overheard it in the kitchen at work. Or perhaps you yourself have uttered it out loud. “Mercury is in retrograde”. It’s now become synonymous with the general state of things just going into “all fucked-up” mode. Yes, it does signify a time when computers go all bonkers and important pieces of work don’t save properly or disappear all together. Mercury does rule communication. So Mercury was probably looking the other way when Carrie Bradshaw’s Mac got the “sad face”, and she learned the harsh rule of needing to back up her work. Hell, even I was hit with the device breakdown of it all when my Ipod had its recent meltdown (Mercury on Shuffle). But I do think people amplify the effects of this transit by looking for it in everything. A miscommunication occurs. Mercury retrograde. That check gets lost in the mail. Mercury retrograde. An entire bag of chocolate chip cookies finds its way into your house and then into your belly, all in one night. Mercury retrograde. Sure, its hazy ways can confuse or complicate things. But the point of it isn’t to just make your life harder, or to assign it blame when something seemingly goes wrong. In fact, Mercury and its current retrograde have some important business for you to attend to at this time.

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So what’s the deal, Mercury?

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The Aries Full Moon That Wants To Rock Your World

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This Aries Full Moon wants you to reconnect to an area of your life where you crave creativity, inspiration, and action

Usually I start my posts out talking about me. However this time, I want to talk about you. I want to talk about how you are trying your best to get in touch with your highest self while at the same time trying to be fabulous in your everyday life. You want enlightenment but then want to go shopping after attaining it. You want to be in a job that you like but more so, one that utilizes your specific talents and passions. You don’t want to feel like you’re wasting your time, unless it’s your decision to do so on a TV binge, Instagram session, or Candy Crush marathon. You want to be open to surprise in your romantic life, but you also want a clearer understanding of the bigger picture – are you going to get married/stay married or not? Should you be a parent? That question burns even more so if you already have a child. And yes, you’re probably wondering what the hell you should do or be for Halloween. Well aren’t we all?

That is just my point. Aren’t we all? Yes, we’re all snowflakes, each one of us unique in our atomic chemistry. But at the same time, we also all strive, question, and contemplate life’s big questions. We all live inside of a world inside of our heads. We all fear. We all enjoy. We all get confused. And we all, at times, wish someone or something would just come along and say, “This is your path. Get on it and walk.” The funny thing is, this actually does happen for us all – probably daily. We receive answers to our questions in forms of things we watch or read, overheard conversations, or spurts of internal dialogue whose authenticity we then question. This collective universality of experience is extremely important to keep awareness of if one aims to be a loving, compassionate human being. And it is especially something to be aware of as we enter this Aries Full Moon.

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Reset your emotional clock and get on track with your precise plan

The current astrological climate is rather aggressive in its desire to push us all toward actualizing our greater selves. Yes, it may feel like the planets and stars are always eagerly urging us in the direction of higher self-realization. Well, that’s because the Universe has that as the ultimate goal for each of us. And for each, being one’s “greater self” looks different. But we all have a specific cosmic blueprint to follow. And when the full moon is in Aries, the first sign of the Zodiac, it’s a yearly opportunity to reset your emotional clock and get on track with your precise plan.

This Aries Full Moon wants you to reconnect to an area of your life where you crave creativity, inspiration, and action. Being that it’s illuminated by the Sun in Libra, it wants you to do this while recognizing that you are one with those around you. We may not all come from the same place emotionally, physically, or mentally, but our spirits are from one source. So in order to move forward, you must see that oneness. So, you may be dealing with a soul-crushing co-worker or boss, or your significant other may be disconnected and taking it out on you. You may just be frustrated with your own stalled progress around a project, job search, or emotional quandary. Whatever the case, you must hold compassion for everyone involved so that you can then be calm and clear enough to see the path light up before you. It may just be time to leave that work or relationship situation. Or you may have a light bulb moment around a question or process you’ve been stuck in. None of this can occur when you’re pointing the finger. And that includes pointing it at the mirror.

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Take your growth seriously or else just flounder

So how are you opening yourself up to a new start within? And where have you felt a stagnancy or apprehension to make change? Trust that this new emotional beginning of some sort won’t be easy. There is struggle in it, but it’s coming from a place of love. The Universe wants you to work hard for the gifts it has in store. It wants you to take your growth seriously or else just flounder. In a way, it’s like exam time in school. So are you going to come correct and take the test? Or you just gonna doodle in the margins? If getting in touch with that highest self really is as important to you as I think it is, then you’re going to put your head down, bite the end of that pen, and get to work.

Let’s get a closer look at the area of your life that could help unlock the door to this exciting, life-growing process:

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The Idea of You and a New Moon in Libra

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What’s the idea you have for yourself?

A few weeks ago, I got back from Minnesota where I was working as a producer on a feature film.  This is the first time that I have worked in this capacity on a movie, and the actual production process was rewarding, exhausting, and one of the most challenging experiences of my life.  And the hours were simply not cute.  Actually, neither was I after a couple days of it.  But my greatest struggle wasn’t sleep deprivation or maintaining my girlish figure amidst the tables of craft service.  Those were easy to manage in comparison to dealing with the internal question mark that arose over myself as the shoot wore on.

I went into this filming process thinking I had a pretty clear idea of myself.  I’m a 36-year-old man.  I got issues, but I know who I am.  However, through this journey, I was forced to question the ideas of me I had in place time and again.  For instance, I thought I was entirely compassionate when I’m actually a bit of a shady bitch.  My thought that I was cautious in my decision making actually read to others as uncertain and lacking in confidence.  And I saw that questioning my instincts was a constant epidemic of my mind, and it never lead to anything but disappointment.  Mostly, I realized that one shouldn’t just sit idly by, waiting on a ship to come in.  With that, all you do is grow old on some dock, watching as others go on about their lives.

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When heavy trouble would arise on set, my go-to would be to just sit and observe.  Someone smarter would come along and handle.  But that mentality does nothing for one’s personal growth.  And sometimes, I am that someone smarter.  So I had to push myself to get involved.  No one was going to ask my opinion.  I had to force others to hear my voice.  Thus, I forced myself to hear my own voice and acknowledge it.  And that was something, with the exception of this blog, I had subtly squashed and put into submission as of late.

If we can’t see ourselves fresh every day, then we’re not giving ourselves the opportunity to truly evolve.

All this has allowed for a new me to emerge.  I’m bolder.  I’m more confident.  And I’m less afraid to speak up about what I feel with the fear of rejection hanging over me.  But this shift isn’t just about my actions.  It’s about mentality.  It’s about changing the idea I have of me.  This is a perfect kind of realization for the astrological climate around this new moon in Libra.

What’s the idea you have for yourself?  For one, there’s a sense of how we think we come across to others, which is usually a sharp difference from the actual truth.  We can also identify ourselves too much around a job, a relationship, or even our gender or sexual identity.  And sometimes, we labor to craft the perfect idea of what we think our lives should be.  We know the career we want or would excel at if we weren’t stuck in the one we were currently in, and we think it’s just a matter of time before the boss notices or the Universe opens the door to the right opportunity.  But really, that’s all bullshit.  If we can’t see ourselves fresh every day, then we’re not giving ourselves the opportunity to truly evolve.  We then can’t relate to others from an honest place.  And we rob ourselves of growth and attaining a true balance within which is really all Libra wants us to do.

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The process of finding your balance can be wobbly at times, so it requires movement.

Libra craves and creates balance, especially in relationships with others.  But as people, we can only project a peaceful equilibrium and attract those who have one if we truly feel it inside.  Right now, the planets want us to meet a new idea for ourselves.  We need to be honest about what we’re looking for in our lives and stop letting our circumstances dictate what we feel, think, and do.  Each of us is a unique being with a set of lessons to take on.  So take a look at your life.  Are you connecting and activating your specific life plan, or are you just responding to the world and events around you?  If you’re not being active in the process, then you’re not achieving balance.  The process of finding your balance can be wobbly at times, so it requires movement.  Like in yoga, we must fall down when trying to hold a pose to fully know the strength and power of its opposition: complete stillness.

Let’s look more specifically at the signs and how this can be playing out for you:

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That Full Moon When You Dared to be Different

Embrace your uniqueness to a point that you feel uncomfortable

I was very excited and overwhelmed when I found out that we are having two Aquarius full moons this year.  It’s not usual to have two full moons in the same sign in one year.  But occasionally, the world turns in a way that allows us to catch one at the very beginning and one at the very ending of a sign.  Being that I have a number of Aquarius’s in my life, including my mother and the man who I share my life with, I am pretty familiar with their energy.  It’s quirky, out-of-the-box, inventive, and a bit unpredictable.  In total, this can all translate to being rather exciting or extremely tiring.  Thus, the next month or so will be a bit of both.  I know, we’re all pretty exhausted from Mercury’s little stint in retrograde.  However, this will be a good kind of exhaustion.  It’s the kind of exhaustion that will stem from personal productivity toward an important goal rather than just sheer mental worry and confusion, which is something I’m sure all of us could use a break from right now.  Especially when that worry is built from trying to please everyone around us.

It’s interesting how much stock we all can put into how others perceive us.  We will all make important decisions for our lives based off of what we think other people will think of our choices.  Now that is some tiring shit.  I mean you’re already worrying about what you want.  Then, add the concern of what you think other people will think about what you want, and you’re totally wiped out from the stress of worrying about you and everyone else.  Well, Aquarius doesn’t have time for worry.  It wants you to embrace your uniqueness to a point that you feel uncomfortable.  That way, the thought of how others perceive you will vanish from the equation.  Aquarius simply thrives on being completely different from everyone else.  So with these two full moons, the rest of this summer is all about the need to own that special something we each possess inside.

Give over to the wave of your own crazy sexy coolness

You have to be okay with showing people who you really are.  Some may be shocked by how verbally passionate you seem to suddenly be about an issue or project.  Or they may wonder why you’re now deciding to go back to school or take up a seemingly odd hobby.  But the great thing is that you have no reason to care about what they think.  You are the only one on the path of your internal compass.  You are the only one who has to stand accountable to yourself at the end of the day.  And you are the only one who is in charge of your personal happiness.  So stand in your power and give over to the wave of your own crazy sexy coolness.  If you can, it will wash away the bullshit layer you have allowed others to place on your mind, your heart, and your life.  And from there, you can start the process of coming clean.

So know that this is a two-parter.  Again, we have another Aquarius full moon next month, so you have a lot to release around one aspect of yourself.  So start gently and prepare to get real.  Let’s take a closer look at how all this could work for you:

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